How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[TragicReality]

You've been dealing with so much. I hope you can rest very soon.

Thank you @Lane I hope you get rest too. It's not easy being a parent! I can't do everything anymore for my younger. He's ranted so much, I get it, he wants to blame me. I tried my best.

I finally figured out how to hotspot my phone so I can type easier on the laptop.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m feeling fairly good. I don’t want to jinx myself, but I woke up 5 hours early this morning, and I’m still going. I’m not manic, just stable. It’s a huge relief, so I’m not going to question it!

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

This is the worst year so far. I can't imagine what will happen if things get worse.

 

[Baywasp]

I feel guilty. I feel like I notice myself withdrawing from a good friend because she's having a lot of problems, and I can't help much. Then every time I think to reach out to her, it's a weird hour so I say I'll wait, then I don't remember at an appropriate time the next day.

 

[Lane]

Thank you @Lane I hope you get rest too. It's not easy being a parent! I can't do everything anymore for my younger. He's ranted so much, I get it, he wants to blame me. I tried my best.

I finally figured out how to hotspot my phone so I can type easier on the laptop.

I understand how that can be toomuchreality. I believe my oldest son is on the autism spectrum, something's not right, but he's always tried to insult me with little jabs here and there to the point where I find myself tip toeing around him.

I'm glad you've reached a point that you say no more. You are a good mom. When do they start being respectful, loving sons?

 

[AvidFan]

I’m feeling fairly good. I don’t want to jinx myself, but I woke up 5 hours early this morning, and I’m still going. I’m not manic, just stable. It’s a huge relief, so I’m not going to question it!

Happy to hear you are having a good slot!

 

[AvidFan]

Uncertain. I was in bed from 9.50pm until 9.50am. I might have got to sleep around 2-3am until maybe 7-8am. Garmin is currently down, so I can't verify my sleep or overnight heart rate data, but from what I glimpsed it looked like I might have got 4-5 hours, which would probably be the most sleep I had in 4 days. I have to brute force it though. Don't feel 100% at all but at least have the day mostly off and if yesterday I felt at 20-30%, maybe today I feel 30-45% which is a slight improvement, on the other hand haven't had any anxiety or blood pressure spikes as yet, so maybe it's more of an improvement if I take that into account. Still feel a bit nauseous, but my body is going through a lot. Still don't feel optimistic or confident of feeling fully better, but am not quite in despair either.

 

[TragicReality]

My younger son stopped communicating with me. That has me worried. I called a crisis line. She said stuff that made sense. One of the things she said was that I've done my job as a mother, and me wanting to help is not going to work, it's like I can't control what happens now and that's true. I told her how he holds I'll end my life over my head is manipulation. I still won't stop worrying about him but she's right I can't control what he does now. I offer to listen, but yesterday his words hurt so much I just told him I can't talk when you're like this to me. Older is blocking me. This is awful.

 

[TragicReality]

Well thank God younger is alive. I called and said I'm here to listen etc., got a text back "Go f yourself. I hate you etc." at least he's alive it's way too cold out there if he's not in a building he'd freeze to death

 

[ClassicsFan]

Grumpy.

 

[Angie]

Frustrated. Apparently the infection is not gone and I have pain. Also, we have an incoming snowstorm and not able to get myself to a doctor until next week. Same for my cat, who is sick also.

 

[AvidFan]

Frustrated. Apparently the infection is not gone and I have pain. Also, we have an incoming snowstorm and not able to get myself to a doctor until next week. Same for my cat, who is sick also.

 

[AvidFan]

Wiped out. Ok one minute, terrible the next. Been swinging from OK to awful and from optimistic to despair. So tired.

 

[Inanimate]

Disappointed with the way things are going this year. I have a new insurance plan, but no one in the mental health department whom I regularly see is in network. So now I have to go through the process of seeking help again, except this time I’m completely unmotivated to do so.

 

[Windhover]

panicky, unworthy, disgusting

 

[AvidFan]

panicky, unworthy, disgusting

You may be panicky, but you are neither unworthy nor disgusting ❤️❤️❤️

 

[AvidFan]

Bit melancholic. Been reflecting on the past as some music from the past came on YouTube. Made me think of good times that were a long time ago, people I lost touch with, time I'll never experience again. My 30s were probably the best 7 years of my life, till it all changed in 2007. Think my serotonin is low. Or I'm just feeling sensitive at the moment due to scrambled sleep and brain.

 

[KM76710]

This is the worst year so far. I can't imagine what will happen if things get worse.

I feel that as well with the past year, issues at work, issues at home. I hope that things getting better for you, myself and all others with the New Year.

 

[SillyOldBear]

panicky, unworthy, disgusting

Wish I had a magic button to push to stop all your negative thinking. You are a VERY worthy person. Panicking I know you can stop. Disgusting you are definitely not.

 

[AmberMarie]

panicky, unworthy, disgusting

i can understand how one could feel that way. i, however, disagree with the last two. You are far from disgusting and you are Extremely worthy! Worthy of happiness, contentment, safety, security, and Everything that's good! Hugs!