How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

In so much pain. Just want to die. God, please take me.

 

[1964dodge]

I am feeling hopeless today.

 

[1964dodge]

Rather more than a little worried, furious and sad.

 

[1964dodge]

i'm still around . recovery from post sepsis syndrome is very slow but i am slowly getting better. mostly constant fatigue and a foot that's been swollen for weeks, but the swelling is starting to come down a little. i miss being here all the time but i am trying to come back more

mike

 

[1964dodge]

I hope that things continue to improve and get better for you and that you see good results soon.

thank you @KM76710

mike....

 

[AnHeroTransGirl]

Upset and out of control mentally. I don't understand how people just "change the way they think" or "change their mindset". I genuinely don't have that ability and no matter what I try I just can't so people around me need to stop asking. How do people have the ability to turn off negative emotions? Genuinely. I have no fucking idea how.

 

[Shinzon1]

Seems like my mood has leveled out to something approximating normal.

I'm moving 2000 miles in about 80 days. I think a little bit of "holy fuck...what am I doing?" Is allowed

 

[Lane]

Feeling lonely but trying to pass the time eating, listening to music and hanging out with my cat. Also resisting the urge to smoke weed bcz of my recent weight gain.

 

[Pebble mouse]

I'm OK mentally, but it's so damn hot here. 45 degrees (that's 113 in Fahrenheit). Tomorrow will be around half of today's temperature, thankfully.

 

[puffymilk]

Feeling pretty good

 

[shadowrider]

Truly Challenged,

 

[I_waste_everything]

This morning, I see in my dreams visions and feel feelings that remind me how I utterly wasted the time that could have been mine with pettiness, confusion, refusal to admit I need help, or seek it, and refusal to learn.

So this morning, once again, I wake up wanting to abort the failed attempt.

 

[I_waste_everything]

I also feel awful for our neighbor TSS here on suicideforum and their housing crisis. If I had the money I'd offer to send some myself. I can't, though, for which I feel wrongful. I hope they can get their $600.

 

[LumberJack]

I'm OK mentally, but it's so damn hot here. 45 degrees (that's 113 in Fahrenheit). Tomorrow will be around half of today's temperature, thankfully.

Holy moly - that's hot! I used to live in the hottest (inhabited) part of the USA and when it was above 41C I was not okay. It wasn't the Hi temperature itself, so much as that it NEVER got below 100 F or so, which is 38C approx. When that went on for no less than 50 days in a row it was really brutal. It's now the new normal there, and it's gotten to the point where several days see temps above 120F, or 49 C!

So - I moved away, lol. I mean there were other reasons, too, but that was definitely a big push.

 

[Angie]

I feel disconnected from life. I spend entirely too many hours staring at the walls of my apartment. Suicidal ideation has returned also. My therapist is annoying me (because she is frustrated with me). I have an appointment with pdoc on Wednesday, but I don't know what he can do. I've taken every psych med known to US psychiatry.

I just want to sleep forever.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Like today would be a good day to die. I, too, just stare at the walls of my house, or this blasted computer. Have some serious physical issues, but can't get to the doc until March. Then there will be a huge wait for a specialist. I suspect that whatever I have, it is likely to be terminal, but not quickly enough. I have a method, but am too chicken to use it. God, I wish I had never been born!
I kind of admire people who struggle on through all their issues. Their pain. But they have much more courage than I do.

 

[Windhover]

I think it's (what 'it' is) way, way more nuanced than whether one displays more or less courage. I wish you healing and love @SillyOldBear. To me you're a valuable and enjoyable human being who I'm very glad is here on the planet as well as here, though I'm sorry about the reasons for which you're on SF.
🩷🩶🌲☕️

 

[Windhover]

Wow @Pebble mouse that's terrible heat. Did your area get cooler and a sprinkle of rain today? I hope so.

 

[Windhover]

I'm some sort of mix of anxiety, numbness and fluctuating between no hope and willingness to try whatever works.

 

[LumberJack]

I sort of had an insight this morning. It's not an "epiphany" because it's actually been in the back of my mind for over a year now. I have been using synthetic experiences to get my needs met. Coffee over sleep. High fidelity nature recordings over leaving the house. Supplements and pills over healthy diet. The only things I do for self care that are not imitations of a real thing seem to be what I can do alone in my apartment. So leaving the apartment or interfacing with another person is the place I am fearing. I think my first priority is getting at least a little time in nature, aka "forest bathing" if you're into the trendy nomenclature.


I don't really need a term for it - I have been outdoors inclined since my dad took us camping multiple times a year as young as I can remember. It probably started even earlier. The smell of pine trees and the sounds of wild birds are like a vitamin to me. I need them and I can't get them by simply synthesizing them. So, off to look for nearby hiking trails. I need to check out my cold weather gear, too. I haven't used it in years because it hasn't been even that cold in the winters in the past 2 years.