How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

I feel dazed, absolutely spent. Not sure what's going on with me, didn't sleep well last night but have been sleeping OK for more than a few nights. I think I'm just going to go to bed and sleep as long as possible.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I ruined my sobriety after almost a year. It wouldn't be so bad if I could do that in moderation, but once I start, it's so hard to stop. And here I am, trying to make my life better, and trying to be a role model for yet another nephew but failing before he's even born. Wow, I really suck at life.

 

[nicktheundoer]

Having a difficult week with some suicidal ideations. I think, no that can't be me struggling but it is. My oldest son who makes inappropriate comments said a few rude things to me and it hurt, he thinks it's funny but he can't pull it off. But I feel like an outsider at work and lonely at home so there's no place for me in this world I sometimes feel.

I'm so sorry..I wish I could do something to calm your heart and feel peaceful..hugs

 

[nicktheundoer]

I ruined my sobriety after almost a year. It wouldn't be so bad if I could do that in moderation, but once I start, it's so hard to stop. And here I am, trying to make my life better, and trying to be a role model for yet another nephew but failing before he's even born. Wow, I really suck at life.

Don't be too harsh on yourself sir..I believe that you can do it..hugs 🫂 🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Yeah, Matt. it was only superficial. The weird thing is when I was last in hospital I did that deliberately (tipped boiling water on myself) and was in no pain at all, whereas this time it was agony. The mind is a powerful and strange thing.

I'm so sorry..how are you feeling now?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Don't be too harsh on yourself sir..I believe that you can do it..hugs 🫂 🫂

I wish I had that much faith in myself...thank you for caring

 

[nicktheundoer]

Not happy. Not really sad either
Life just seems bland and pointless

 

[nicktheundoer]

Glad to hear this Mike! Always wishing all the best for you, you’re such a good, kind, caring, strong and inspiring survivor and I’ve definitely always admired you a lot.

How I’m feeling today is confused, worried, ignored, unimportant, maybe a bit bored but otherwise not too bad. Not much “stress” overall at least so I am glad and grateful for that. A big part of what I’m “worried” about would be able to potentially go “down” but that worry would just be replaced with a lot more stress, along with most likely often being overwhelmed and tired. I will take the worry over that thanks

Hugs 🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Super anxious

I'm sorry..is there anything that's making you anxious?

 

[nicktheundoer]

I am trying not to push the situation into an even more stressful mode. But if I stop posting all of a sudden it may be I have impulsively left this place and woulf be on my alone to somewhere else. I dunno where I'd go, but I am not sure how much more of this I can tolerate. I don't even f-ing get to the end of a sentence before they finish it. What starts happening is very negative and I shoildn't tall about it here. The nightmares about being lost in the city are back. Crap

🫂 🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

I wish I was dead but I have to keep moving..

 

[Astrid78]

Back to suicidal....tired of the rules always applying to me yet others get away with it, with impunity. No matter where im at. My suicide note is just going to say 'world'

 

[nicktheundoer]

Back to suicidal....tired of the rules always applying to me yet others get away with it, with impunity. No matter where im at. My suicide note is just going to say 'world'

you are a good person that's why you follow the rules although it can broken at sometimes if it's for the benefit of the people..sending hugs and love your way

 

[TragicReality]

i feel stupid. i'm letting someone who was briefly in my life who wasn't even really in my life rule my feelings right now. It was nothing to him. To me it made everything better at the time. I'm being ignored. LIfe isn't fair so why cant I just be an adult and deal with it? I give up trying to find a man. I like this guy i was trying to date for a year and a half, but that's it. There's no spark. I don't want to hurt his feelings. I just don't feel anything much. I want to be alone .... a few years ago I wanted a man in my life. I don't have that same feeling.... for one person who ignores me and will never be mine. I'm depressed tonight I'll be fine after a good sleep. I'm sorry I'm no help here, I can't read everything but I'll try tomorrow... all of us struggling to keep going.

 

[HappyKitty]

lol im starting to feel its funny to see salty people get irritated seeing someone happy or relaxed. its their problem.

 

[Windhover]

@Astrid78

 

[JMG]

I wish I was dead but I have to keep moving..

Sorry to hear you are wishing you were dead, I definitely do not want that and I don’t think anyone else here would either. Not sure what is going on that is causing you to feel that way but if you are wanting to talk more here about what’s going on then I am always here for you. Hope you will be feeling happier soon and also sending lots of hugs to you, thank you for being such a kind, caring, thoughtful and compassionate person, I love seeing when you have replied here with such kind words of comfort and caring

Oh and how I’m feeling right now is mostly just tired, I have a bit of a headache so hoping it will go away soon, need to go to sleep I guess.

 

[Windhover]

I'm feeling more me again.
More hopeful. I began to make plans. I have ro defu the nightmares and the daytime anxiety and being isolated. My kiddos are really great and supportive. 😍

 

[TragicReality]

I think I should get a clock in my bedroom. Maybe a ticking sound will make me realize I need to get some sleep.

 

[Windhover]

Hope soothing sleep comes soon @toomuchreality .
There might be an app which has a gentle ticking or other peaceful sounds. I've been helped to sleep quite often by one called mynoise.