How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[PrincessPure]

Idk if my level of insecurity about my bare face is related to how early i started having access to makeup or what. I rememer when some friends of mine in middle school complained about how their moms wont let them use makeup and i found it ridiculous and appreciated my own mother for giving me freedom. As early as kindergarten I used to play with my mom or cousins' makeup. To this day my mom doesnt use it much anyway so its not like i had her as a role model. When I was 10 i asked my aunt for my own set of makeup and she brought me a huge one from London. I loved it so much. Soon enough lipstick became regular and then other items and now here I am...
I am so insecure about my bare face that if i dont wear makeup and have to rush somewhere I hide my face with a face mask and bucket hat.

 

[zuzu]

Not well very lonely

 

[Windhover]

good luck and best wishes @Lane. Hope you get some practice in prior to the interview. zoom isn't hard. It'll be okay.

Thanks you for all the well wishes you've sent me.

 

[1Lefty]

thanks. i sent another message saying i was his brother and not a scam and if he didn't reply i would never bother him again. we have had a lot of bad issues in the past. he did reply and we caught up a lttle. it was SF that made me break the silence. when others have brothers and sisters and my only sibling not talking to. i will be cautious but we are going to meet in person

mike.....

I'm wishing the best for you
I hope it works out fine

peace

 

[Windhover]

I just had to quit my job. She's hurting, I'm crying. This sucks ass. I liked my job and she liked having me.

This is such a blow.

I am also sorry for the car situation Astrid. Your husband should (sorry for using the should word) be forced to help you get a decent vehicle.

Thank you for the hug.

 

[TragicReality]

Thanks for getting back to me. I cannot go to the hospital as I will be abused and give me lot of medication which will not help, I only need love and support, I need to go back to work this will help as I will feel productive I do not need the charity of the government. If I do not have money for food I do not eat, I do not go to food banks it is disgraceful that a G7 country has food banks and they promote it. Giving people things for free they get used too and they think that they deserve. I am extremely pregidist with whom I associate with. I am an educated person not only for post secondary education, mainly because I have manners I treat people with respect. which I am not, everything they ask me where is your accent where are you from now I refuse to answer that instead I tell them I have been living in Canada for over 30 years and I am a fan of ice hockey and I love the snow. By doing what I do I can demonstrate society and the system that I do not need their charity , I can still work age is a number I can work until I reach 90 if I am giving a chance, I know I am writing a lot . Later I will share the good in me . Thanks for your reply.

Hi @zuzu

I've been there, in hospital drugged up long ago. I've also been abused in the psych hospital (restrained against my will, too much medication, too little of my anxiety and sleep medication) so I understand your feelings about the hospital. If you don't want that and you don't want help from food banks or shelters or anything, I really struggle with any advice for you. I know our country shouldn't be the way it is, so many homeless people, people on streets given ''safe houses'' for shooting up drugs etc. It's quite sad.

I have had to accept some charity in my life or my sons wouldn't have had enough food to eat at times. It's nothing shameful, just my thoughts. Honestly it really sounds like you need the help but are wary of it for some reason. If you'd go voluntarily to a hospital it is a different experience. You may only need a few days. You'll get to talk to a professional. If not, seek out free counseling services. The local emergency room where you are can call a crisis counselor to set you up on the path to therapy. I'm sorry you feel excluded in Canada. It sounds like a good idea to keep yourself private, just say ''I've been here for 30 yrs etc.'' like you say. I wish you the best. I hope you come back here, lots of people can get to know you a little. It might take a while to get to know some of us, but I've rarely seen an awful human on here, it is just a screen but remember we are real people and we care. hugss

 

[1964dodge]

I'm glad you broke the ice with your brother. Maybe you guys can move forward, I wish the best for you. Please keep us posted.

thank you i will

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Not well very lonely

i'm sorry @zuzu we are here any time you want to talk

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I'm wishing the best for you
I hope it works out fine

peace

it did work out we talked for a few hours and will meet in person in the near future. i have to be cautious but i'm optomistic

mike....

 

[Windhover]

Hi @zuzu

I've been there, in hospital drugged up long ago. I've also been abused in the psych hospital (restrained against my will, too much medication, too little of my anxiety and sleep medication) so I understand your feelings about the hospital. If you don't want that and you don't want help from food banks or shelters or anything, I really struggle with any advice for you. I know our country shouldn't be the way it is, so many homeless people, people on streets given ''safe houses'' for shooting up drugs etc. It's quite sad.

I have had to accept some charity in my life or my sons wouldn't have had enough food to eat at times. It's nothing shameful, just my thoughts. Honestly it really sounds like you need the help but are wary of it for some reason. If you'd go voluntarily to a hospital it is a different experience. You may only need a few days. You'll get to talk to a professional. If not, seek out free counseling services. The local emergency room where you are can call a crisis counselor to set you up on the path to therapy. I'm sorry you feel excluded in Canada. It sounds like a good idea to keep yourself private, just say ''I've been here for 30 yrs etc.'' like you say. I wish you the best. I hope you come back here, lots of people can get to know you a little. It might take a while to get to know some of us, but I've rarely seen an awful human on here, it is just a screen but remember we are real people and we care. hugss

 

[AmberMarie]

Another night at work. i put my foot down and refused to come in last night telling my GM i need more than a couple hours notice. So, she ended up working last night. I don't know how long i'll be on nights.... that is scary to me.

i also have a virtual appointment... FINALLY an appointment... on Wednesday am. Being virtual brings up a couple concerns yet also eases a few at the same time. What if i can't be truthful? What if i am and tell everything?? How will things progress after this? i'm happy this will be in the medical records, so i don't have to explain everything to every doc i have. All my Drs are under the same place for that very reason. i feel it will be a good idea to compose a draft, so to speak, of what i want to cover n then figure out what is most important of all or it to start with. All i know is i'm really messed up... n this is going to take a long time to fix. i duno if i'll be around that long, however, at the moment, i'm possibly willing to try. And... so the work begins.

 

[From_Venus]

I've been taking Prozac for roughly 2 weeks and I'm sooo tired. Sleep has always been an escape for me - the only time of the day where I'm at piece, but recently there have been days when I'm asleep for 12 hours, or start nodding off immediately after breakfast. I have no desire to leave the house and I've been procrastinating on getting important stuff done because I'm so exhausted.

 

[HappyKitty]

Dr gave probiotic supplements and recommended me to get Zinc. Combined both is so good for gut health. 😺

 

[TragicReality]

Cold, it's winter

 

[puffymilk]

I'm feeling good

 

[1Lefty]

Pissed

The day before a heart procedure, I got a letter from my insurance company that they would not pay for it. They denied coverage, based on reasons that I disagree with. I was notified that I can appeal the decision, but even best case, that could take up to 60 days.

They notified the doctor, and barring approval on appeal, the procedure will be cancelled. I don't know what this bodes, as this was supposed to be preliminary to an extensive repair.


peace

 

[Astrid78]

This is such a blow.

I am also sorry for the car situation Astrid. Your husband should (sorry for using the should word) be forced to help you get a decent vehicle.

Thank you for the hug.

He should, but he's enjoying this too much

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Frustrated & inadequate.
Started to make a post. A couple paragraphs in I think I shouldn’t bother.

 

[Windhover]

He should, but he's enjoying this too much

To that I don't have a response strong enough or allowed for this forum.

If he is like that, then the farther and faster you get away the better.

Said, because I had to do so from one of those kind of "people."

 

[Windhover]

hug @FlamingoWrangler

There are mahy here who sincerely want to listen to you, even though we don't know you irl.