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How Are You Feeling Right Now?

AvidFan

Retired Cat Staff
SF Supporter
I don't think I can take much more. I've spent the entire weekend bracing for today, a day of long remote meetings in the heat I checked the wrong emails yesterday - turns out most work has been cancelled (a few sunny days and the excuses start to roll in) and everyone decided to use the mail inbox I don't monitor (I search my main inbox to see if there's anyone upcoming who's messaged to try to protect my time). So I'm down financially as well as having paid an anxiety tax over nothing. There's no update on my stupid background check after 4 weeks - at this point there won't be and my one financial safety buffer is gone. I'm really spiralling. For a while it's been "I can't carry on doing this." but I've somehow forced myself to keep going. At the moment I really don't want to do this any more - my heath's collapsed/collapsing, my livelihood is collapsing, I have multiple problems that require money and bandwidth to solve, and I have neither. The cost of existing is far outweighing any benefits or little upsides it might once have had.
 

Aurelia

🔥 A Fire Inside 🔥
SF Supporter
I am sad, empty and idk how to change it. The fear of making it worse prevents change. I understand that is always a risk. I understand that some of the best lessons are learned in low moments. Right now, My fear keeps me hopeless.
Fear can't prevent change. It doesn't have any power over us. You aren't hopeless, my friend. Trust in God. ❤️
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
Naps are the best. I hate when im not sure if I took my meds. I probably wind up taking double *facepalm
I have a pill planner for that reason. I will skip meds if I don’t. I have to look at the tray to make sure it’s empty for the current day or I need to take them. I did, however, recently take my night meds earlier than I planned a few days ago. Yesterday I was just sleepy though.
 

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