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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Feeling absolutely horrible. A day I've agonized over for the past couple of months has arrived. I am taking my beloved Jack into the vet to say goodbye forever 
He's been such a good boy all these years...making friends at the dog park, being an uncle to our foster puppies, keeping watch with such intensity so he'd never miss a thing. I'm going to be lost without him.
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He's been such a good boy all these years...making friends at the dog park, being an uncle to our foster puppies, keeping watch with such intensity so he'd never miss a thing. I'm going to be lost without him.View attachment 68325
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Awake. 5.36am. Sigh. Can't complain as I've had a reasonable string of decent nights, I think I probably came off the pregabalin slightly too quick and should have had my last small dose at bedtime instead of the middle of the day. Live and learn. Also I ate some absolute garbage last night including a pack of chocolate covered biscuit bars, it kind of put itself into my shopping basket. At least I only bought one, used to be the salted caramel pack AND the mint AND the Orange AND maybe another salted caramel 🤭 Only good thing is they've gotten smaller since the last time I bought the brand, at this rate they will be like those miniatures you get in gift packs 😲 I'm sure I've put weight on from not running for a week.
Positive to take away - I got 4-5 hours sleep, to add to the sleeps I got all week, and it's still better than the mega insomnia from last week. And none of that excruciating anxiety/frazzled feeling. Just knew I was not going back to sleep, especially with all the confused signals running around my body - bit of bloating/discomfort from eating crap, pain signals from the injury in my side, and for some reason odd pains in one leg (but hey guess what peripheral neuropathy is another delightful benzo withdrawal symptom and also guess what pregabalin dampens down nerve signals and I just came off it, so I'll wait and see before jumping to conclusions I've got some terrible condition). Just don't like these early wake ups as it's not a productive wake up, it's more a grin and bear it wake up. Oh well. Pour more coffee and see what internet wonders there are to pass the time.
Positive to take away - I got 4-5 hours sleep, to add to the sleeps I got all week, and it's still better than the mega insomnia from last week. And none of that excruciating anxiety/frazzled feeling. Just knew I was not going back to sleep, especially with all the confused signals running around my body - bit of bloating/discomfort from eating crap, pain signals from the injury in my side, and for some reason odd pains in one leg (but hey guess what peripheral neuropathy is another delightful benzo withdrawal symptom and also guess what pregabalin dampens down nerve signals and I just came off it, so I'll wait and see before jumping to conclusions I've got some terrible condition). Just don't like these early wake ups as it's not a productive wake up, it's more a grin and bear it wake up. Oh well. Pour more coffee and see what internet wonders there are to pass the time.
All I did was fucking bang a table and she has to make me feel worse by crying as if I was going to hit her. I thought I was supposed to have the daughter role in the relationship, not her. Now she fucking made me feel guilty, and I have to see my parents later. I fucking hate this, I swear I'm gonna fucking cause problems when I get there.
Finally doing better. The past week I have been afflicted by an itchy rash all over my body and had been getting worse. Today the doctor gave me some prednisone and although the past few hours were he double toothpicks there is relief from the itching. It's not poison ivy, shingles or bed bugs for which I am eternally grateful but when the rash reached my eyelids that's when They decided to give me the meds. Unfortunately I missed out on a great activity with my daughter and grandson but the relief is almost worth it.
