Today 1 - I got the marriage finally accepted by my ex employer (Very important, so Spain can not say no to a visa for my wife...), my salary arrived and in 5 days I fly to Africa for 4 weeks to get rid of the last medication, I took since years. I will just walk every day in the heat, drink my juice and tea, be with my wife and heal. I hope once and for all the problems are solved. I know I will always be in danger - there might even be one day a "fall back" - but I will be finally more or less normal. This forum has helped me so much. Thank you all guys and girls.