How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[may71]

Sending hugs to anyone who would like hugs

 

[AnHeroTransGirl]

Terrible today. I was telling a friend about my problem and they lost their patience and got angry at me.

 

[Angie]

1:31 am

I feel lonely and alone.

 

[anona123]

1:31 am

I feel lonely and alone.

Same.

I’m struggling to see why we’re here. It seems a mistake. Things that were of interest seems pointless and stupid now.

 

[puffymilk]

I'm feeling okay

 

[Lane]

Lost, suicidal, and alone.

I hope some peace comes your way seabird. Like dodge said, you have friends that care about you here.

 

[Lane]

I'm feeling overwhelmed because the people in my life who I thought knew me the best are doing surprises when they know I would rather be consulted about things. I have anxiety, so I don't enjoy going to crowded coffee shops or being touched by strangers.

Hi @Beos and welcome to SF. I hope your anxiety lessens and people stop doing surprises.

 

[Lane]

Back from camping, unpacked and in pjs. Trip was good. Rained some, but stayed in the tent.

Today i gave my son a gift to give to my daughter for my grandson's 2nd birthday. Still havent met him but trying to remain hopeful. Part of me says this will never happen and I must accept it.

 

[AvidFan]

Lost, suicidal, and alone.

I am sorry @seabird I wish I could make you feel better.

 

[seabird]

Panic attack has subsided. My heart rate isn't as high. My watch actually alerted me of trouble - never before saw it do that. My sleep was broken but I got a few hours. Everyone who wrote on Sf has helped me feel there is some value in fighting this, despite the blows that will keep hitting me from this huge setback.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m in so much pain that I am physically collapsing. I’m monumentally foolish when it comes to major life decisions, and those are all showing up to bite me in the ass. I have 14 months until my 50th birthday, and it would be amazingly easier if I could make sure I don’t make it. I’m just so tired of being suicidal off and on, to varying degrees.

I’m starting to doubt I would be able to exit by choice, but things can change. I know without a doubt that if I discontinue my meds suddenly, it would be easier to do it than to resist ending myself. That’s why I’m on the meds in the first place…

Going to take a nap right now. It could possibly be that I’m just grumpy.

 

[LumberJack]

Panic attack has subsided. My heart rate isn't as high. My watch actually alerted me of trouble - never before saw it do that. My sleep was broken but I got a few hours. Everyone who wrote on Sf has helped me feel there is some value in fighting this, despite the blows that will keep hitting me from this huge setback.

Yeah panic attacks are rough. I know because I get them just every so often. It was more often than weekly when I was still drinking, but now it’s 1 or 2 of them in a year.

They always feel so real at the time, like I am definitely in danger and it’s an emergency! I guess a sort of silver lining is that they pass in about 30 minutes at most. I bet you’re at least somewhat drained now. It’s okay to be gentle with yourself for the rest of the day and maybe longer. Your body knows what it needs. I hope you feel better over time.

 

[AvidFan]

Panic attack has subsided. My heart rate isn't as high. My watch actually alerted me of trouble - never before saw it do that. My sleep was broken but I got a few hours. Everyone who wrote on Sf has helped me feel there is some value in fighting this, despite the blows that will keep hitting me from this huge setback.

Mine did that the other week when I was also having a panic attack. Said "You are very stressed why not try meditating" or something.

I'm glad you hear that people here care for you and I hope your situation eases and panic stays away. ❤️❤️

 

[seabird]

Thank you @LumberJack. (h) back.

 

[LumberJack]

Still havent met him but trying to remain hopeful. Part of me says this will never happen and I must accept it.

I’m sorry. That must be heart-rendingly painful. I am at the age where friends are becoming grandparents, and relating with them seems to be very important. Although, some have strained relationships with the kids who are becoming parents… especially my best friend who has a youngish son, approx 22. He has not settled down, but he’s kind of a dick to his father.

I just thought of a joke, but then I thought that you might also not be in the mood for goofiness. With that in mind, I will couch it in spoiler tags and you can skip it if it’s not a good time right now for a groaner, lol.

Spoiler: silly humor

I once read a quip about why grandparents and their grandchildren get along so well: they have a common enemy!

okay… I will show myself out. Remember to tip your server!

 

[seabird]

Mine did that the other week when I was also having a panic attack. Said "You are very stressed why not try meditating" or something.

I'm glad you hear that people here care for you and I hope your situation eases and panic stays away. ❤️❤️

Do you have a strategy for when it happens? I'm sorry you have them, they're awful and damaging. (h)

 

[AvidFan]

Do you have a strategy for when it happens? I'm sorry you have them, they're awful and damaging. (h)

Vagal breathing, or moving. Helps sometimes. They have dialled down a bit lately.

 

[1964dodge]

I feel good

 

[1964dodge]

Feel stressed out and very overwhelmed. I really hate that I have to struggle so bad. I never new i was ever gonna be in a position to lose everything or end up gone for good. Im never gonna be able to function correctly again. I shouldn't be here now. All I want is to be gone so everyone can be happy and move on. Im to much of a failure and im the reason everyone is miserable. I cant take much more pain. Im tired of hurting.

 

[1964dodge]

I'm feeling overwhelmed because the people in my life who I thought knew me the best are doing surprises when they know I would rather be consulted about things. I have anxiety, so I don't enjoy going to crowded coffee shops or being touched by strangers.