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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Feel like shit again. Thought I'd be proactive, and look at jobs before going to bed. Found a website dedicated to over 50s getting back to employment so looked at their list of recommended career pivots - pet sitter, volunteer and funeral arranger..... Then saw a great job opportunity, I read paragraphs about "you need to be this and need to be that" and how they'd provide training blah blah. Finally, you need to have a car. I haven't got a fucking car and I can't drive - another of my many mistakes in life. So I feel like shit again.
Oh wow, thank you so much may71, Witty_Sarcasm and mosaic hearts for being so kind and thoughtful with replying to what I said 
May71 - Yes, I definitely know what to do to prevent myself from ever getting that upset and reactive again - reminding myself of this happening and not wanting it to ever happen again. And ya just keeping myself more calm, peaceful, positive, hopeful and non-worried will also help it never happen again I think
Witty_Sarcasm - Ya I am sure hoping it will be ok. Trying not to feel dumb about it, the lady was reassuring that it should be ok, if it turns out she is wrong then I will be a bit upset about that for sure. Anyway all I can really do is hope for the best at this point, called WM yesterday to see if they could reverse that request but they said no and all I can do is wait til I am sent the confirmation in the mail about whether I was approved for it or not. Hopefully they won’t hassle me about anything, that’s my biggest worry with it. If they don’t want to approve me then I hope they will just say “sorry, not approved” and that will be the end of it.
Thanks for what you said about the chest pain too, ya I think it is pretty much better now thankfully, still feels a bit sore but better compared to yesterday at least I really hope it won’t ever happen again too for sure, just need to always keep myself as calm and stress-free as I possibly can. Ya my sis thankfully let us know the day we’ll be going there next week. We’ll be staying there for either 2 or 3 days so that will be nice
mosaic hearts - Ya, as I said above to Witty, it is pretty much better today now I’m glad to say I was really worried about it, but my real life friend said he had that happen before and where it lasted a day but then went away and everything was fine. That gave me a lot of hope that it probably wasn’t anything serious and wasn’t worth running to the hospital about. Definitely if it ever happens again then yes I will do what you suggested with going to the hospital to make sure everything is ok. Thank you for caring and wanting me to be safe that is so kind of you and I appreciate it a lot
Hope you, Witty and may71 are all well, and that everyone else here is well too
May71 - Yes, I definitely know what to do to prevent myself from ever getting that upset and reactive again - reminding myself of this happening and not wanting it to ever happen again. And ya just keeping myself more calm, peaceful, positive, hopeful and non-worried will also help it never happen again I think
Witty_Sarcasm - Ya I am sure hoping it will be ok. Trying not to feel dumb about it, the lady was reassuring that it should be ok, if it turns out she is wrong then I will be a bit upset about that for sure. Anyway all I can really do is hope for the best at this point, called WM yesterday to see if they could reverse that request but they said no and all I can do is wait til I am sent the confirmation in the mail about whether I was approved for it or not. Hopefully they won’t hassle me about anything, that’s my biggest worry with it. If they don’t want to approve me then I hope they will just say “sorry, not approved” and that will be the end of it.
Thanks for what you said about the chest pain too, ya I think it is pretty much better now thankfully, still feels a bit sore but better compared to yesterday at least
I really hope it won’t ever happen again too for sure, just need to always keep myself as calm and stress-free as I possibly can. Ya my sis thankfully let us know the day we’ll be going there next week. We’ll be staying there for either 2 or 3 days so that will be nice mosaic hearts - Ya, as I said above to Witty, it is pretty much better today now I’m glad to say
I was really worried about it, but my real life friend said he had that happen before and where it lasted a day but then went away and everything was fine. That gave me a lot of hope that it probably wasn’t anything serious and wasn’t worth running to the hospital about. Definitely if it ever happens again then yes I will do what you suggested with going to the hospital to make sure everything is ok. Thank you for caring and wanting me to be safe that is so kind of you and I appreciate it a lot Hope you, Witty and may71 are all well, and that everyone else here is well too
Tired and grumpy. I am trying not to keep reliving what happened at the hospital, but every time I leave my mind unattended, the memories come back. I hate them, so much. I know, they don’t deserve space in my head. And yet there they are, especially when I am tired or stressed. I am trying to clean my room and bathroom, and both were filthy in the hospital, so every time I do chores I have to be reminded that the conditions I would not tolerate at home are too good for a mental patient. There were so many upsetting things that happened that there are reminders like this everywhere. I don’t know how to let go, though. I guess for now I have to tolerate that this still bothers me.
Did you get some rest last night @Holding my breath? I hope you feel better today. 
Hi Lumber Jack. Your post reminds me of when I was a child and lived in a group home for a while and the house was pretty dirty. We were responsible for our own chores but as kids we didn't do them so well. The bathroom was atrocious. There were even maggots in the kitchen once. I remember being really grossed out. It took a long time to get over that experience. I do hope in time and if life can be good to you, the conditions you spent on the hospital can be a far away memory.
Sitting here with many thoughts after a nightmare woke me up. My ex husband is always in them. Just wondering why my daughter doesn't want to see me or introduce her baby to me. I'm not a monster. Sure, I may have made bad choices in her eyes. I would have lived differently if I could have, but I can't turn back the clock. It hurts to lose a child. Why does she have to be so cold? But, I have to respect her choice because she's an adult. Try not to judge her. But it still hurts.
Did you get some rest last night @Holding my breath? I hope you feel better today.
