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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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😡 hospital had me take a med called bentyl. As soon as I swallow it, I start coughing, having a difficult time drawing breath, and kept swallowing saliva over and over again. Thanks a lot, a**holes. I think it's wearing off now, but damn, a warning would have been nice. And the nurse has the nerve to say "Oh, I've never seen this type of reaction before" really? It clearly says online that hoarseness and soreness of the throat and difficulty swallowing can be side effects, and you're telling me you were clueless?
Still alive, which is something. After no sleep Friday night, and being up all day Saturday, I slept a max 2 hours last night, had to throw meds at it, just to get that. My nervous system is on fire and I'm walking over hot coals at the moment. It has to end somehow, if I can just solve one thing instead of the problems multiplying. I'm not asking for a lottery win, a perfect partner, or a miracle, I just need, primarily, a fucking gutter that's designed to divert water away from my wall, to stop directing water onto my wall and destroying wall features in the process. It shouldn't be this fucking hard to get a dripping gutter fixed. If I could just do that. That's all. Instead I get clueless muppets who take my money and make my life worse.
Anxious. I got a response from the person which was lightning fast on a Sunday and and am now anxious about what it says. I know it's irrational and I should just read the damn thing, but.... that's not how anxiety works. I thought take a step, then I can put it away for a bit.... Now I could be locked in messaging all day. Or it could be a NOPE, and back to square one.
Feel like I've taken action and action alleviates anxiety - but have been here before and then felt completely deflated when it's all fallen through or gone wrong. Am going to go for a walk and see how my body is holding up. Was supposed to try a run today but with hip twinges and 2 hours sleep it doesn't seem the brightest idea.
Late last night a memory popped up which dragged me into deep sadness. A whole bunch of 'happy times' which will never be possible to share anymore. Then, several other problem issues needing to be untangled offered themselves to my mind. But I told myself to try for sleep anyway, turned on the thunder and rian noise, and slept all night. yay. It seems it'll be cool enought for a run later in the afternoon.
I feel ill, seriously ill. Mentally. I tried - I plucked up the resolve and messaged this person. He replied almost immediately to say he would reply within an hour. That was 3 hours ago. The lies start straight from the off. All these people are crooks and liars and scammers. I checked my roof with zoom on camera and turns out half the work I paid for was not actually done. If only I'd not been so ill and vulnerable in Feb/March. If only I wasn't so ill and vulnerable now. I've got nothing left. And 10 urgent problems that all need dealing with yesterday.
@AvidFan We're on your side, hopefully that helps a little bit.
When I was dealing with multiple problems in my 105 year old cottage, I hired a licensed assessment guy to go over the whole property. This gave me a baseline of what was actually going on, and a way to prioritise the list. Do you think that'd help?
When I was dealing with multiple problems in my 105 year old cottage, I hired a licensed assessment guy to go over the whole property. This gave me a baseline of what was actually going on, and a way to prioritise the list. Do you think that'd help?
Thanks @seabird. Yeah it might be an idea - except I am already starting to struggle financially. That's the scariest thing about the whole situation, I have limited financial resources and I'm already feeling like I can't keep working much longer feeling like this - and if I stop working, the whole thing collapses.... I can look into it. But at they same time am terrified what else they might find/say.
Thanks for being on my side, it does help a little to know I'm not completely alone - so thank you. ❤️
Thanks for being on my side, it does help a little to know I'm not completely alone - so thank you. ❤️
IDK. I am finally drafting some nursing board complaints about my inpt debacle 20 months ago. I just have to get thru this because the weight of it hanging over me is changing who I am as a person. The changes are not in a direction I can be proud of. So, on the one hand, I'm angry and frustrated because of going over my medical records to identify supporting documentation to ground my complaints. Every bad memory is now stirred up like a nest of angry hornets. I have identified the records and captured screen shots. Intending to use these as figures within a Word document inline with the narrative and referenced to the original document of my entire record set (they call it a chart but it's really a disparate collection of different staffs' notes).
OTOH, I'm feeling less paralyzed. Probably because I am doing something instead of just feeling awful and resentful about it. My plan is that, barring the universe throwing a curve ball at me, I will plow through this and then I can stop drafting and revising my complaints in my head. I can say "I've done all I can, time to move on." I cannot say I've done all I can yet. However, knowing that these people are still licensed given that my experience was horrible and NOT unique, is evidence that there is no bottom line treatment if I'm in a crisis again. Hospitals are glorified jails and the nurses are glorified babysitters. They do not give one crap about patient needs or their outcomes. Just collecting a paycheck and the business just collects from insurance. Inpatient is an utter scam as far as I'm concerned. I am willing to admit the probability that some patients have helpful experiences, but I am also going to argue that they are in the minority. I have objective evidence, but probably not great to get into here.
I hate the system.
OTOH, I'm feeling less paralyzed. Probably because I am doing something instead of just feeling awful and resentful about it. My plan is that, barring the universe throwing a curve ball at me, I will plow through this and then I can stop drafting and revising my complaints in my head. I can say "I've done all I can, time to move on." I cannot say I've done all I can yet. However, knowing that these people are still licensed given that my experience was horrible and NOT unique, is evidence that there is no bottom line treatment if I'm in a crisis again. Hospitals are glorified jails and the nurses are glorified babysitters. They do not give one crap about patient needs or their outcomes. Just collecting a paycheck and the business just collects from insurance. Inpatient is an utter scam as far as I'm concerned. I am willing to admit the probability that some patients have helpful experiences, but I am also going to argue that they are in the minority. I have objective evidence, but probably not great to get into here.
I hate the system.
We care about you @AmberMarie. I hope the med change is successful too. Please take care and be safe. 
Trying to be less needy with my fiance bcz I don't feel like he puts me first or even has the ability since he's all about himself. The problem is my future/retirement is tied to him. I get nervous when I think of actually getting married and having to be with him 24/7. He is open to communication, and i have tried in the past, but i realize that at 64 it's hard to change. He's annoying. There's no getting around that. I don't know why I'm posting this exactly but it plays on my mind. Thank you for reading.
I question all medical systems, most personally when it comes to elder care. We took the route of seeking legal advice after my mother broke her hip while in rehab for her other broken hip. They then let her stay their fir several hours before an ambulance came. I was at the hospital before them and lived in another state.
I wish you luck and perseverance as you collect and cite your evidence. I hope youre compensated for what you went through LumberJack.
I wish you luck and perseverance as you collect and cite your evidence. I hope youre compensated for what you went through LumberJack.