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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Losing out on sleep is one sure-fire way to wreak havoc on my health. And for you to have it be due to high anxiety sounds like a nightmare to me. I can only wish you the best for finding, if not some solution, then at least a meaningful reduction (though I'm certain you've given it your best effort). Can't always comply when the others don't do their part to help! That's for sure...
yesterday was kind of soso today is much worse. we knew we needed to redo the 29 gallon aquarium all week but kept putting it off, we also needed a few things at the store, go to parmacy, and to the lobster place today and i had no sleep at all but i have no choice but to go out today, and do the aquarium. life sucks lol. the good part is my pain is low this morning
mike
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I hope you can find some peace soon @NothingMuch despite all the negative feelings. Feeling alone is not good but you do have us here. I really like your avi pic by the way. 
I'm feeling good. I've been watching Dr. Gabor Mate on Youtube, who is very famous in Canada for his work with drug addicts in one of the worst neighborhoods in Canada (the Downtown Eastside in Vancouver). He has written several books about trauma and addiction. I tend to view addicts pretty harshly so it's good for me to expand my mind by listening to him talk about the many factors involved. I am so grateful that even though I was badly abused, I was averse to drugs, although I did struggle with addiction to food and other things. I think part of the reason I was so averse to drugs is that I knew I would be very vulnerable to addiction. I've always viewed the "pleasure" of highs as very dangerous. My best friend was an alcoholic who died of liver cirrhosis (he had another physical illness that can cause liver damage as well). He suffered horrible physical and emotional abuse from his mother (who was quite similar to my own mother) and was also sexually abused by his older brother. I really did understand his need for alcohol to numb the pain, although it killed me that he was hurting himself. He died after being sober for several months and relapsing - it was the relapse that killed him.
Since becoming a Stoic (Temperance is one of the 4 main Stoic principles), I have realized that my instincts about the dangers of escaping life through drugs, alcohol and other addictions were quite fortunate. Because I always felt SO DAMN BAD, I was wary that I could become a slave to anything that would take away the pain. Plus since I worked at a sexual assault centre in my early 20s, I knew that being heavily intoxicated is very dangerous for women. From what I witnessed, most rapes involve alcohol or drugs, and it's extremely common for rapists to feed alcohol or drugs to women they intend to rape in order to incapacitate them. Most women I spoke to took these substances willingly, unaware that the men they were with were not getting equally drunk or high and were planning to assault them.
Since becoming a Stoic (Temperance is one of the 4 main Stoic principles), I have realized that my instincts about the dangers of escaping life through drugs, alcohol and other addictions were quite fortunate. Because I always felt SO DAMN BAD, I was wary that I could become a slave to anything that would take away the pain. Plus since I worked at a sexual assault centre in my early 20s, I knew that being heavily intoxicated is very dangerous for women. From what I witnessed, most rapes involve alcohol or drugs, and it's extremely common for rapists to feed alcohol or drugs to women they intend to rape in order to incapacitate them. Most women I spoke to took these substances willingly, unaware that the men they were with were not getting equally drunk or high and were planning to assault them.
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Sorry I guess I didn't really explain how the above trains of thought were making me feel GOOD, but I'm just so grateful to people like Dr. Mate for investigating and exposing how trauma affects people. He just made a video about the situation in Israel and I haven't watched it yet but will - he is a childhood survivor of the Holocaust and is promoting compassion for both sides.
And I also want to add that even though I *feel* judgmental about chronic addicts such as my best friend's sister, I try not to pass judgment on anyone's character and I don't think anyone "deserves" to be poor or homeless. That's just not how I see the world. Every human being deserves safe shelter.
And I also want to add that even though I *feel* judgmental about chronic addicts such as my best friend's sister, I try not to pass judgment on anyone's character and I don't think anyone "deserves" to be poor or homeless. That's just not how I see the world. Every human being deserves safe shelter.
