I guess every young girl needs to go through a painful crush and relationship throughout her life. Full of drama, jealousy, other girls involved. Idk. I hurts me so much. My chest is in actual physical pain. Im clearly unstable and people can see it given how im talking to random people normallyand suddenly start crying on an unrelated topic. I skipped the high school sweetheart phase because i attended all girls' school and my mom rly made me pessimistic towards guys then. But it was eventually bound to happen.
I have a roommate that I rly admire. She is only 2-3 years older than i am but very mature. She is cool, calm and collected and is involved in zero drama. Today she was giving me advice on how to ignore jealous and immature people who hate you for no reason (or their reason is solely u being in a relationship with their crush).
She is great for being able to ignore hateful people she may see everyday. I am clearly not that strong.
Then again...me being this unstable and hurt...I hope me getting hurt will eventually make me experienced and easy to dealwith drama and pain. I hope when im 80 i will look at this and be able to laugh at how naive i was.