How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

i thought i had things figured out.. turns out i was lying to everyone and myself first.. fake it till you make doesnt work anymore and i feel alone and hopeless..

I also try fake it til you make it when I'm not feeling well. It's really hard to figure things in life out, it can be so confusing. I hope being here makes you feel less alone.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Alone very alone like no one really cares about me not really

Sassy, so very many people care about you. Everyone of SF adores you.

 

[Lane]

Alone very alone like no one really cares about me not really

Hi Sassy. Sorry that you're feeling alone. You're very cared about here at SF.

 

[Lane]

Not used to having a roommate. my niece is renting a room from me since at the time she moved in she had no place to go. Generally it is like she isn't here but I wanted to be noisy and do woodworking this afternoon but I knew she was sleeping. Now she is up and it is time for dinner. Maybe I'll be noisy after dinner.

Hope you enjoyed doing your woodworking S and that you'll show us some pics of your stuff.

 

[AvidFan]

Alone very alone like no one really cares about me not really

🥹 Sorry you are feeling so alone. No cat should have to feel alone. You are cared about here

 

[TragicReality]

I know this is going to be a long night. I had some extra amitriptyline to help me sleep, not anymore. So 50 grams less than the last 2 weeks... oh well, at least I still have enough data to read online overnight.

 

[Inanimate]

Alone very alone like no one really cares about me not really

I think I know what you mean. I feel the same way even when I’m told otherwise. I get cynical and consider that they’re just saying that because it’s the right thing to say. Then I ponder that perhaps I’m taking them for granted and consequently feel bad about that too. It seems that entertaining these thoughts just makes things much worse than they need to be. I just wish I had the answers. I’m sorry.

 

[KM76710]

Alone very alone like no one really cares about me not really

I wish that you had people in person that care about you the way folks here feel about you. Online is good, but real life in person can matter so much...

 

[KM76710]

Sent someone special a letter today. They dont think im special anymore- i hope they read my letter.

I hope that they do read the letter and that is makes a difference where you will be special again.

 

[KM76710]

Fed up with life and all its hassles. Makes me wish I had appreciated my youth when I had it. Because getting old truly sucks!

I can understand that getting older and all that starts going wrong and picks up steam regularly. I know I feel the same at times about my younger days more and more.

 

[Zzoey]

I also try fake it til you make it when I'm not feeling well. It's really hard to figure things in life out, it can be so confusing. I hope being here makes you feel less alone.

thank you for your reply.. it really is confusing.. i hope you and i and everyone finds the answers to all the questions one day.. i feel like a hypocrite typing this bc i dont truly believe it but oh well ..

 

[Temis31]

"Once more into the fray.
Into the last good fight i'll ever know.
Live and die on this day
Live and die on this day"

The harder the moments the more this quote resonates in me.
Like a whisper of a death wish.

Yet here i am. Still here. Wondering when is the suffering ending...
They say pain is temporary and quitting is forever. I think this wrong, very wrong.
Quitting is the end, an end to misery, to suffering, to life without meaning..

I think it's the only thing that keeps me going. If wish things workout as planned, so at the end i can embrace the warriors death that awaits me.
The more time flies by the more impatient i become..
I can no longer see the light.
Or maybe it was just an illusion.

Even my therapist has given up on me.
Or have i given up on her. I wonder.
I feel very for her, for wasting her time.
I think some people can't be saved.
Their destiny is probably too strong to be altered.
Who knows.

..."In the end we're all alone, and no one is coming to save you."...

 

[Windhover]

feeling less sad

 

[Inastorm]

I feel really strange, like ive had some kind of head injury and woken up after a coma with my life to shit. I do have my health but my mental health has never been very good and now things have happened that i just dont understand, where im left feeling angry, sad, alone, isolated, broken.

I leave the house saying bye to my cuddly (im a guy approaching 50 but ive had the cuddly soft toy for a while, it helped when i had really bad anxiety a few years ago) and i say hello to my cuddly when i get home from work. There is no one else, i sometimes wish my cuddly would say something back but they never do.
I believe im a good guy but extremely misunderstood.

 

[1964dodge]

i am defeated. Defeated by medical, by work, by home, by marriage, by many i thought i could call friends, and by life as a whole. i give up, and i give into whatever.

 

[1964dodge]

i used to feel strong. Now iam weak and tired and done.

i have no fight left... so there is no hope left for me either. i give into whatever is going to happen. i will no longer fight it.

i sincerely hope that you are reacting to a bad stretch right now. it's ok to just give in sometimes and just give up for a while. i sometimes give up because i am so tired fighting it, but i eventually get up to fight again.

you have amazing courage and have fought a lot so far. i hope you can get up and fight again. you don't always have to fight on a grand scale to cure everything. you can fight little battles like getting up in the morning and telling yourself you will do something to make you happy today. going out to dinner, go to a movie, or just a nice walk with a friend. hopelessness is the end but a tiny sliver of hope can move mountains

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

i thought i had things figured out.. turns out i was lying to everyone and myself first.. fake it till you make doesnt work anymore and i feel alone and hopeless..

 

[1964dodge]

Burnt out further now. At this new job. Despite after being in therapy for recovering from burnout from last job. Feeling hopeless

 

[1964dodge]

Sorry things are rough for you right now. I wish we could just press a lever and be done with it, but doesn't seem to work that way. I hope you can find some small joys still.

thank you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Stressed.