How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Dalida]

Biopsy came back negative - which is good. I will need to have further monitoring since the symptoms are ongoing. However, this gives me the confidence to sign up for the college program I want to take.

That's great news!! So glad for you.

 

[1964dodge]

At least the IV drip remains my heart rate borderline high and my headache is improved to one time during the day, not every two hours yet the headache isnt from the brain much- mostly to do with the heart, I hope its not bad news Monday.

i hope you get out soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Biopsy came back negative - which is good. I will need to have further monitoring since the symptoms are ongoing. However, this gives me the confidence to sign up for the college program I want to take.

i'm glad that your biopsy came back negative.

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I'm sorry Mike..I wish your pain subsides🫂🫂

thank you nick

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

lonely

not for people in general, but for the one special person that turned my world upside down (in the best way) when we met. But then it was turned upside down, in the worst way when she died. There is a vacancy that no one else can fill, nothing can compensate for.

This time of year was special for us. I miss sharing it with her, and the spark of life and sense of purpose I had. Now I feel lifeless. much of the time, without purpose. Taking one day as it comes, kind of in survival mode. I've been here before, often, and I know tomorrow or the next day will be better, but the now is really unpleasant

On my good days, I can savor the memories, as bittersweet as they are. Today isn't one of those

peace

i'm sorry that you are going through this. i hope someday your grief will turn to precious memories and you can open your heart again. you can never replace her but maybe someday you'll be able to start a new journey with someone else when you're ready

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

I'm not doing the best for myself. I started drinking red wine at about 10:30 am. I'm doing pretty well, but the drinking always bites me in the ass.

i hope you can lessen alcohol and please drink wine in moderation and for the right reasons. i'm not an alcoholic and never was but i did have a serious drinking problem when i was stationed in cuba. i know how bad it can get. alcohol in moderation and used socially, with meals, or to just relax is fine but drinking in the morning can be a sign of a problem, only you can tell what is healthy and appropriate

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

My pharmacy screwed me again and I can't get my benzo for a few more days. If I knew that, I would have made it last, but their website said the 4th it was supposed to be refilled, so I went by that information. And now I'm fucked and anticipating withdrawal soon. My bank also screwed me and won't let me take my money out. What more would you like to throw at me? It seems that my regular daily misery is not enough.

most of us go through good days , average days then those bad stretches that want us to scream at the top of our lungs. just an idea, because i do it with pain meds and lorazepams, try to save 2 or 3 a month for emergencies, and if you have to use them replace them after a refill, you'd be surprised how fast they build up. it helps in situations like this or times when your prescription gets delayed because of the doctors or pharmacy

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Nevermind on the withdrawal. Was able to get a few more until they finally decide they want to fill my script. The website says the 4th, then I was told the 7th, and now it's the 6th. No one can make up their fucking minds it seems. That's the very definition of sucking at your job.

i'm so pleased you won't have to go through withdrawls , i know they take their toll on our mind and body

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Trying too hard to hold on to endorphins from yesterday. I'm feeling okay except not.

 

[1964dodge]

having a pretty good day, kind of bittersweet, we put our 64 dodge into winter hibernation. barb ( our very large teddy bear ) will be warm though because we put her scarf around her neck, thanks to @SillyOldBear . barb the big teddy bear goes every place our 64 dodge goes, and we make sure she uses her seat belt lol

mike

 

[KM76710]

Biopsy came back negative - which is good. I will need to have further monitoring since the symptoms are ongoing. However, this gives me the confidence to sign up for the college program I want to take.

Good to hear about the negative biopsy, and the boost in confidence. A least you have a bit of a load off your mind and can continue on.

 

[cymbele]

I got my black sash in tai chi. Although it was a long day it was really quite easy and fun. Now I can relax.

 

[AvidFan]

I got my black sash in tai chi. Although it was a long day it was really quite easy and fun. Now I can relax.

 

[1964dodge]

I got my black sash in tai chi. Although it was a long day it was really quite easy and fun. Now I can relax.

congratulations, you worked hard so you deserve it

mike...

 

[KM76710]

I got my black sash in tai chi. Although it was a long day it was really quite easy and fun. Now I can relax.

Congratulations and celebration time. Yes, now relax and enjoy.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I got my black sash in tai chi. Although it was a long day it was really quite easy and fun. Now I can relax.

Awesome! I enjoyed tai chi when I took it. I can imagine the amount of work it took to get to that high a level.

 

[HappyKitty]

i do not like the news docs give. if my friend cries- how will my fam react. this is only the gist

 

[Honeymoon]

Every time I open the media it is a terrible blow to my mental health. Under normal circumstances I wouldn't watch it at all or pay very limited attention to that world, and I would immediately turn my head away from it completely if I started to feel bad. The big problem is that these are not the normal circumstances I am in and I am forced to open the media often. I wish I didn't do that. The people who pop up in front of me make me nauseous and trigger all the feelings I left behind before the sick abnormal circumstances. This is such an injustice that I don't know what to do.

 

[PrincessPure]

This b*tch classmate is 13 years older than me and has told a guy that likes me that "my makeup and outfits all similar that of a prost*tute and my teeth are so yellow, men shouldnt try to kiss me"
Pretty sure she is pressed that the guy likes me instead of her but what makes a fucking 37 year old woman SO mean in a class of younger people.

 

[MisterBGone]

This b*tch classmate is 13 years older than me and has told a guy that likes me that "my makeup and outfits all similar that of a prost*tute and my teeth are so yellow, men shouldnt try to kiss me"
Pretty sure she is pressed that the guy likes me instead of her but what makes a fucking 37 year old woman SO mean in a class of younger people.

Jealousy.