How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Windhover]

Not hopeless is good. We're here with you. I wish I did, but have no idea how to banish the lost-ness, as that is me as well.

You're welcome @AmberMarie!

 

[HappyKitty]

Since I've been losing grandparents, its been very nostalgic and getting alot of vivid nightmares these days.

I'd still be moving on anyways. Cooked egg fried rice and mix with tuna chilli, drinking hot milo.😺

 

[Luthien Tinuviel]

like i don't want to go on anymore. things feel like too much for me.

 

[AmberMarie]

Not hopeless is good. We're here with you. I wish I did, but have no idea how to banish the lost-ness, as that is me as well.

You're welcome @AmberMarie!

How about whomever figures it out first, makes sure to inform the other.

 

[Gard]

How about whomever figures it out first, makes sure to inform the other.

Good idea

 

[LumberJack]

.. made me sign a paper in a vulnerable state - so much for informed consent) among many other anecdotes and you might start to understand my complex web of distrust with the medical profession.

Dang Avid, it seems like you just can't catch a break. I feel similar although my troubles are tolerable, while yours are more than I could imagine. Hell I can barely keep myself from self destructing as it is. Also with you on the medical profession.

 

[HappyKitty]

Singapore weather is 32 degrees hot. I'm sweating really differently today.... and showered three times on a Sunday.... So hot.. Eating ice cream now🥵🤗

 

[Inastorm]

I’m really sorry that you are in this condition. I have the opposite experience, and I can’t imagine how I would have even gotten a diagnosis at all without him.

I think you have strengths that I didn’t have then. You are aware of your different-ness enough to be curious about it and seek understanding. I just thought it was everyone else’s problem, but I have learned otherwise.

Thanks for the encouragement, I appreciate that.

 

[Lane]

like i don't want to go on anymore. things feel like too much for me.

Sorry that youre feeling low @Luthien Tinuviel. I hope life can bring you some peace soon.

 

[Inastorm]

I had the most awful dreams about my previous relationship again, where this is every night. But I think last night was really bad.

I had been looking for them everywhere and found them, we spoke and talked about my tattoo. She was writing down what the tattoo looked like on a pad, so that they could go and look up it's meaning, rather than take my word for it.

I then lost them again and was trying to find them. I thought I'd woken up, as I was in bed with her soft toys looking at me, but she wasn't there and I started crying and I think my dad was around in the house (he's long pasted away), then I woke up for real - fucking hell!

 

[AvidFan]

I had the most awful dreams about my previous relationship again, where this is every night. But I think last night was really bad.

I had been looking for them everywhere and found them, we spoke and talked about my tattoo. She was writing down what the tattoo looked like on a pad, so that they could go and look up it's meaning, rather than take my word for it.

I then lost them again and was trying to find them. I thought I'd woken up, as I was in bed with her soft toys looking at me, but she wasn't there and I started crying and I think my dad was around in the house (he's long pasted away), then I woke up for real - fucking hell!

I also had a dream about the past. I was in a shared student house I lived in 1993 - I had 2 100,000 word dissertations to complete by mid June and then this landlady came in and removed all the technology from the house and said we had to use magic. LOL. Sorry your pain is coming out in your dreams.

 

[Lane]

I had the most awful dreams about my previous relationship again, where this is every night. But I think last night was really bad.

I had been looking for them everywhere and found them, we spoke and talked about my tattoo. She was writing down what the tattoo looked like on a pad, so that they could go and look up it's meaning, rather than take my word for it.

I then lost them again and was trying to find them. I thought I'd woken up, as I was in bed with her soft toys looking at me, but she wasn't there and I started crying and I think my dad was around in the house (he's long pasted away), then I woke up for real - fucking hell!

It's very unnerving to dream of an ex. It's been almost 30 years since I divorced and at least once a week I dream of him, and they're usually happy dreams. I think that's the problem, I wind up thinking, "what if?". That maybe i shouldn't have left so abruptly, putting my children at risk. Also, I didn't really have closure.

I hope that you can sleep peacefully from now on.

 

[Windhover]

Sorry that is happening for you. I have been having similar dreams @Inastorm. It's like my mind is trying to come up with a better way of of resolving the real life situation, but can't, so it succumbs to endless replays of variations on its inability to fix my shattered life.

 

[Windhover]

How about whomever figures it out first, makes sure to inform the other.

Deal. I'd love to be able to help change things for the better. 🤗

 

[cymbele]

I stopped having dreams about my ex on a regular basis. First I had them all the time, the occasionally, then only when I saw him but now we can interact and the dreams don't appear. He has moved on; I have moved on. I still want a companion but not really a housemate if it came to that. It does get better with time.

 

[Lane]

My grandson and daughter (30) share a birthday on June 1st. Its coming up to a year and I still haven't met him yet. This bewilders and hurts me. I question why she hasn't forgiven me or doesn't want me to meet her baby. I never beat her or talked down to her. I just wish that after all this time things were different.

I'm going to get him some books and outfits for his birthday and give it to my son to give to her. I was hoping that my SF friends here could say a prayer or send good thoughts that this situation improves. Thank you.

 

[Windhover]

Well wishes on their birthdays, but especially good thoughts to you @Lane. You deserve to not be ghosted by her, at the very least to find answers and closure so you can move on.

 

[PrincessPure]

Omg I’m studying in Mc Donald and there is this little girl with looong dark blond hair I can’t take my eyes off. If my child won’t look like that I don’t want a child at all.

 

[Windhover]

I think I understand what you mean. Have you read the book 'the courage to be disliked'?, I found it really helpful.

I will take it out from the library. When I'd explain logically why racist or fat-shaming comments were not good for him to say, just plain wrong, he'd push back as to why he was justified in acting that way. If I then debated this, in other words stood my ground, he would break down tears, saying I hated him etc.

 

[Windhover]

Sorry to go on about this. His target for the negative comments was not me: I'm slim, of the same race as him, and somehow I was allowed into his 'good books.' (At least at that he accepted me he doesn't now.) I am tired of being painted as the bad part of the relationship. I don't feel like a bad person. Just really sad.