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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I feel bad. It’s probably because of the weather, so it’s not really a big deal. I have tried 3 things to get out of it, and now I have a strong sense that it’s one of those bad moods where the best thing is to be compassionately aware of it, and not push it away.
Sometimes it’s best to let something go through instead of pushing it out.
Background:
I have a tendency to constrict against uncomfortable emotions, and that keeps me stuck. This is feedback from my therapist. Before I had a LOT of PTSD treatment, I was stuck in a frozen emotional state, meaning I tried to keep myself safe by being invisible. Now I have moved out of this, except now I am in fight or flight almost all the freaking time, mostly fight, and that’s exhausting. However, I need to accept that it’s there so that I can get appropriate treatment and care for myself.
Sometimes it’s best to let something go through instead of pushing it out.
Background:
I have a tendency to constrict against uncomfortable emotions, and that keeps me stuck. This is feedback from my therapist. Before I had a LOT of PTSD treatment, I was stuck in a frozen emotional state, meaning I tried to keep myself safe by being invisible. Now I have moved out of this, except now I am in fight or flight almost all the freaking time, mostly fight, and that’s exhausting. However, I need to accept that it’s there so that I can get appropriate treatment and care for myself.
It’s been heavy clouds here and a little rain for the past 2 days. (I know, poor me, right?)
So since I’m used to 300+ sunny days a year, that’s all it takes to make me miss the sun. At least just breaking through the clouds. I want to sleep, even though I have been averaging 9 hours per night for the past two.
Also, my ****ing phone keyboard freaking hates me. So much.
So since I’m used to 300+ sunny days a year, that’s all it takes to make me miss the sun. At least just breaking through the clouds. I want to sleep, even though I have been averaging 9 hours per night for the past two.
Also, my ****ing phone keyboard freaking hates me. So much.
Thanks, I got through it but it was a comedy of errors. I wouldn't mind if it was meaningful, but it's mainly dealing with things that don't work or things that have worked for years but are now apparently a problem. Like my food waste bin not being emptied, the buses stealing money with their contactless "tap in" system, and now my office building manager saying I should have filled several forms out in triplicate and now wants them done and processes changed as a matter of urgency as I am breaking Health and Safety policy - when I've been there for 12 years and was told my setup was fine by another building manager! 😂
Hope it's going OK with your move and job search etc!
Hope it's going OK with your move and job search etc!
Please tell me that’s an exaggeration about the forms in triplicate?? I know I am in farging trouble when I come up against someone who wants a form in hard copy. I even get a little nervous if they ask for a printout of a PDF form. Do these basement-dwelling luddites not know that we have computers to store information now? Like what in the actual f***????
I’m still kinda ok with paper money, but only for hole in the wall places. In those cases, the food is so good that their clientele will pay cash so they don’t have to modernize.
And I hope you called BS on the policy stuff. Every single time I’ve been told no on grounds of “company policy” it’s really the case that junior doesn’t want to do his job, so instead of telling you to get lost, he unilaterally declares himself the ultimate arbiter of the company policy and what he says goes. F those guys right in the ear!
I’m still kinda ok with paper money, but only for hole in the wall places. In those cases, the food is so good that their clientele will pay cash so they don’t have to modernize.
And I hope you called BS on the policy stuff. Every single time I’ve been told no on grounds of “company policy” it’s really the case that junior doesn’t want to do his job, so instead of telling you to get lost, he unilaterally declares himself the ultimate arbiter of the company policy and what he says goes. F those guys right in the ear!
Overwhelmed by what I have to do within the next month: find a therapist who specializes in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and get started on that, as well as find a psychiatric facility with access to Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation and get started on that. I’ll be going from merely taking run-of-the-mill antidepressants that don’t help to a rigorous treatment plan that might help. I’m kinda nervous.
It's kind of an exaggeration, but it's a complete PITA and this has lost me money and opportunities so far this week. I hate doing pointless admin, it makes me unmotivated, irritated and somewhat low in mood. I have called BS on it, but this then leads to conflict which I also don't relish - I just want to get on with my work and my life, not end up arguing about the relative pointlessness of a stupid form or policy....
It may be hard to believe, but a lot of people still do not have computers or smart phones. And even if they did have them, do not have the knowledge to use them, or lack any comfort using them. These are mostly senior citizens in their 80's and 90's. They still prefer cash and check writing. Paper still rules for them. These will not go away until the 'boomers' go away.
