How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Livelife]

Sad and indecisive. And I have to make a decision. Soon.

I took Sadie to the vet today after some changes in the past few days like loss of appetite and apparent discomfort, no longer jumping onto the bed at night to sleep. I have been restricting her activity for the last 3 plus weeks since X-rays showed a deteriorating leg/knee ligament. Not even walking her. Been giving her doggie NSAIDS. She also has been following me around more these past days which is unusual for her. Another bucket load of money today to be told she has two nodules in her spleen. That means surgery to remove the spleen. It also means it takes priority over the surgery I was choosing to have done in the next weeks to have her leg/knee fixed. I have to make a decision in days as this could turn into an emergency at any time if internal bleeding were to initiate.

I'm having a hard time making this decision....She's 16. Two surgeries, several thousands of dollars which unfortunately is part of this decision making...but I can't have her in pain. Samsun had the knee surgery last year but he was small enough to carry around for months during recovery. Sadie's too big for me to carry and lift all the time while recovering.

What a mess. My stomach and head is in knots. Deteriorating doggie health eventually happens. I know this.

 

[Windhover]

hugs

imho

If you can, get your dog the surgery, tentatively assuming that you have the money and it wouldn't cause hardship for you, @Livelife .

 

[SillyOldBear]

Disappointed, shocked, not really sure what. Just learned that the church I used to attend has pretty much broken up due to "staff mis-conduct". I did not ask for specifics. But I guess there are only about 15 still left, yet they pay for two pastors. Am so glad I left them years ago.

 

[Livelife]

Disappointed, shocked, not really sure what. Just learned that the church I used to attend has pretty much broken up due to "staff mis-conduct". I did not ask for specifics. But I guess there are only about 15 still left, yet they pay for two pastors. Am so glad I left them years ago.

🙁

 

[puffymilk]

Feeling alright

 

[Inanimate]

May I ask more specifically what it is that you dream about? What do you think will make you happy at this time? I believe nothing is impossible. Just because we don't recognize we have the ability to proper doesn't mean it's not there.

I’m not sure. A job or occupation might put me on the path to a higher quality of life. Any break from my programming might at least make things interesting, albeit worrying.

 

[AvidFan]

Awake at a reasonable hour for once. Slept with no additional chemical aids, think I woke about 7am at first but was able to doze off and just got up about 9am which is still earlier than I used to get up, but is OK, as I got 7-8 hours sleep and wasn't here typing with the sunrise. On my first coffee, so things will definitely improve.

 

[puffymilk]

For some reason annoyed

 

[Lane]

Sad and indecisive. And I have to make a decision. Soon.

I took Sadie to the vet today after some changes in the past few days like loss of appetite and apparent discomfort, no longer jumping onto the bed at night to sleep. I have been restricting her activity for the last 3 plus weeks since X-rays showed a deteriorating leg/knee ligament. Not even walking her. Been giving her doggie NSAIDS. She also has been following me around more these past days which is unusual for her. Another bucket load of money today to be told she has two nodules in her spleen. That means surgery to remove the spleen. It also means it takes priority over the surgery I was choosing to have done in the next weeks to have her leg/knee fixed. I have to make a decision in days as this could turn into an emergency at any time if internal bleeding were to initiate.

I'm having a hard time making this decision....She's 16. Two surgeries, several thousands of dollars which unfortunately is part of this decision making...but I can't have her in pain. Samsun had the knee surgery last year but he was small enough to carry around for months during recovery. Sadie's too big for me to carry and lift all the time while recovering.

What a mess. My stomach and head is in knots. Deteriorating doggie health eventually happens. I know this.

Sorry that you're feeling so out of sorts and that Sadies not feeling well. It's a big decision and whichever one you make, we are here for you Livelife. 🐶

 

[Livelife]

Sorry that you're feeling so out of sorts and that Sadies not feeling well. It's a big decision and whichever one you make, we are here for you Livelife. 🐶

Thank you so much E.....I appreciate it, it means a lot..🐾🥀hug

 

[1964dodge]

So I avoided the emails for 5 hours going in to the emails as just made my anxiety worse - I've received no response whatsoever from one of the key players. I'm now concerned for their well being as it's very unlike them. I may have been better off just avoiding it all altogether. I'm not going to kill myself, I couldn't do that to my family or colleagues, but I fucking feel like it right now, just to make this crap stop. I have to stay alive and feel this shit when I really don't want to. This too shall pass, as they say, but it's going from bad to worse at the moment.

 

[1964dodge]

Stuck, as always. Can't kill myself. Can't stop wanting to kill myself. Just a perpetual limbo.

 

[1964dodge]

Sad and indecisive. And I have to make a decision. Soon.

I took Sadie to the vet today after some changes in the past few days like loss of appetite and apparent discomfort, no longer jumping onto the bed at night to sleep. I have been restricting her activity for the last 3 plus weeks since X-rays showed a deteriorating leg/knee ligament. Not even walking her. Been giving her doggie NSAIDS. She also has been following me around more these past days which is unusual for her. Another bucket load of money today to be told she has two nodules in her spleen. That means surgery to remove the spleen. It also means it takes priority over the surgery I was choosing to have done in the next weeks to have her leg/knee fixed. I have to make a decision in days as this could turn into an emergency at any time if internal bleeding were to initiate.

I'm having a hard time making this decision....She's 16. Two surgeries, several thousands of dollars which unfortunately is part of this decision making...but I can't have her in pain. Samsun had the knee surgery last year but he was small enough to carry around for months during recovery. Sadie's too big for me to carry and lift all the time while recovering.

What a mess. My stomach and head is in knots. Deteriorating doggie health eventually happens. I know this.

make a decision both from the heart and the wallet and of course what is best for sadie. the first decision would be for sadie to not suffer and be in pain obvioiusly. and i know you don't want to think about cost but it has to be factored in. at sadies age how much time does she have left at best. if you do these very expensive surgeries what is the long term outcome. and most of all how much would she suffer after surgeries. we are on the fence right now so i can understand what you are going through. it's not an easy decision to make so my heart goes out to you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

i was a lttle under the weather friday and saturday so got really far behind on SF now i'm trying to catch up lol

mike

 

[AvidFan]

Sad that they found the TV doctor dead 😢

 

[Temis31]

I don't think people quite understand how stressful it is to explain what's going on inside your head when you don't even understand it yourself..
(the people in my environment*)

 

[puffymilk]

So so

 

[Windhover]

Sad that they found the TV doctor dead 😢

Yes, me as well. It was not a surprise, but I'd been hoping for the sake of his family and him.

Makes me extra wary of hot weather, although I should not assume he succumbed to heat stroke.

 

[Windhover]

I've been feeling a kind of scared sensation that my mind can't handle getting better, that it's stuck in depression and brokenheart mode. Disappointed in myself.

 

[AvidFan]

Yes, me as well. It was not a surprise, but I'd been hoping for the sake of his family and him.

Makes me extra wary of hot weather, although I should not assume he succumbed to heat stroke.

True, I can't even move in 40C, never mind tackle a mountainous trail. Could have been the heat contributed to a momentary faintness and resulted in a trip or fall. Am sure it will all be pieced together. At least he was on holiday and enjoying the island up to his last minutes!