How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AmberMarie]

I understand how you feel, @AmberMarie. Sitting with you as how you're feeling passes. It's a very painful place to be.

Thank you Loads!!! i wish it would pass... i'm so angering to myself and with myself!!! i wish it would go away... i wish i could go away!

 

[je.suis.prêt]

I feel kind of good. My depression has been slowly getting better over the last year, and in the last 2 weeks, something clicked for me where I've accepted where I am in life, and have also become much more grateful for what I do have and the ability for me to take things slowly. I spend a lot of time doing nothing constructive, but I've been taking consistent baby-steps to become 'normal' again. I feel like I'm more effectively dealing with the depressive nothingness that I've been feeling.

 

[Angie]

Anxious and frustrated.

 

[may71]

I just finally was able to post on my fb page about Samsun and Sadie and having some beautiful responses. And on a dog lover's page that has had almost 200 responses, that was starting Friday when I posted there right before taking Samsun in.

I'm sorry it hurts so much to lose Samsun and Sadie. I'm glad that you've had so many positive responses though

 

[Chargette]

Depression still has a strong hold on me. I slept a lot today and that helps. I did manage to unload the dishwasher and cook for myself.

 

[Lane]

Sad. Last night my son and I had an argument over the garbage. After my daughter and I went to take it out and it leaked all over, I freaked. He got upset bc he was taking a quiz. Then he said I could've just asked him to take out the garbage. He's right, but part of me wants him just to do his job. Also, I said we're not just roommates, I'm your mother, when he tried to correct my behavior. But I'll try not to flip out. Today is his birthday too, he turns 26 🙄

 

[Lane]

Right now I'm ok too, but faced with this mess my son makes and he just doesn't listen. I don't want him on the streets

A mother's love is so strong. I hope that things work out for your son toomuchreality and even more importantly, that he listens and acts accordingly. You are strong and deserve peace.

 

[Lane]

I feel kind of good. My depression has been slowly getting better over the last year, and in the last 2 weeks, something clicked for me where I've accepted where I am in life, and have also become much more grateful for what I do have and the ability for me to take things slowly. I spend a lot of time doing nothing constructive, but I've been taking consistent baby-steps to become 'normal' again. I feel like I'm more effectively dealing with the depressive nothingness that I've been feeling.

Glad to hear this @je.suis.prêt. I think gratitude is a good thing. I share your feelings in many ways, by taking things slowly and doing nothing constructive....however it's good for mental health because in the past it was all go, go, go. Thanks for posting.

 

[Livelife]

I'm sorry it hurts so much to lose Samsun and Sadie. I'm glad that you've had so many positive responses though

thank you✨

 

[TragicReality]

A mother's love is so strong. I hope that things work out for your son toomuchreality and even more importantly, that he listens and acts accordingly. You are strong and deserve peace.

thank you

 

[Holding my breath]

Why does everything have to be so hard? Everything is a struggle, a disappointment, and challenge, stressful. I’m tired of trying to keep above it all, all of the time and for everyone.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I'm a little shaky (not anxious) & tired. Still not sure what my future holds & if I want to be part of it.

 

[Baywasp]

Frustrated with my work. Been struggling for a while, but I just read an email a bit ago where they're attempting to address how understaffed and stressed we feel after losing like 8+ staff members within the past few months. Instead of bothering to replace anybody, they just said we might all have to go to working 8 hour shifts so we will be coming in 5 days, instead of 4 days like when we have 10 hour shifts. I need 2 days off for school, so I'm working Mon/Tues/Fri plus every other weekend. I would be so angry if they changed it and I had to come in every weekend. This might be the kick in the ass I need to try and find a better job.

 

[HappyKitty]

So after didnt make through with probations of teaching, yet its experience is still valueable. I just took a break with education and just desperately take whatever job goes along the way. A wise lady just told me "its really okay with someone my age to fail, yet if we want to survive and make money, we can't be choosey" while its being well said, I still have to weigh the pros and cons of my job offers before accepting anything, any company that doesn't control my bodily functions that is. Theres just no rush for me in getting jobs, I just want money for fun stuffs lol. I mean its gearing end year, come'on.

And..... Other than that, I am just glad I have been well. Been autopilot on housekeeping, applying jobs and so glad while theres offers coming, my friend help me give a design freelance side job incase I am out of job like a continuous thing like learning new skills while waiting for job. Its been fun, side job, finishing a baking course (theres even WSQ cert), getting my hobbies back. I've been well honestly with all this financial and career resources support and services. I'm happy my cousin can make time to hang with me for lunch whenever I have routine medical appointment as my hospital is nearby her work to make appointment less draggy.

Its crazy how we are also moving house again here cus its only rental for two years which is normal for me.

So theres no drama for me but more of problem solving things.

Is it just me Nano is a clingy kitty who always watches me do chores like a hawk?🤣

 

[Chargette]

I have more frustration today. I learned that a dear friend is in ICU and the family is talking about ending life support.

 

[AvidFan]

Tired and stressed. Having cancelled meetings, trying to do remote job instead, but struggling to concentrate, hanging around for this alarm engineer who might actually not arrive in the end....

 

[AvidFan]

FFS, there are worse things, but I hate hanging around for someone to come, not knowing if they are actually going to turn up. It's happened far too many times that I've sacrificed an entire day for nothing. So far I've been at my laptop for about 6 hours, and have clocked 2 hrs 20 minutes of actual paid work because I'm checking emails and trying to look out for the person arriving. Fingers crossed I'll be able to make my 7.15pm video meeting.... I can't see this guy coming that late, but if it spills into tomorrow that's another messed up day 😢

 

[AvidFan]

Drained and nauseous. So my alarm is now deactivated, it took him all of 2 minutes when he got here, and it was a reasonable charge. But as soon as he'd gone something just really crashed inside me, I think it's exhaustion from the stress and the literal no sleep last night, also I downed some valerian as I left my L-theanine at the office. Not sure how I will get through my 7.15pm call, I just want to lie down, really. Hopefully I can have a peaceful night's sleep tonight, uninterrupted by anxiety about alarm bells or actual alarm bells. Could really have just done without the whole palaver on top of everything else that's been going on, I really don't have much surge capacity at the moment - I'll think I'm doing OK but just takes one thing to tip me close to the edge 😢

 

[Lane]

Stressed, anxious over a work project. My boss picked 5 of us out of 20. I think why me? I don't want the extra work tbh. Plus I have to learn something new, which means I may have to ask questions, which I hate to do. I know, I feel like I have a bad attitude but I can't help it.

 

[Aurelia]

Stressed, anxious over a work project. My boss picked 5 of us out of 20. I think why me? I don't want the extra work tbh. Plus I have to learn something new, which means I may have to ask questions, which I hate to do. I know, I feel like I have a bad attitude but I can't help it.

When one of the first Amazon grocery stores opened up in my area, and I was hired to work there, I quickly realized that I'd have to learn many new things in order to keep the job. Smart shopping carts being one. I walked off right then and there. Wasn't expecting all the new technology and found it very annoying.