How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

I'm in a little state of shock. I'm going to meet my favourite musician of all times at the end of the year. I'll have the opportunity to speak to him... OMG OMG OMG

Lol who is it? 😀

 

[AvidFan]

Virtually lost in sadness and isolation.

Hugs @seabird ❤️❤️❤️

 

[AvidFan]

Better. I have pushed through absolute hell lately and feel like I might be able to see the other side. Not there yet, depends how my insomnia kicks me tonight, but I have worked hard today, work went well, and I've even got some intel from roofers. I'll take this as a win at the end of an awful few days. Think all the ants are dead now, at least the advance party - so I have been able to cook again - helps matters.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Virtually lost in sadness and isolation.

 

[Auri]

Lol who is it? 😀

Tuomas Holopainen, Nightwish's writer, composer and keyboardist.

 

[puffymilk]

I'm having a lazy day at home today and it is very nice. I had some interruptions but it's alright. Will probably have one tomorrow as well.

 

[puffymilk]

Better. I have pushed through absolute hell lately and feel like I might be able to see the other side. Not there yet, depends how my insomnia kicks me tonight, but I have worked hard today, work went well, and I've even got some intel from roofers. I'll take this as a win at the end of an awful few days. Think all the ants are dead now, at least the advance party - so I have been able to cook again - helps matters.

 

[Lane]

Better. I have pushed through absolute hell lately and feel like I might be able to see the other side. Not there yet, depends how my insomnia kicks me tonight, but I have worked hard today, work went well, and I've even got some intel from roofers. I'll take this as a win at the end of an awful few days. Think all the ants are dead now, at least the advance party - so I have been able to cook again - helps matters.

Sorry to hear that things have been so difficult for you lately Avid. I hope your roof situation gets fixed and the ants gone. And of course some sleep would be nice too.

 

[Lane]

Right now, I just want it to be over. I’m having intrusive thoughts about ending everything. If the job market is as bad as what I am reading on job sites, it is going to take a while.

I don’t have a while. My rainy day fund has been hit with a few rainy days in the past two years. Well, at least it’s a few months of expenses. I am grateful that I have anything. I read that 50% of gen-x and younger are living paycheck to paycheck, meaning no savings and barely scraping by. I need to get busy with my job search.

It have no reason to live. Only reasons why I shouldn’t kms. I wake up in the morning thinking about methods.

Thinking of you during this trying time Lumber Jack. I always admire your well written posts and think that you are such a valued member here. I hope that you start to feel some peace soon and life treats you kindly.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Paranoid.

 

[AvidFan]

Productive. I've just worked all day today and made some good money. Don't even feel tired. I did sleep 5 hours last night, maybe it's that. I've got a late evening call then could maybe do some more remote work later. I've even got 3 roofers who've replied - eventually. This is actually a success after the first one never replied at all. This could still ruin me, but one day at a time!

 

[AvidFan]

Tuomas Holopainen, Nightwish's writer, composer and keyboardist.

I've heard of them, think I used to listen back in the day when I started finding MP3s on Napster and it introduced me to a lot of new music.

 

[LumberJack]

Productive. I've just worked all day today and made some good money. Don't even feel tired. I did sleep 5 hours last night, maybe it's that. I've got a late evening call then could maybe do some more remote work later. I've even got 3 roofers who've replied - eventually. This is actually a success after the first one never replied at all. This could still ruin me, but one day at a time!

Glad you are feeling better at least. I’m having tons of anxiety about my future financial situation also. I tell myself it’s going to be okay. Myself tells me it’s not going to be okay! At some point this all ends in fire! (Referring to the star life cycle of the sun when it will start to expand because of like physics and stuff).

I don’t know what will happen. I do know what happens if I do nothing. I can’t say it will be okay, but I can try to handle what is immediately on my plate, and possibly set aside some time on the weekend to step back to see a larger picture. This stuff is hard.

I want to state that I can’t say whether this approach works for you. However, maybe it starts with a couple thoughts that you can use to find a way through this.

 

[LumberJack]

I'm in a little state of shock. I'm going to meet my favourite musician of all times at the end of the year. I'll have the opportunity to speak to him... OMG OMG OMG

So very happy for you. I know how I would feel to meet a favorite artist, and it would probably be embarrassing for all involved.

Sounds like a great opportunity.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m doing better today. Went to therapy today and she helped me untangle some stuff. I’m still finding out more about the behavioral tendencies of people with ADHD brains, and it’s a lot of realizations about how/why I behave the way I do (e.g., it takes me longer to do everything). I’m starting to think that I might be able to leverage my idiosyncrasies to give me an advantage, rather than obstacles.

Still feeling like depression is all around me, and I’m very restless, except when I’m very sleepy. I got more done today than I did over the past 3 days. I’m counting this as a win.

 

[1964dodge]

Virtually lost in sadness and isolation.

 

[1964dodge]

Paranoid.

 

[1964dodge]

doing pretty good i guess. my wife has been getting cortizone injections in her knews for around 2 years. the last time it didn't work at all. i kept telling her to call but she wanted to wait three months. when her knee doctor saw her knees he said you should have called right off lol. apparently her knees are bone on bone so something has to be done. we are waiting on some new foam injection tecnique being approved. at least they called in something for the pain. it hurts to see my wife suffer so it weighs heavily on me, otherwise ok i guess

mike

 

[Holding my breath]

Lying in bed and I do not want to get up to start the day.

 

[AvidFan]

Glad you are feeling better at least. I’m having tons of anxiety about my future financial situation also. I tell myself it’s going to be okay. Myself tells me it’s not going to be okay! At some point this all ends in fire! (Referring to the star life cycle of the sun when it will start to expand because of like physics and stuff).

I don’t know what will happen. I do know what happens if I do nothing. I can’t say it will be okay, but I can try to handle what is immediately on my plate, and possibly set aside some time on the weekend to step back to see a larger picture. This stuff is hard.

I want to state that I can’t say whether this approach works for you. However, maybe it starts with a couple thoughts that you can use to find a way through this.

Pretty similar for me. Keep telling myself it's always been OK - somehow - up to now, but then other me says this could be the time it isn't though. Throws up a load of evidence why it's not going to be OK. I am just trying to handle the day in front of me, and hold on for the weekend for some breathing room.

Insomnia totally fucked me over again last night, maybe 1 hour. Same routine as night before (where I did get about 4-5 hours) but this time it just wasn't happening no matter what I did/didn't do.