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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I understand US may have conflicts with some countries but since the wildfire, I dont understand the hate with the US. They can't stop the war, like I'm abit ashamed some of my religion behaving this way. There are kind, innocent people and animals are all struggling together and there's always muslims affected in the US as well, so why the hate? Not everyone plays biased.
I am a US citizen, but I don’t feel like my government represents me. In the same way of thinking, I don’t consider the members of any one religion or any other group as a monolith. They are not the leadership, and they might have different values than the majority.
Rules say we should refrain from political discussions, but I think that sometimes issues can be in more than one category. The question of who is in conflict is IMHO a philosophical and moral issue. I think that any war is a complex subject, and there are no simple answers. It’s easy to hate, but I would argue it is going to cause more conflict and suffering for everyone than if people are educated on the complexities. It’s not easy to do this, but I think it’s worth it.
Rules say we should refrain from political discussions, but I think that sometimes issues can be in more than one category. The question of who is in conflict is IMHO a philosophical and moral issue. I think that any war is a complex subject, and there are no simple answers. It’s easy to hate, but I would argue it is going to cause more conflict and suffering for everyone than if people are educated on the complexities. It’s not easy to do this, but I think it’s worth it.
Traumatised, & grateful for the time I have to be in pain which sounds ludicrous but it's started to give me my self back. I am still ashamed of vulnerability, having been manipulated into giving my self into his 'care' along with money and time. I had to wrench, as in a sudden violent pull, out of the so-called relationship. I am in a strange space, going away from being his project. I dreamt of animals last night, and while I don't believe in wooey wooey stuff, it shows there's still some power left in my mind and heart.
Ill. Not quite as ill as I was earlier today, when I felt so bad I thought I was going to end up at the hospital or have a seizure/collapse. But not great. I somehow got through but my god every day is a slog. I looked in the mirror and didn't recognise myself, there is like 2 plane loads of sacks under my eyes, I look like death warmed up, but sleeping for about 15 hours total in 17 days will kind of have that effect. I just wish I could sleep even for one night. Last night I was totally wired at 10pm, buzzing, joyous, no anxiety. Unfortunately the feeling lasted until gone 3am and was no way to quieten down my brain, so when I had to get up at 8am after a few hours of sleep here and there, and then grind to work and grind through 5 hours of meetings, it all caught up with me. Hopefully it is just fatigue from the insomnia and I will soon be able to sleep. About to try to get home, I drew cash out to get a cab today, but I might try the bus, as there is no way I can keep up my work schedule for the next month like this, and I will have to cut back on work - and therefore really cut back on all expenses, minimising my outgoings is about the only choice I have to stay in control a little bit, and not end up spiralling financially 🥹
I've been rewatching Desperate Housewives again lately, and now that I'm definitely an adult, I can confirm it : I have the cleanliness standards and OCD-like behaviours of Bree Van de Kamp. Not exaggerating, I cannot rest when something isn't perfectly clean or tidy, and I hate that about myself...
These days, the mess of my house (which is not mine... and I cannot change all of it) is really getting my mood down.
These days, the mess of my house (which is not mine... and I cannot change all of it) is really getting my mood down.
Not ludicrous. Unfortunately it is how we process trauma, and the sooner we get it out, the better. I have experience with both short and long term trauma. I can tell you that letting it fester or avoiding it feels bad. It is also going to lead to more fear when we get down to it. So, although you are in pain right now, I would say that you are doing the healthiest thing.
I know that feeling. I’m in a good place for now, but I frequently feel like existing is not worth the risk and bother. I’m unable to follow through. Something always makes me back out before crossing the critical point.
The thing that preserves me for now is that I have seen that life is what I make of it. I can decide to get better, or I can let things get worse. When I want to find reasons why life is worth the pain, I can.
The thing that preserves me for now is that I have seen that life is what I make of it. I can decide to get better, or I can let things get worse. When I want to find reasons why life is worth the pain, I can.
Sometimes I am more aware of my mental illness than others. Right now I am intensely aware. I feel lost in a world that I don’t know how to navigate when my thoughts and feelings are stuck in the past. I know I am irritating others and I don’t feel good about myself either. I know what to do, intellectually. I have a disconnect between the tools in my toolbox and my tendency to assume that I only have a hammer.
