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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I hope so too , living in loneliness and without human connection is well not the best haha. How are you?
Significantly better than the last few days. Grateful for having got back to running at the same time the impact of the event which happened for my loved one. Surprisingly or not the running helped me keep from being overwhelmed as did the SF posts and hugs. Although I don't have the mileage I wanted by now, I'm still working towards my goals.
Super uncomfortable today. Feels like I've swung back from insomnia to hypersomnia. Last night I could not get out of bed until about 12.5 hours after I went to bed. I had thought I was up after 11 hrs, but I must not have been because the next thing I knew I was back in bed and another 90 minutes had passed. Night before I got 8.5 and felt relatively well rested, but today I am just dragging my carcass through everything and I'm irritable on top of that. Going to try taking a nap.
I might be catching up since prior to this, I had gone a long streak of only 4-6 hrs nightly. I'm also really distressed by the inability to control my own behavior. I'm trying to resist my compulsions, but it's kind of like once it sneaks through I cannot stop it although I see myself doing it. What I've read about so far is that people with OCD perform the compulsive behavior because it soothes the anxiety created by the obsessive thought. I'm not doing that so maybe something different is going on with me. I definitely get the intrusive thoughts, but the obsessive behavior is not directed at preventing the feared outcome from happening.
I just compulsively do it and it feels like I have no control over it. I do feel uncomfortable until I complete something, though. Kind of like being on a rollercoaster. Once it takes off you're not getting out until it completes the circuit around the track. In my case, though, it feels like it has to complete dozens of circuits around the track for hours on end. With ADHD symptoms on top of that, it's a lot of behavior change to manage. Maybe that has a lot to do with my exhaustion as well.
I might be catching up since prior to this, I had gone a long streak of only 4-6 hrs nightly. I'm also really distressed by the inability to control my own behavior. I'm trying to resist my compulsions, but it's kind of like once it sneaks through I cannot stop it although I see myself doing it. What I've read about so far is that people with OCD perform the compulsive behavior because it soothes the anxiety created by the obsessive thought. I'm not doing that so maybe something different is going on with me. I definitely get the intrusive thoughts, but the obsessive behavior is not directed at preventing the feared outcome from happening.
I just compulsively do it and it feels like I have no control over it. I do feel uncomfortable until I complete something, though. Kind of like being on a rollercoaster. Once it takes off you're not getting out until it completes the circuit around the track. In my case, though, it feels like it has to complete dozens of circuits around the track for hours on end. With ADHD symptoms on top of that, it's a lot of behavior change to manage. Maybe that has a lot to do with my exhaustion as well.
