How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

Feeling a bit sick of my interactions with workmen. I'm not good with conflict and having money worries around it. I've had 5 or 6 workman in the house all week. Just need a break from it all.

I hope this all works out for you Inastorm. Ps, luv your new avi.

 

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

I am so triggered and shaken rn. I really want reassursnce.

basically i called crisis number, and they referred me to talking therapies thats all they done. i feel so attacked, do they automatically offer that to anyone in a non crisis situation (i told them that i hadnt felt suicidal or sh'ed recently but if I were to stop self medicating itd probably change) or do they single me out because they perceive me as someone that particularly loves to talk to people? (based off my tone of voice or kind of concerns. or because they may have recognised me from earlier. I specified autism cptsd agoraphobia, eating problems, self esteem issues)
I GET VERY UPSET WHENEVER I AM PERCEIVED AS CHATTTY

 

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

I am so triggered and shaken rn. I really want reassursnce.

basically i called crisis number, and they referred me to talking therapies thats all they done. i feel so attacked, do they automatically offer that to anyone in a non crisis situation (i told them that i hadnt felt suicidal or sh'ed recently but if I were to stop self medicating itd probably change) or do they single me out because they perceive me as someone that particularly loves to talk to people? (based off my tone of voice or kind of concerns. or because they may have recognised me from earlier. I specified autism cptsd agoraphobia, eating problems, self esteem issues)
I GET VERY UPSET WHENEVER I AM PERCEIVED AS CHATTTY

Edit: WHY DID I POST THAT
so stupid and dramatic
what else would be referred? isnt therapy normally supposed to be talking to someone in person anyway?
why do i have to vent publicly whenever upset? even if i regret it later?
its not that its embarrassing, but more the case that i make being withdrawn and secretive (and logical) part of my self image, no wonder being openly emotional gives me personality dysphoria

 

[Inastorm]

I hope this all works out for you Inastorm. Ps, luv your new avi.

Thanks - i fancied a change with my avi, its a robin. I love robins, i like seeing them in the garden.

 

[Lane]

Thanks - i fancied a change with my avi, its a robin. I love robins, i like seeing them in the garden.

I like them too. To me they represent the coming of Spring. Birds are such hard workers.

 

[Congratsbaby]

Sure, no problem @Congratsbaby . Thanks

You're welcome, I just wanted to say I understand that you may feel it's unrealistic to find someone who is right for you at your age , I am not at your age so perhaps it's very easy for me to say. Perhaps you're being realistic but also I just feel like you should or anyone should not settle for someone just because. I do not know you , I hope this is not coming out as harsh. You deserve love , your fiance should love you. And shouldn't you love him too ?
I think you tried but he turned you off with his attitude. Simply being said , I hope you won't settle. Take care , I am aware I know zero percent of your life. Just felt like saying it , I have no harsh feelings for you or him. Just kind of an optimist.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m feeling really agitated just now. I’m behind on every major area in my life, such as self care - physical and emotional, career, social, organization, budget, et al. I am only one person. I’m going to have to do some troubleshooting today as to what am I really avoiding? Why am I paralyzed with fear the moment I try to do something productive for myself?

Also appt today with a vascular surgery office. Something doesn’t look right on my legs and a nurse who was seeing me for a preventative check up said it looks like venous stasis. The appearance is getting worse every day and I am glad I was able to get an appointment so soon.

 

[JanisSPK]

Happy peaceful and very blessed

 

[mosaic hearts]

I'm not feeling well at all. Someone is crying from my eyes (we're DID), & I'm feeling very cold (have chills) because a memory is coming up. Such bad timing. I have to go to work later. I don't know how I'm going to manage everything. I'm still struggling with suicidal thoughts, impulses/urges on top of everything. I just want to hide under a rock right now. God help me...

 

[Windhover]

I hope the day improves @mosaic hearts. Hopefully the weekend will be peaceful and give you some relief from the distress.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I hope the day improves @mosaic hearts. Hopefully the weekend will be peaceful and give you some relief from the distress.

Thank you @seabird. This is a very rough time of year for me/us.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I'm not feeling well at all. Someone is crying from my eyes (we're DID), & I'm feeling very cold (have chills) because a memory is coming up. Such bad timing. I have to go to work later. I don't know how I'm going to manage everything. I'm still struggling with suicidal thoughts, impulses/urges on top of everything. I just want to hide under a rock right now. God help me...

I don't think I can go to work today. I really don't. I feel too sick.😰😢😭

 

[may71]

I'm not feeling well at all. Someone is crying from my eyes

That sounds so horrible. I hope things can get better soon somehow.

Wishing you good things.

 

[AvidFan]

I don't think I can go to work today. I really don't. I feel too sick.😰😢😭

Sorry you are struggling and hope this passes soon ❤️

 

[3nufk1n.sheepies]

i went to see my probation officer but i had to see someone else she wasnt there. this person i never met.

i specificed mental health concerns specificially agoraphobia low self esteem and self comparison (but also housing, jobs)
and that i was being harrassed

was i being too open?

 

[HappyKitty]

been doing ok, on trial and error with migraine prevention meds, so far topiron is not bad. been sleeping really well for two weeks but havent had any headache relief yet, at least down to one cafergot a day.

 

[may71]

was i being too open?

Idk, I don't think you said anything unreasonable.

 

[KM76710]

Thanks - i fancied a change with my avi, its a robin. I love robins, i like seeing them in the garden.

I like the new avatar also, a bird taking flight. The chances, both good and bad have their place, but you can so often affect how things go. You have a voice in it. Plus, prettily colorful.

 

[chiastic_slide]

Very shaky. Difficult to focus. Maybe too much caffeine and nicotine. But just got up an hour ago.

Going out and try to walk it off.

Raining a lot. Hoping fall have arrived for real this time.

 

[chiastic_slide]

Too many feelings.