Bleh!!! Meh!!!!!! I knew I had to sleep last night so I took 70mg of amitriptyline and 6mg of diazepam and went to bed early. Normal dose for sleep for amitriptyline for sleep is 10-20mg. 6mg of diazepam was 2/3 of my daily dose on my current taper plan. I was determined not to undercook it. After 2 hours in bed I looked at the clock, I had been awake for 2 hours with a busy day today I HAD to get some sleep, so I got up and ended up taking another 6mg of diazepam, screwing my taper up and going well over my daily allowance. End result I think I managed got get 6 hours of sleep. I can't believe it's taking that amount of medication just to get to sleep. It's really not cool when I don't sleep properly as I start making mistakes that I don't realise and this jeopardises my job and income.
Also ironically, I've had 2 days unable to access my higher paying and preferred work projects so have had 2 days where I earned next to nothing. Today I've got to be out and about and can't have access to my laptop until late evening and guess what, one of the projects is sitting there in my workflow, taunting me with its availability. Unfortunately the projects go into pools and if they sit there for a while someone else will pick them up and they'll be gone.
Am hoping I don't get another mega-insomnia stretch. As for the diazepam taper, I'll just have to hope the blip doesn't reset my brain to that dose and I have to start all over again, I'd got it down to 9mg a day but then started with the sleep problems.