How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

I was completely mentally gone earlier (just fatigue), but I did some menial admin tasks and it seemed to make the part of my brain that was tired have a rest as I've been doing a lot of thinking work lately. I feel quite refreshed now, amazing how therapeutic copying and pasting can be!

I'm actually quite happy as the new job is going really well and I have got a pay rise and a promotion to the next level after little more than a month! This makes it easier to scale down some of the old work - I love the new work so much! As the new job is all home based I've worked out that it might actually work out comparable in pay to the higher paid work, simply because I don't have to sit on a stinking bus 1-2 hours a day (or 3 tonight as a tree fell over 😱) If nothing else, it will be nice to work from home more during the winter at least. I've got one last bus rodeo tomorrow until late next week, then I'll just be WFH for 5 days. Also I have a gig on Saturday (ie I am going to a rock concert, as I think the phrase once confused people!), if I can find the energy!

Sorry I am not around on here much lately, it's been tough finding time for anything while working 2 jobs but hopefully I can get it down to 1.5 jobs now! 😊

congrats on the promotion and raise

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

It's 10 am and cried deeply..I just wish it wouldn't be this way for us..but we just gotta accept pain and move forward,I guess..hugs to all who are going through tough times

hugs back

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Perplexed

I've been talking to a woman from a dating app for a year. I was open about my challenges, depression, etc, SA, SI, in-patient, this place. I told her a few days ago that I might be experiencing the manic side of a mood swing. We haven't talked in a few days, after she said she wanted to sort out the "viability" of our involvement. Yeah, ok, not a lot I can do, but I don't understand why this has become an issue now.

And yesterday, I got a message from a woman from a different dating app, after almost 4 months without contact. She thought we should meet, her words were "it's overdue". It wasn't like we had progressed a lot in a cyber connection. I don't know why she approached me again, I was almost curious enough to continue talking, but ......... I ended the conversation, there was nothing to be gained, hooking up is not my priority

peace

 

[Survivorist]

1964dodge - just two words: good decision. Sending you a hug.

 

[AvidFan]

I'm proud of myself for reaching out and getting a therapist appointment lined up for next week. We had an initial talk for a few minutes and they seem just the right sort of person. I've been dropping into a very dark place for the last couple of weeks. Wish I could erase pain, I mean the emotional kind, and be grateful for all the positive parts of life. I'm lonely but it's just a reaction to the upheaval this year. I wish I could feel positive, a fresh start, valid. I am relieved to be here, away from the ex. I need to paint (x a trillion)

hugs to anyone who needs them

Glad you have found a therapist to see. Hugs to you ❤️❤️❤️

 

[SillyOldBear]

Tired of this life. Tired of this world.

 

[nicktheundoer]

I hope you feel better after crying and letting it out @nicktheundoer. Hope you have a good day.

Thank you very much Lane..

 

[nicktheundoer]

Thank you Astrid..

 

[nicktheundoer]

Thank you..needed hugs..

 

[nicktheundoer]

hugs back

mike....

 

[KM76710]

Thank you @Bergerac. Just being able to talk here to friends helps. I guess I'll continue to take it day by day.

This is a good place for you to know that friends abound here for you.

 

[KM76710]

It's 10 am and cried deeply..I just wish it wouldn't be this way for us..but we just gotta accept pain and move forward,I guess..hugs to all who are going through tough times

I hope that you always know we care about you here, and this is a great place for you to receive comfort just as you are sharing and giving it to others here.

 

[Windhover]

Tired of this life. Tired of this world.

hugs and a wave and another hug @SillyOldBear .

 

[Baywasp]

Been struggling more at work. Can be a lot. Took most of today off for a mental health day, but it's not enough.

 

[Survivorist]

Woke up, feel really good for once. Hope it lasts. Ah, - being retired is just great as long as you can profit from it. And i do it.

 

[nicktheundoer]

I hope that you always know we care about you here, and this is a great place for you to receive comfort just as you are sharing and giving it to others here.

Thanks Kangaroo Manager..

 

[nicktheundoer]

Been struggling more at work. Can be a lot. Took most of today off for a mental health day, but it's not enough.

I wish it could get better..HUGSSS🫂🫂

 

[nicktheundoer]

Woke up, feel really good for once. Hope it lasts. Ah, - being retired is just great as long as you can profit from it. And i do it.

Nice sir..😊😊

 

[nicktheundoer]

Tired of this life. Tired of this world.

☹️☹️sending hugs...

 

[nicktheundoer]

I am confused I am happy I'm relieved I am very fortunate to be alive.

😄😄niceeee.....