How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

This is such a relatable feeling to me. Wanting whatever is causing me pain to just stop, to get off the roller coaster ride from hell, etc.

I hope you feel better soon. I have no advice, just wanted to let you know I am hearing you.

Thank you, it helps. I think I'd already be gone if it wasn't for the kindness and listening of people on SF.

 

[snails]

Elated and terrified in equal measure. Worst day so far but evening out a bit more this evening

 

[AvidFan]

Elated and terrified in equal measure. Worst day so far but evening out a bit more this evening

Elated sounds good, terrified not so good.

 

[snails]

Elated sounds good, terrified not so good.

Very strange. Hard to describe

 

[AvidFan]

Weary. Going to bed and hope to sleep. Thank you to everyone for putting up with my abject misery lately

 

[snails]

Weary. Going to bed and hope to sleep. Thank you to everyone for putting up with my abject misery lately

Hoping for some good sleep for you
Never apologise

 

[KM76710]

It's just getting worse. Finally got two quotes today for one of the jobs. One for £420. The other for £6000+ vat (ie £7200). For the same job.

This is seriously fucking messed up.

I can understand the anxiety with such a wide gap in the quotes, it makes you wonder what other shoe may/will drop on top of you.

 

[Lane]

Weary. Going to bed and hope to sleep. Thank you to everyone for putting up with my abject misery lately

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

I am sorry. 😢

 

[Angie]

I am sorry. 😢

What is going on?

Are you alright?

 

[AvidFan]

Stressed. Woke at 4am, worries going round and round in my mind. Heart rate was up despite dozing off a bit again, and it's still up higher than normal right now 😢 In the night I was actually praying and asking for forgiveness for whatever I had done to deserve this hell that I'm going through and I'm not religious.

 

[Bergerac]

Can't cope at all. No support, utterly worthless.

 

[AvidFan]

Can't cope at all. No support, utterly worthless.

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I'm in the same boat regards being unable to cope, though I don't feel worthless. To me I have value (and you do too!), but at the moment I'm curled up and life is kicking me in the guts 😢

 

[Bergerac]

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I'm in the same boat regards being unable to cope, though I don't feel worthless. To me I have value (and you do too!), but at the moment I'm curled up and life is kicking me in the guts 😢

Yes, that does sound similar. Sorry it's like that for you, as well. I pray there'll be an end to this, for us, soon. Best wishes

 

[Livelife]

I don't dream often anymore and negative dreams are happening regularly these last few weeks and are impacting how I feel about having to be alive usually in the first few hours after waking from a short sleep period. If I could only sleep a regular 8 hours like I always did, it might help me. I wish I knew how to make that happen with all I've tried to assist it. Divine intervention at this point seems to be a probable only answer

 

[AmberMarie]

This is going to sound really stupid... i crave to be alone... and i am afraid to be alone at the same time. Afraid of myself and what i can... and will do.

 

[AvidFan]

I just got distracted in doing some work on my remote job, and realise I feel OK when my head is not full of worries. Unfortunately the burying head in the sand approach is unlikely to work in the long run.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m unbearably, frighteningly angry. At what I have no f-ing clue. I want to destroy anything and everything, I just can’t stand being in my own skin right now! I want to say F- it all and do some things that I don’t want to mention. This must be what it’s like for people who are constantly getting worked up over the manufactured outrage of the day, but I don’t know what I’m so pissed about! I don’t give an F about the culture wars. I rather prefer to mind my own business and not tell anyone how to live. I am in general chronically angry about any form of exploitation, economic or otherwise, and I see sooooo much of this everywhere. It’s disheartening and sad.

I felt so much better yesterday evening. Yet I woke up and I was so irritable that I need a new word for how much pressure was trying to get out of me, threatening to explode me from inside. I don’t know what I did wrong. I just feel so tired of trying to figure it out while holding down a job and trying to appear like I’m fine.

 

[Livelife]

Stressed. Woke at 4am, worries going round and round in my mind. Heart rate was up despite dozing off a bit again, and it's still up higher than normal right now 😢 In the night I was actually praying and asking for forgiveness for whatever I had done to deserve this hell that I'm going through and I'm not religious.

 

[AvidFan]

I’m unbearably, frighteningly angry. At what I have no f-ing clue. I want to destroy anything and everything, I just can’t stand being in my own skin right now! I want to say F- it all and do some things that I don’t want to mention. This must be what it’s like for people who are constantly getting worked up over the manufactured outrage of the day, but I don’t know what I’m so pissed about! I don’t give an F about the culture wars. I rather prefer to mind my own business and not tell anyone how to live. I am in general chronically angry about any form of exploitation, economic or otherwise, and I see sooooo much of this everywhere. It’s disheartening and sad.

I felt so much better yesterday evening. Yet I woke up and I was so irritable that I need a new word for how much pressure was trying to get out of me, threatening to explode me from inside. I don’t know what I did wrong. I just feel so tired of trying to figure it out while holding down a job and trying to appear like I’m fine.