How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

Failure. I'm a failure.

you are not a failure

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Like I have a headache.

i hope you feel better soon. don't laugh but i take anacin for headaches. not good for much else but works on headaches for me

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I am so fucking tired of pain. God, why don't you just call me home? When will you finally decide it has been enough?

you have been in my prayers quite a few times. sometimes when i ask for god to call me home because of severe pain i ask if he will call you home as well, as long as you still want to go.

i told my wife i had a date coming up, she looked at me a little strange. i told her nothing romantic, it was just you and i meeting for dinner after we both croak and go home lol

mike.....

 

[1964dodge]

good/ bad hopeless/hopeful but for the most part happy.

mike

 

[HappyKitty]

yeaa i dont want a full mask😹

just didnt know sleep apnea was a thing when I did the sleep test first time ten years ago when I started to feel really low with other deficiencies due to pituitary tumor— then ten years later, theres a blocked airway between throat and lungs thingy so I am really glad it has treatment after being untreated with fatigue ten years, now while waiting for the sleep apnea treatment, its so risky to take cafergot daily while waiting for infusion for migraine prevention thingy that I’m sure chronic fatigue will give you. I just hope I’m free from whatever illnesses I have, even if it cant be reversed at least give me treatmment and support and i can continue to survive and feed on my own, be on par with others who has been earning for living by themselves.

 

[chiastic_slide]

Well, I’ve sent off email to customer service. Don’t know if that will be the end of it or.. Exhausted. Feel an anxiety attack lurking in the back of my mind. Trying to make some lunch before it show up.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Pissed. I wanted to post something, but my browser ended up freezing on me.

 

[Lostman85]

Worse and worse

 

[SillyOldBear]

you have been in my prayers quite a few times. sometimes when i ask for god to call me home because of severe pain i ask if he will call you home as well, as long as you still want to go.

i told my wife i had a date coming up, she looked at me a little strange. i told her nothing romantic, it was just you and i meeting for dinner after we both croak and go home lol

mike.....

I look forward to that date!!!!

 

[ClassicsFan]

i hope you feel better soon. don't laugh but i take anacin for headaches. not good for much else but works on headaches for me

mike....

I feel a lot better, thank you.

 

[LumberJack]

Woke up this morning after 6 hours sleep and I am reliving traumatic events, continually going over how I should have handled it, but in my naïveté I let people use me as a doormat and an involuntary revenue stream.

On the plus side, I have a lot of energy that I am going to use to get in the gym and get an earlier start to the day.

 

[valerazimov]

fucked
Totally fucked
I feel my life is a waste, too many unlucky circumstances
I can logically think, and understand that i did not lost everything yet, but it seems like i did
anyway, i still desparatly try to break trough
rarely with succues

 

[valerazimov]

Woke up this morning after 6 hours sleep and I am reliving traumatic events, continually going over how I should have handled it, but in my naïveté I let people use me as a doormat and an involuntary revenue stream.

On the plus side, I have a lot of energy that I am going to use to get in the gym and get an earlier start to the day.

ohhh i see, i hope your day goin well
Sometimes such a brust of energy can take you up from a hell hole into the better life
a problem to seek for this energy, and use it
wish ya wonderfull and useful day

 

[I_waste_everything]

I have a rush of feeling filthy and came here to tell such, but I feel now like the contamination is less absolute. Still, I feel fecal, and I feel like my house, especially the chamber that used to be "my" "room" is filthy because of the mistake I made, and I don't want to keep being alive while feeling fecal.

 

[may71]

Worse and worse

I'm sorry things are so bad. You're welcome to say more about what's going on if you'd like to, but I also understand if you don't want to.

 

[KM76710]

Worse and worse

Sad hear that things are so bad for you, but know you are welcome and you are with members that are supportive and caring. I hope you keep posting and learning the site and people.

 

[Windhover]

My mind is going over the same old moldy crap. I miss my house, my belongings, my walks and runs I used to take. Today and yesterday I really needed to talk with my brother - he always understood about existential stuff, about how creativity helps but also can make thengs worse, etc. But he is dead. I miss him.

 

[Lane]

Im working on a project of redoing all my picture albums, going back 30 years. I must be doing better because I didn't break down when looking at baby pics of my daughter. I even set aside pics for my children to give to my ex husband.

 

[chiastic_slide]

I’m losing my mind. Troubles with customer service, since Thursday, just keeps getting more insane for every day. Now they are inventing invoice numbers out of thin air. I guess there are no humans behind the screen. Just automatic replies and “A.I“. I wrote a well put together email yesterday and even tried to connect on a human level, but no.. Just an automatic reply, that pretends to be not that.

It’s going to kill me. Barely made it yesterday. What usually stops me is that I don’t want leave a mess behind. But today I’m just thinking what is the least I need to do.. Maybe just clear out the most private papers. And I already have a folder ready “In case of my death” to whom it may concern.

But I guess I need to respond to the fictitious invoice first. But I’m afraid what I will do if I can’t get through to a real human being.

 

[Inanimate]

Frustrated. I have class in 5 hours, and I can’t sleep. Why can’t I ever sleep when I need it most?