How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Widowedvegan]

Very self critical. Lots of regrets along the lines of, Why did I say this instead of that???

It’s maddening. People don’t even remember what words they hear compared to the nonverbal communication. So why be a perfectionist about saying just the right thing ALL the time?? But I do it. I want to say, ffs I’m doing my best, and I’m not even skilled at verbal communication! It’s so hard.

Most of this comes from a desire to be honest, as in say what I did, and do what I say I will. At some point an approximation is going to have to be good enough.

Being aware of your thoughts and self criticism is the beginning, changing them is often more difficult… It sounds like you are trying hard to Be and Act well, that is being a Good person, now try to treat yourself as you as you try to treat others…
I know, easier said than done…

 

[Bergerac]

Just done

 

[puffymilk]

Sleepy. My circadian rhythm is messed up.

 

[Bergerac]

When you want to talk, and people can only say basic statements. Put your back in.

 

[Aurelia]

I have faith today that God will heal me in time if I stay patient. He will help me cope with my sorrows and obstacles in the meantime and help life feel more enjoyable. I talked to Him and He gave me a message that He will heal me in time. I have to remember that the suffering I am going through right now is temporary and I have to get through it to get to the other side and feel His light shine upon me. Every time I find myself crying and praying, He sends me a similar message. He gives me hope. Everything is okay today.

 

[AvidFan]

Messed up. Keep thinking it's Saturday but it's actually Friday and can't quite believe I'm off my leash. Time to rest and recover, ordered myself some Christmas treats from the internet fairy 😀

 

[Bergerac]

Messed up. Keep thinking it's Saturday but it's actually Friday and can't quite believe I'm off my leash. Time to rest and recover, ordered myself some Christmas treats from the internet fairy 😀

I thought exactly the same, both last night and this morning. Weird, that.

 

[HappyKitty]

That was close.. When my heart beat went out of rhythm to 59/min... Someone was close tryin to calm me down, struggled to breathe while its forcing its way up again.

 

[luminance]

Have my music on in the background listening to 70/80/90s songs while playing my game, but it somehow makes me feel sad and lonely. Makes me think about the good old days when people were here. I guess it isn't as bad as last year when I almost always instantly shed a tear whenever I listen to these kind of songs, or that it makes me want turn the music off quickly.

 

[1964dodge]

Neutral. I'm not feeling good or bad, I'm just kinda here existing.

neutral is better than doing bad but i hope you can be on the positive side soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Have my music on in the background listening to 70/80/90s songs while playing my game, but it somehow makes me feel sad and lonely. Makes me think about the good old days when people were here. I guess it isn't as bad as last year when I almost always instantly shed a tear whenever I listen to these kind of songs, or that it makes me want turn the music off quickly.

nostalgic songs can bring on all kinds of emotions good and bad. i have one song i listen to when i'm very depressed and it makes things worse, my wife worries if i play it more than once, for me it's 50s, 60s, and 70s.
try listening to nostalgic music that makes you happy within your year range, sometimes we can look back to better times when listening to music from our past

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

I want to die, but I’m not going to do it myself. I have a lot of thoughts. Noisy brain.

please keep fighting those thoughts. in time they can lessen sometimes to the point of being very rare. i had a hard road to recovery like most people and i finally got to the point of them being just passing thoughts most of the time. you are doing a great job so far and i have no doubt that you will get better because you have courage and strength

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

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[1964dodge]

I'm on vacation until January 2. I know I'll be lonely sometimes but I have not told many people that I have the time off. I want to do some projects, sleep to 7am, and get some exercise. And celebrate the holidays in spite of having to travel. It is really a short time. I will babysit my grandson on NYE. Then back to work. But I'm grateful that I have the time.
It's still strange to me to think of the future when I spent many years trying to plan my death. But I'm ok now.

recovery from suicidal thoughts can be a long hard road. you have done a great job fighting to get better ad i'm proud of you . you are an inspiration to others that are suffering, you proved there is always hope

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

Kind of sad and down. It's the holiday's and I miss so many loved ones. My health is going down (incurable disease, progressing). I need to pick myself up if just for a little while.

i'm sorry that you are so sad. if you get lonely around christmas you can come here, there is usually people here even on the holidays. it really takes a person down when suffering from incurable or chronic disease. you are not alone there are people here that understand

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Painful migraine and feeling nauseous. I have to avoid looking down and just look at the ceiling from time to time. Also catching my breath. I need to sleep.

 

[1964dodge]

I said goodbye to my Dad today. I have been dreading the funeral, I pictured the whole thing in my head time and time again, but today it was real, today was the day. I cried the whole time, but once it was over I felt so much lighter, like the pressure had finally lifted. Still running on adrenaline this evening; the plan for tomorrow - sleep.

saying a final goodbye to a parent can be very emotional. i hope you get some rest.

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I'm feeling tired and overwhelmed. I'm sleeping this afternoon.

i hope today is much better for you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

My primary is a physician's assistant. I haven't seen her in quite a while. I don't discuss depression with her.

Some years ago I did, and she referred me to the psychiatrist that works at their clinic. I asked him for Ritalin. He prescribed that. It wasn't much help. He was never interested in how I was doing. I haven't seen him in about 4 years.

Talking with a therapist might help a little. That's hard to get in my healthcare system.

Today has been a bad day for me. I just want to keep lying down.

it may be a good idea to speak to the psychiatrist again and be honest how you feel, you can see if he can refer you to a therapist that could help. if they don't help then maybe see if you can start fresh with a new doctor. i hope things get better for you at least a little soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Just done

i know that feeling i can relate, i have been there many times. sometimes it seems like there is no chance to get better so why try. i will tell you from experience it is worth trying. as you fight hopefully you can find ways to feel better. in my opinion you are doing a good job fighting so far

mike....