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MisterBGone

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Like I want to end things I was already suffering from food poisoning but I then found out at 3am I have made a massive mistake which added a massive wave of depression and feeling like I should end things took my Sertraline at 5am hoping it would help so far no
I'm sorry to hear of this @MAC0 - that is one terrible combo to go through! One or the other would have been plenty bad enough, I'm sure. . . Here's hoping things improve & that the feeling dissipates~ . Take Care ( :

I think, too - that especially in the case of the 'massive mistake,' being unintended: or "unintentional," on your behalf, or your part... that then it is ok to acknowledge that is was an honest one, for we can simply chalk-up to being human (sadly, unfortunately, I know... b/c I'd have been much rather born an Orangutan!). :) peace

...& food poisoning, is - rarely fun.
 
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MisterBGone

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Frustrated and a little frightened.

Woke up gasping, my oxygen was 87 (this is low enough to cause problems)

Now, I am on a bipap AND oxygen, so idk maybe the oxygen concentrator isn't working? or maybe I need more liters?

will call the oxygen company in the morning to get them to come out and check the equipment, if that checks out I guess its back to the effing sleep doctor

FML
Sorry Angie, Yeah I don't know for sure... but I've heard that anything below 90 is not good! Best wishes to you on the resolution, for certain. . .
 

MisterBGone

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Bleh!!! Meh!!!!!! I knew I had to sleep last night so I took 70mg of amitriptyline and 6mg of diazepam and went to bed early. Normal dose for sleep for amitriptyline for sleep is 10-20mg. 6mg of diazepam was 2/3 of my daily dose on my current taper plan. I was determined not to undercook it. After 2 hours in bed I looked at the clock, I had been awake for 2 hours with a busy day today I HAD to get some sleep, so I got up and ended up taking another 6mg of diazepam, screwing my taper up and going well over my daily allowance. End result I think I managed got get 6 hours of sleep. I can't believe it's taking that amount of medication just to get to sleep. It's really not cool when I don't sleep properly as I start making mistakes that I don't realise and this jeopardises my job and income.

Also ironically, I've had 2 days unable to access my higher paying and preferred work projects so have had 2 days where I earned next to nothing. Today I've got to be out and about and can't have access to my laptop until late evening and guess what, one of the projects is sitting there in my workflow, taunting me with its availability. Unfortunately the projects go into pools and if they sit there for a while someone else will pick them up and they'll be gone.

Am hoping I don't get another mega-insomnia stretch. As for the diazepam taper, I'll just have to hope the blip doesn't reset my brain to that dose and I have to start all over again, I'd got it down to 9mg a day but then started with the sleep problems.
Might you be able to consult w/yr. dr. on the taper-down? Just to see if they have any helpful feedback, or input? And on the AD's (& that one, in particular). just be careful not to overdo it (both at once, and over the long/er haul; can be hard on some things that are pretty important, on the off-chance that you didn't know). Sounds stressful, and not any easier to handle with the significant sleep disturbances. So I hope you can get some positive momentum headed in the other direction as quickly & as swiftly as possible (or is reasonably to be expected!).
 

MisterBGone

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Thank you. I have seen ageism all my life. The jokes about the slow driver. The old lady taking too long to check out at the market. How seniors tell the same story. How they cap heat. On and on. I really think younger people do not think older people hurt.
Try not to take it too much to Heart, if you can. I know, it is easier said than done! For it does hurt. But just know, as I'm sure you do & are fully aware: that it is all boiled down to ignorance, and not knowing; etc. Not that any of this makes it any more acceptabel--or easier to digest~ / however! the good news is this: one day they'll all be here/or there - as well! ( ; Plus, you're perfectly correct, in that -- I don't believe that they realize the effects that their seemingly innocent comments tend to have. As they cannot relate, perhaps? And it is not emphasized on or to the same manner or / of degree, with or within the public conscious.
 

Lane

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Tired of being rejected and hurt. My birthday fell on a Saturday two weeks ago. No birthday greetings at work but it is their policy to recognize everyone’s birthday. We had a sports day the following Thursday with hot dogs and all. The administrative assistant saw the reminder for my birthday on the annual calendar the following week and she decided that the hot dog lunch was my birthday celebration. Really? Does she really think I could not see through that? In summary there was no recognition of my birthday. Not even the annual birthday card. And they never asked me if I like hot dogs or can eat them. But today a coworker was recognized with a birthday sheet cake with her name on it too. So they went out of their way to order it and had her name put on it. I am a good person. A good worker. But I am the oldest. Over 60. It is like seniors have no value or feelings or worth.
That's terrible of them Waves. And how unprofessional and classless of the administrative assistant. You definitely deserve better. A belated Happy Birthday to you.
 

Walker

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Yeah it's kind of funny, I watch the politically correct comedians in the UK who rip racist and homophobic people to bits, but in the next breath they're looking at a clip of Biden or something and making jokes about his age.
Truth. Some things are still "okay" to make fun of (age being one of them but there are others. I just dont want to start any arguing here). It's good that these things are slowing falling away though. You used to be able to really make fun of gay people not all that long ago (and still can in lots of places, I guess) but at least this stuff is now being seen for what it really is.
 

MisterBGone

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We've talked about having a politics forum haha But there are so many places people can do that so it has always been nixed.
I think as long as we keep it centered around this country--& that is: the best one in the world. I believe I've read this conclusively! We'll be just fine. Nothing but manners, and the utmost respect; for the opposing side. Their beliefs, their views, differ as they may. They can not separate us / or keep us from coming to-gether each day, on the cap hill. And just (to) chill. Enjoy the air & the mutual ambiance/ence~ It's one big giant kumbaya, me thinks! ;D The acts of charity know no bounds. The generosity, unfounded anywhere else in the world. Why don't we just get rid of the two-party system? For there is almost no need. And begin anew; w/this! Universal (one). Say what you will: & all mass-criticisms aside; they do have some rather colorful folk(s). And I admire (some of) their "personalities," shall we say? Steroid-inflated as they may be. But we can all use a little bit of ego, esp. around these parts. [sf] -Maybe not so much w/or in Congress, however. At least when it is done for no good. But enough blabber! :D
 

Lane

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Frustrated and a little frightened.

Woke up gasping, my oxygen was 87 (this is low enough to cause problems)

Now, I am on a bipap AND oxygen, so idk maybe the oxygen concentrator isn't working? or maybe I need more liters?

will call the oxygen company in the morning to get them to come out and check the equipment, if that checks out I guess its back to the effing sleep doctor

FML
I hope it works out Angie and you get to breathing 100 percent. *console
 

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