How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[TreeShade17]

horrendous

 

[1964dodge]

I’m the kind of person who apologises for nothing not always literally by saying sorry feeling sorry blatantly on display because I feel sorry for how I’m treated badly yet I’m convinced by countless people that and made to believe it is right and I’m so how meant to accept being treated like shitand im constantly judged in people’s behaviour towards me I don’t know how anyone can presume that is not wrong and made to believe it is right to manipulate a human harmless living being that they are wrong for absolutely nothing simply for just being and made to feel your wrong for nothing and there is rarely anyone with a heart who is on my side

 

[1964dodge]

Thanks dodge

you are welcome. you are a good person but are suffering by people that don't care about your happiness. i have read your other posts and have made some observations. first you do mistakes but you are human and like ALL humans you will make them. if you make a mistake people shouldn't confront you with it and if they think it's important then tell you of your mistake on an equal and empathic way.

i also notice you let other peoples opinions bother you way too much. you know who you are. you also know you are a good person. instead of getting upset because of how people treat you, think about how you would feel if they treated me or any other friend on SF. would you think it was fair or would you be mad how they treated us. then go by those same standards for how they treat you. i think you are a good person and i hope you can see that

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I just need to feel validated for once please do it please

you are valid. it doesn't matter how i feel as much as how you feel. look deep into yourself and i'm sure you will see your validity

mike....

 

[tearsinmycoffee]

Neutral. I'm not feeling good or bad, I'm just kinda here existing.

 

[LumberJack]

I want to die, but I’m not going to do it myself. I have a lot of thoughts. Noisy brain.

 

[Road to Nowhere]

 

[cymbele]

I'm on vacation until January 2. I know I'll be lonely sometimes but I have not told many people that I have the time off. I want to do some projects, sleep to 7am, and get some exercise. And celebrate the holidays in spite of having to travel. It is really a short time. I will babysit my grandson on NYE. Then back to work. But I'm grateful that I have the time.
It's still strange to me to think of the future when I spent many years trying to plan my death. But I'm ok now.

 

[Aurelia]

I'm on vacation until January 2. I know I'll be lonely sometimes but I have not told many people that I have the time off. I want to do some projects, sleep to 7am, and get some exercise. And celebrate the holidays in spite of having to travel. It is really a short time. I will babysit my grandson on NYE. Then back to work. But I'm grateful that I have the time.
It's still strange to me to think of the future when I spent many years trying to plan my death. But I'm ok now.

It is very clear to me that it's not your time to die yet. (Mod edit - guidelines) Try to enjoy your life as much as you can.

 

[AvidFan]

Weird. I just finished my last call until Jan 8th. I am officially on holiday from one job, and the other job I can do as little or as much as I want, I just have to submit a report which is nearly done. It's over for now. No bus, no calls, no calendar juggling. I think it will take the evening to sink in. I've got my tree flashing to put me in the Christmas mood 😊

 

[robbie2499]

Kind of sad and down. It's the holiday's and I miss so many loved ones. My health is going down (incurable disease, progressing). I need to pick myself up if just for a little while.

 

[luminance]

Painful migraine and feeling nauseous. I have to avoid looking down and just look at the ceiling from time to time. Also catching my breath. I need to sleep.

 

[Widowedvegan]

Kind of sad and down. It's the holiday's and I miss so many loved ones. My health is going down (incurable disease, progressing). I need to pick myself up if just for a little while.

So sorry about your declining health @robbie2499 …
Missing Loved Ones at the Holidays sure is tough so feeling sad and down is rather normal… Good to hear that you are trying to inspire yourself to be a bit more up…

 

[Holding my breath]

I said goodbye to my Dad today. I have been dreading the funeral, I pictured the whole thing in my head time and time again, but today it was real, today was the day. I cried the whole time, but once it was over I felt so much lighter, like the pressure had finally lifted. Still running on adrenaline this evening; the plan for tomorrow - sleep.

 

[Widowedvegan]

I said goodbye to my Dad today. I have been dreading the funeral, I pictured the whole thing in my head time and time again, but today it was real, today was the day. I cried the whole time, but once it was over I felt so much lighter, like the pressure had finally lifted. Still running on adrenaline this evening; the plan for tomorrow - sleep.

I hope that you sleep well @Holding my breath , you deserve it…
The early days of grieving are often fuelled by adrenaline, hopefully you will get some rest… I am glad that you’ve felt the release of pressure through crying it is often quite healing…

 

[Chargette]

I'm feeling tired and overwhelmed. I'm sleeping this afternoon.

 

[1Lefty]

I said goodbye to my Dad today. I have been dreading the funeral, I pictured the whole thing in my head time and time again, but today it was real, today was the day. I cried the whole time, but once it was over I felt so much lighter, like the pressure had finally lifted. Still running on adrenaline this evening; the plan for tomorrow - sleep.

peace

 

[UrbanRose]

i hope your depression can be brought under control. have you talked to your doctor? he may be able to help with meds/therapy. even if you have you can still tell him you're still suffering depression. and it's ok to waste a day with or without depression

mike....

My primary is a physician's assistant. I haven't seen her in quite a while. I don't discuss depression with her.

Some years ago I did, and she referred me to the psychiatrist that works at their clinic. I asked him for Ritalin. He prescribed that. It wasn't much help. He was never interested in how I was doing. I haven't seen him in about 4 years.

Talking with a therapist might help a little. That's hard to get in my healthcare system.

Today has been a bad day for me. I just want to keep lying down.

 

[AvidFan]

I said goodbye to my Dad today. I have been dreading the funeral, I pictured the whole thing in my head time and time again, but today it was real, today was the day. I cried the whole time, but once it was over I felt so much lighter, like the pressure had finally lifted. Still running on adrenaline this evening; the plan for tomorrow - sleep.

Tears do somehow leave you lighter - but people fight them all the time! If you need to sob, sob. And I hope sleep comes and soothes you. The day of the funeral is so hard, you have done great to get through the day and do everything you needed to. Rest well and go easy on yourself.

 

[LumberJack]

Very self critical. Lots of regrets along the lines of, Why did I say this instead of that???

It’s maddening. People don’t even remember what words they hear compared to the nonverbal communication. So why be a perfectionist about saying just the right thing ALL the time?? But I do it. I want to say, ffs I’m doing my best, and I’m not even skilled at verbal communication! It’s so hard.

Most of this comes from a desire to be honest, as in say what I did, and do what I say I will. At some point an approximation is going to have to be good enough.