How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[mosaic hearts]

Get well soon mosaic hearts. Glad that you are taking care. I also like Stephen King. What are you reading? Do you like it?

Hi @Lane!

Thank you for your well-wishes. I'm continuing to rest at hone for one more day. I'll try to go into work tomorrow. I love Stephen King! I'm currently reading his new short story collection called, "You Like It Dsrker." My most favorite is "The Shining" which I reread every few years.

 

[mosaic hearts]

That's not cool. Glad youll try again though and hopefully he won't be there.

I hope the same. Everyone has a right to feel & be safe.

 

[Windhover]

@Pebble mouse I hope you can feel safe at the park. Those sorts of people are particularly scary since they are so unpredictable. That sort of thing gives me massive anxiety; I understand. I'd be inclined to drive to a different park entirely. Gettinng exercise in the fresh air is what keeps my mind able to function. Sending good wishes.

 

[Livelife]

Just wanted to say I can relate to this feeling, especially the last sentence. So extremely upset, disappointed and utterly shocked about something that was said to me by a family member that I literally can’t even talk about it.

Just…wow. That’s all I can really say about it right now. I cannot fight to keep that connection/relationship alive any longer, so I guess his brainwashing on her has won. Just don’t have the energy to keep fighting against it anymore, he’s always been jealous of me and has been doing all he can for many years to get her to think of me in a negative, judgmental and critical way. It seems she does now, and does not think anything positive about me. It’s the last kind of energy I need, especially with what a challenging year it has already bloody been for me.

Anyway, I’m sorry you are feeling that way and I hope it will be a shift for the “better” (for both of us)

Congrats on finding a place you like Mike, and that you’ll be able to move in this weekend too, that’s great and I’m happy for you

Sending lotsa hugs to everyone here who wants them, happy for those who are doing well, and wishing for there to be lotsa happiness/peace soon for those who aren’t doing so well right now

Thank you @JMG. I am sad that this person has caused so much trauma in your world and has managed to bring you to such a place right now with his current extreme negativity. Maybe letting go of the fight will be a relief at some point for you even though I hear that it will be a loss for you.

The loss this week for me was that precious little being that is my avatar picture at the moment. I'm not feeling much but grief right now. It'll take awhile to adjust

Hugs and peace for you,

Janis

 

[JMG]

Thank you @JMG. I am sad that this person has caused so much trauma in your world and has managed to bring you to such a place right now with his current extreme negativity. Maybe letting go of the fight will be a relief at some point for you even though I hear that it will be a loss for you.

The loss this week for me was that precious little being that is my avatar picture at the moment. I'm not feeling much but grief right now. It'll take awhile to adjust

Hugs and peace for you,

Janis

Thank you Janis, I appreciate what you said here. Yup for sure, it does kinda already feel like “letting go of the fight” is a relief for me, but yes also a loss in terms of my sis. Thanks for being so understanding about it

Omg, I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your fur baby too I know how upsetting that can be, and definitely understand about feeling a lot of grief about it too of course. I know it will take a while to adjust, I’ve been there. It does get easier but seems the only thing that truly heals it is “time” but it sounds like you already know that. I hope you’ll take it as easy as you possibly can at this time, and please know I’m here for you, I care and that you can talk to me anytime, about anything

Lots of hugs and peace to you too, always

 

[JMG]

You’re welcome @mosaic hearts
Hope today is going at least a bit better for you than yesterday.
More comforting/supportive and healing hugs for you (if you want them)

 

[JMG]

Still feeling in a lot of shock about what happened on Monday, but a bit less so I’m very glad and relieved to say.

A part of me does feel like maybe it’s kinda been a long time coming anyway. He has been working on her for years, and I have seen it and felt utterly powerless to stop it. It has taken every ounce of my strength to feel so powerless about it like that, and I don’t think I ever really admitted to myself just how draining it all has been. It will be very nice to no longer care or feel any concern at all about what either of them thinks of me. It has mostly been toxic, posionous, negative, critical and judgmental anyway, so I will be far better off without that kind of energy in my life any longer.

My sis and I have always been very different people. She has chosen the prison of the Materialistic Life, and I have chosen the freedom of not being locked into any of those kinds of restrictions and constraints (even though it might mean more limitations on what I can do) so I guess there’s just good and bad to both.

I’m glad to have picked the life I have though, to have never given in to…well, those very unpleasant things I would otherwise have had to give in to. It is ultimately far better for the soul (and the planet!) to keep things much simpler, and to not have those kinds of values imo. I need to just remember that, and feel proud of myself for staying true to myself despite my mostly blind, narrow-minded family and all the negative resistance they have given me over these many years

 

[SillyOldBear]

worried

 

[mosaic hearts]

Oh @Livelife, I'm so sorry about the loss of your furbaby. I'm sending thoughts of condolences & prayers of comfort & healing. I hope the beautiful memories of your time together will help you on your grieving journey. Sending safe hugs & love 💕.

 

[KM76710]

Pretty sick with an early case of the flu since this past Sunday. I missed two days of work already. I don't know how many more days I'll miss. I'm resting, drinking a lot of fluids, watching Netflix & reading one of Stephen King's new books in between sleeping, & taking Tylenol when I need to.

I hope that things will clear up quickly for you and good for you for taking care of your health as you are.

 

[KM76710]

All the excruciating emotional pain has turned into depression......

I hope that all the pains ease and disappear and you recover and bounce back soon. We are pulling for ya.

 

[LumberJack]

I am hurting. Really bad. Normally my pain doesn't have a reason but this is still the unresolved issue that I have had since January. In addition to the persistent pain of the event itself, I am also upset at myself for being so stupid as to ask for help in the wrong place. I don't know how to prevent this from happening again. I don't know where I tripped up. I thought I was doing what I was "supposed" to do.

Ultimately, I did something as stupid as calling roadside assistance to teach me how to drive. What I need is not remotely related to what they actually do. However, for their part, I still think they could have told me that what I need is entirely out of their treatment offerings and point me elsewhere. Instead it was the equivalent of a tow truck driver saying, "sure I can teach you how to drive," and then leaving me on the side of the road with a flat tire.

 

[Pebble mouse]

Thanks @seabird. Next time I am going to try to stick to the area of the park away from his house. He was complaining about people walking their dogs too, so it wasn't just me. It scared me, because I was worried it might get physical. Thanks for your thoughts.

 

[Livelife]

Thank you Janis, I appreciate what you said here. Yup for sure, it does kinda already feel like “letting go of the fight” is a relief for me, but yes also a loss in terms of my sis. Thanks for being so understanding about it

Omg, I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your fur baby too I know how upsetting that can be, and definitely understand about feeling a lot of grief about it too of course. I know it will take a while to adjust, I’ve been there. It does get easier but seems the only thing that truly heals it is “time” but it sounds like you already know that. I hope you’ll take it as easy as you possibly can at this time, and please know I’m here for you, I care and that you can talk to me anytime, about anything

Lots of hugs and peace to you too, always

Thank you JMG for your deep kindness and generosity. You are an angel and I appreciate the above.

 

[Livelife]

Oh @Livelife, I'm so sorry about the loss of your furbaby. I'm sending thoughts of condolences & prayers of comfort & healing. I hope the beautiful memories of your time together will help you on your grieving journey. Sending safe hugs & love 💕.

Thank you so much for the thoughts and the prayers and the hugs

 

[Livelife]

Still feeling in a lot of shock about what happened on Monday, but a bit less so I’m very glad and relieved to say.

A part of me does feel like maybe it’s kinda been a long time coming anyway. He has been working on her for years, and I have seen it and felt utterly powerless to stop it. It has taken every ounce of my strength to feel so powerless about it like that, and I don’t think I ever really admitted to myself just how draining it all has been. It will be very nice to no longer care or feel any concern at all about what either of them thinks of me. It has mostly been toxic, posionous, negative, critical and judgmental anyway, so I will be far better off without that kind of energy in my life any longer.

My sis and I have always been very different people. She has chosen the prison of the Materialistic Life, and I have chosen the freedom of not being locked into any of those kinds of restrictions and constraints (even though it might mean more limitations on what I can do) so I guess there’s just good and bad to both.

I’m glad to have picked the life I have though, to have never given in to…well, those very unpleasant things I would otherwise have had to give in to. It is ultimately far better for the soul (and the planet!) to keep things much simpler, and to not have those kinds of values imo. I need to just remember that, and feel proud of myself for staying true to myself despite my mostly blind, narrow-minded family and all the negative resistance they have given me over these many years

You are a strong, vibrant and conscious person. If it's time, then it's time. It doesn't mean it's not incredibly intensely difficult. I came from one of those families, it is quite the journey. I'm glad you are proud for being You.'s

 

[mosaic hearts]

I'm feeling somewhat better from my flu bout. I'm not over it by any means, but I really need to go to work today. I'm just going to pace myself a lot, drink a lot of fluids, chew on throat lozenges, take Tylenol for my headache, & leave earlier if I absolutely have though I'll try very hard to stick it out. Thank you to everyone who reached out to me in support & well-wishes! Sending hugs!

 

[Livelife]

I'm feeling somewhat better from my flu bout. I'm not over it by any means, but I really need to go to work today. I'm just going to pace myself a lot, drink a lot of fluids, chew on throat lozenges, take Tylenol for my headache, & leave earlier if I absolutely have though I'll try very hard to stick it out. Thank you to everyone who reached out to me in support & well-wishes! Sending hugs!

Take good care. I'm glad there was a little improvement.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I'm feeling somewhat better from my flu bout. I'm not over it by any means, but I really need to go to work today. I'm just going to pace myself a lot, drink a lot of fluids, chew on throat lozenges, take Tylenol for my headache, & leave earlier if I absolutely have though I'll try very hard to stick it out. Thank you to everyone who reached out to me in support & well-wishes! Sending hugs!

Well, I made the decision to stay home one more day from work today. Severe, unrelenting coughing & prostration are the reasons. I'll pull myself up by my boot straps & go to work tomorrow. I still need to rest.

 

[Windhover]

A bit weird as I am not used to having 0 privacy. I'm on my phone, sorry for typos.
I wish I had a separate router, because I think my partner can see everything I do - which'd include SF.