How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[JanisSPK]

I've just been starving for love. for appreciation. for anything. I just wanna hear a single goddamn "I'm proud of you", get a single hug, get any kind of recognition for how fucking hard I've been trying for all this time. it's like everyone refuses to see all the work I put into this life.

I'd give anything to get a sledgehammer rammed into my face right now.

Having to send virtual hugs you. Several. I hope things might have lightened a least a little for you, it's Thursday now

 

[JanisSPK]

Super proud at the moment, as one of my kiddos received some very good news.

Congratulations for the good news for your child, happy for you both.

 

[JanisSPK]

Confused and anxiety. I struggle to voice out my opinions infront of people who I know can use it against me. Often people of authority. I just sent a text , when asked for feedback and I mentioned a drawback and now I am anxious.

I am scared of being seen by the wrong people.

I hope the anxiety has diminished, all or some by now. And that the text you sent caused you no issue......

 

[LumberJack]

I've just been starving for love. for appreciation. for anything. I just wanna hear a single goddamn "I'm proud of you", get a single hug, get any kind of recognition for how fucking hard I've been trying for all this time. it's like everyone refuses to see all the work I put into this life.

I'd give anything to get a sledgehammer rammed into my face right now.

I would give you a hug if you would be comfortable with it. I can only offer virtual hugs, though, and if you’re like me it’s necessary to get physical (non violent) touch.



Re: sledgehammer- I recognize that. There are ways that people treat each other without physical contact that hurt a lot more and leave deeper scars than a relatively serious physical injury. It happens to me more often than I think it should.

 

[LumberJack]

I feel melancholy. I have put in several hours of effort over the past 3 days towards managing my psych symptoms, and I am proud of my work. I am also very tired, like I just over-exerted myself in the gym on the free weights. I haven’t been sleeping enough lately so I’m physically and emotionally worn down.

For some reason I never feel like I did enough. Whether it’s healthy or self destructive, I want more, and I should have done more, and done it harder/better. I actually do know the reason and it’s not consistent with observable facts. It’s an area with a lot more work to do. Someday - I guess.

 

[Congratsbaby]

I hope the anxiety has diminished, all or some by now. And that the text you sent caused you no issue......

Yes , it has. Thankyou.

 

[JanisSPK]

Yes , it has. Thankyou.

 

[JanisSPK]

I feel melancholy. I have put in several hours of effort over the past 3 days towards managing my psych symptoms, and I am proud of my work. I am also very tired, like I just over-exerted myself in the gym on the free weights. I haven’t been sleeping enough lately so I’m physically and emotionally worn down.

For some reason I never feel like I did enough. Whether it’s healthy or self destructive, I want more, and I should have done more, and done it harder/better. I actually do know the reason and it’s not consistent with observable facts. It’s an area with a lot more work to do. Someday - I guess.

You did enough today I hope you get good sleep tonight 😴

 

[ClassicsFan]

Ugly.

 

[Angie]

Looking forward to a good day today. (fingers crossed)

 

[Lane]

Not at work again due to a cold. Just called my boss, its required we text in the am, then call her around lunchtime...which I think is insane.

Trying to keep depression at bay, so did some food shopping and picked up books at the library.

 

[Windhover]

Fighting to stay grounded and starve the anxiety to death

 

[LumberJack]

Still melancholy, but it's okay to feel sad. It's different from depression by way of being realistic instead of exaggerated and overwhelming. It's healthy to be sad every now and then. As I experience depression it's more like an absence of feeling combined with a lot of anger/aggression directed at myself, others, and the world at large.

I feel like I can give myself a break today because I really got a ton accomplished yesterday and Wednesday. So - it's a day of rest and quiet contemplation.

 

[cymbele]

Nervous because I am going to try out the table saw by myself soon. Last year on the same project I got careless and injured my thumb on the saw. Really haven't used it since. My friend has done my sawing for me but now is the time for me to grow up and do it myself. It's all set up - I just have to turn it on.

 

[Windhover]

I understand @cymbele I used to work part time at a custom cabinet and furniture shop. We always had 2 when starting in on a new full sheet of plywood, just in case. I never had anything go wrong, thank goodness but I've heard the stories. The only machine I was more wary of was the huge antique bandsaw which had no safety guards on it. Are you pushing through small pieces, or working with plywood.

Best to you.

 

[cymbele]

I understand @cymbele I used to work part time at a custom cabinet and furniture shop. We always had 2 when starting in on a new full sheet of plywood, just in case. I never had anything go wrong, thank goodness but I've heard the stories. The only machine I was more wary of was the huge antique bandsaw which had no safety guards on it. Are you pushing through small pieces, or working with plywood.

Best to you.

I DID IT!!! I was safe and did not push to get everything done. Took my time. Thanks for the encouragement though. I do small crafts so it’s manageable but my fingers are that much closer to the saw. I’m building butterfly houses for gardens. I don’t know if butterflies use them but they’re pretty. I made them last year but I didn’t get one of my own

 

[righttight1]

Incredibly lonely, sad, depressed, and down

 

[Congratsbaby]

Incredibly lonely, sad, depressed, and down

Hope it gets better for you.

 

[Congratsbaby]

I DID IT!!! I was safe and did not push to get everything done. Took my time. Thanks for the encouragement though. I do small crafts so it’s manageable but my fingers are that much closer to the saw. I’m building butterfly houses for gardens. I don’t know if butterflies use them but they’re pretty. I made them last year but I didn’t get one of my own

That looks good to me

 

[Windhover]

Well done @cymbele ! I'm assuming you have a well used push stick with a little notch. Not sure I'd feel trusting of myself anymore as it's been a number of years. Proud of you and glad you've got the confidence back.

I like the butterfuly shelter a lot, it's cute and a great thing to put in the yard for the critters. 🌱🙂❤️🦋