How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[KM76710]

Fairly relaxed. Tis my birthday so have taken day off work (as much as possible in a fast moving 24/7 environment, some emails and actions need doing but no draining meetings or contact!).

Wishing you a fine and fun

 

[Mid Night]

Fairly relaxed. Tis my birthday so have taken day off work (as much as possible in a fast moving 24/7 environment, some emails and actions need doing but no draining meetings or contact!).

 

[AmberMarie]

i feel like everyone has finally given up on me.

 

[chiastic_slide]

Realized yesterday that I’ve been missing meals and been sleeping badly. Explains why I’ve been more than usual unfocused, annoyed and shaky. Still missed dinner yesterday and couldn’t get to sleep until late.

Have a doctors appointment in a few hours. Trying to decide how much I should try to fix myself up. I feel half-dead, might as well look the part. Or maybe I should shave. I don’t know.

Just trying to keep it together for a few more hours.

 

[Lane]

Fairly relaxed. Tis my birthday so have taken day off work (as much as possible in a fast moving 24/7 environment, some emails and actions need doing but no draining meetings or contact!).

Happy Birthday Avid.

 

[Windhover]

I feel somewhat nervous about some things I have decided to do. It's just a matter of getting them done and past.

 

[may71]

i feel like everyone has finally given up on me

I'm sorry you feel that way. Do you want to say why?

 

[KM76710]

i feel like everyone has finally given up on me.

It is sad that you feel that way, we have not given up on you here. Wish is was more helpful in the sense of being there in person.

 

[AmberMarie]

I'm sorry you feel that way. Do you want to say why?

i worked for such a long time to make others realize how worthless it was/is to be around me and try to talk or spend time with me. So now... everything i worked so hard to accomplish has finally happened. People no longer respond to my txts or emails... phone calls, the 2 gaming platforms i use, or snail mail. It's actually a good thing. That way less are affected by everything... and nothing at the same time. Less will notice. Can't find the right words to explain.

 

[AmberMarie]

It is sad that you feel that way, we have not given up on you here. Wish is was more helpful in the sense of being there in person.

i appreciate what you are saying. i kinda wish people would here as well. It's a bitter sweet thought and wish. i don't know how else to explain it right now. sry....

 

[Inastorm]

Im still on that deserted island looking out to sea, still thinking of 'them'. But have moments where i find the island pretty and explore myself in this new environment. Its lonely a lot of the time and i talk to my cuddly.

 

[AvidFan]

Im still on that deserted island looking out to sea, still thinking of 'them'. But have moments where i find the island pretty and explore myself in this new environment. Its lonely a lot of the time and i talk to my cuddly.

Those moments are like precious gold-bearing plants. Water and nurture them 😊

 

[AvidFan]

I'm calm but a little apprehensive. Lately I am calm and OK until I have to interact with people, and then my nervous system goes into a spin, my head starts fogging up and I start getting all kinds of body sensations and pains and anxiety. I'm naturally an introvert and people drain me generally, but with the medication crap the last 2 years it feels like my resilience to deal with it has been siphoned out of me. Used to be OK with a day like today - I've got 3 important back to back meetings, so am hoping I can get to 5.30pm sane and in one piece.

 

[Windhover]

i appreciate what you are saying. i kinda wish people would here as well. It's a bitter sweet thought and wish. i don't know how else to explain it right now. sry....

Sorry you feel it'd be better to be thought of as worthless @AmberMarie. It used to be something like that when I was having food issues, seemingly couldn't find detachment at all and needed control. It may be different for you. Here, you are valued just how you are. Have you been able to get out for walks in nature?

 

[Inastorm]

Work is shit today, a few people i work with are being a bit unkind in my opinion.

 

[AvidFan]

Work is shit today, a few people i work with are being a bit unkind in my opinion.

😢

 

[may71]

i worked for such a long time to make others realize how worthless it was/is to be around me and try to talk or spend time with me.

Do you want to say what you did?

Less will notice.

Hugs AmberMarie

 

[LumberJack]

I’m feeling mixed. All the emotions. I am sitting outside on a beautiful day next to a beautiful creek, in the shade and eating a sandwich. So that’s nice. Aside from this, though, I have so much resistance to the self marketing work to find a job that I am wondering if my last job is to be my last job, forever.

I like having a job to do. I’m good at the work required of my field, and I’m knowledgeable about best practices and constant process improvement. I just hate the problem of having to find a way to stand out from the other 700 people vying for the same position. I’m going to have to bite the bullet and just do it. I’m sick to my stomach at the thought.

 

[AvidFan]

Unwell. I had such a good start to the day, but then a few things happened in the evening and I just spiralled again. I've only got 3500 steps in so far today. I'm going to try and do the 7500 steps on my night walk, maybe it will help.

 

[AvidFan]

Still fed up but I did my 7500 steps and kept my streak going. Some kind of bloody minded I won't be beaten part of me that does this. If can't win anything else in the day at least I can do the walk.