How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[KM76710]

had a bad day, a little better now but not a lot. i have had a lot of good days but bad days are part of life just like good days

mike

I hope the days get better and continue. Bad days a part of life, but they do bring out great feelings when better ones come about.

 

[1964dodge]

Wishing a lot more good days than bad days for you.

thank you barb

mike.....

 

[From_Venus]

I’d been feeling so much better since the 11th of November but yesterday all of the awful thoughts & feelings just came down crashing on me. I wish I could go back to that week. When I was warded, I spent so much time hoping I could get discharged but the time I spent there was honestly the best I’d felt in ages. I didn’t have any suicidal thoughts for the entire week I was there… the first time in years. My BDD had toned down, there weren’t any domestic troubles I had to get involved with and there weren’t any work stressors. I’m at work right now, distraught at how ugly I look and how bad my hair looks, and I’m stressed out by the mountain of work I have to get through, and my mom yelled at me all of yesterday and I dread going home to deal with her tonight.

 

[Inanimate]

I just feel a deep emptiness inside.

 

[mosaic hearts]

Cute avatar @mosaic hearts

Thank you, @Aurelia.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I'm very tired & have a tension headache that isn't responding well to Tylenol.☹️

 

[Survivorist]

Well, I do not why - but small by small all falls in the right direction. I have my ticket for the 2nd January, tomorrow salary will come, I am financially now good and free of everything except these Tramadol. But this is for lifetime. I am getting old, guys and feel like an old fart. Lost 5 KG (although I am thin), walked and walk a lot... weather permitting. All in all - I feel a lot better than a year ago - when I really was on the border to kill myself. Except for some short falls on the ass... ok so far.

And this is and will always be my advice if somebody is suicidal. Take it easy, give it time, be gentle to yourself, do what feels good - as times pass by it can only get better. Further down is not possible.

 

[Bergerac]

Well, I do not why - but small by small all falls in the right direction. I have my ticket for the 2nd January, tomorrow salary will come, I am financially now good and free of everything except these Tramadol. But this is for lifetime. I am getting old, guys and feel like an old fart. Lost 5 KG (although I am thin), walked and walk a lot... weather permitting. All in all - I feel a lot better than a year ago - when I really was on the border to kill myself. Except for some short falls on the ass... ok so far.

And this is and will always be my advice if somebody is suicidal. Take it easy, give it time, be gentle to yourself, do what feels good - as times pass by it can only get better. Further down is not possible.

This gives me hope! Thank you.

 

[Lane]

A little nervous. My niece has moved into my spare room because otherwise she would be homeless. After 15 years or so of being alone and spreading out all my stuff it was a rude shock to have to pack everything in the room away plus clear out refrigerator and cupboard space. We lived together for a month during Covid but then it was understood it would be for a short time. I feel that she would be here a year then move out. Maybe it will work out, maybe it won't. I hope it works out since her family (my brother's) and I are fairly close and we have to see one another for the rest of our lives. Send me good vibes that it works out.

You are doing something very kind. I hope it works out for both of you.

 

[Lane]

hurting

Sorry to hear this. I wish you had more good days.

 

[Lane]

Well, I do not why - but small by small all falls in the right direction. I have my ticket for the 2nd January, tomorrow salary will come, I am financially now good and free of everything except these Tramadol. But this is for lifetime. I am getting old, guys and feel like an old fart. Lost 5 KG (although I am thin), walked and walk a lot... weather permitting. All in all - I feel a lot better than a year ago - when I really was on the border to kill myself. Except for some short falls on the ass... ok so far.

And this is and will always be my advice if somebody is suicidal. Take it easy, give it time, be gentle to yourself, do what feels good - as times pass by it can only get better. Further down is not possible.

I'm glad that things have changed for the better for you. I'm getting old too, well trying to grow old gracefully as the say.

 

[puffymilk]

I'm sad again

 

[LumberJack]

Bad thoughts. I wish I could just disappear.

 

[Windhover]

Anxious. It's not going to overwhelm me. Impatient. Regret. Anger, which is stupid, as it's not going to hep anything.

 

[AvidFan]

Mortified. I just really fucked up a work thing. I am on a project and for some tasks you have to check a number of boxes to affirm you understand it etc. On autopilot, I checked all the boxes and submitted. Unfortunately I'd also checked the "remove me from the project" box, but the twits didn't have any kind of script to prevent contradictory boxes being ticked, so it's basically removed me from the best paying project I had. I posted about it on Slack and my question was deleted in under a minute. WTF. Meanwhile there are people getting help on there with all kinds of bullshit. Seems to be a case of one finger slip causes irreversible job fuck up. Hey ho. What a bastard. I've DMd a manager but they're not exactly renowned for their transparency and communication. One stupid mistake, FFS.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Anxious. It's not going to overwhelm me. Impatient. Regret. Anger, which is stupid, as it's not going to hep anything.

Anxiety rarely helps anything. But we sure excel and experiencing it anyway.

 

[Lestat]

Mortified. I just really fucked up a work thing. I am on a project and for some tasks you have to check a number of boxes to affirm you understand it etc. On autopilot, I checked all the boxes and submitted. Unfortunately I'd also checked the "remove me from the project" box, but the twits didn't have any kind of script to prevent contradictory boxes being ticked, so it's basically removed me from the best paying project I had. I posted about it on Slack and my question was deleted in under a minute. WTF. Meanwhile there are people getting help on there with all kinds of bullshit. Seems to be a case of one finger slip causes irreversible job fuck up. Hey ho. What a bastard. I've DMd a manager but they're not exactly renowned for their transparency and communication. One stupid mistake, FFS.

Damn. I am so sorry this happened I hope it can be fixed.

 

[Lestat]

Anxious. It's not going to overwhelm me. Impatient. Regret. Anger, which is stupid, as it's not going to hep anything.

Sadly we are not robots. I wish I was every day. Sometimes knowing these things makes it harder.
I hope your day improves. I hope you can find a way to feel happier

 

[Lestat]

I think I am in the middle stages of grief. Looking to move on but still stuck in the past. When I look at moving on I realise I have nowhere to move to. I am so used to being in a relationship that I dont know how else to exist. I look at myself now and I am much older and why would anyone want to be with me? But I have no idea how to be on my own.
I am told this is normal. Maybe so, maybe I am still in denial. Maybe I am scared of being out of denial... God I hope not.
I want to turn to drink and drugs but that has never helped me in the long run... but I am not good at looking after myself right now.

 

[Lestat]

I’d been feeling so much better since the 11th of November but yesterday all of the awful thoughts & feelings just came down crashing on me. I wish I could go back to that week. When I was warded, I spent so much time hoping I could get discharged but the time I spent there was honestly the best I’d felt in ages. I didn’t have any suicidal thoughts for the entire week I was there… the first time in years. My BDD had toned down, there weren’t any domestic troubles I had to get involved with and there weren’t any work stressors. I’m at work right now, distraught at how ugly I look and how bad my hair looks, and I’m stressed out by the mountain of work I have to get through, and my mom yelled at me all of yesterday and I dread going home to deal with her tonight.

I do not know the full story, but if you are having a bad time maybe it is good to be where you are? I know these places are hard as I have been in a few myself. It is good you have the internet though. I didn't the last time. I hope you can have a week like you did before and things can feel that way again for you. Keep fighting you can do it because you did it before!