How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[MisterBGone]

Jealousy.

You'll understand when you're older... not saying you'll feel that way, too, necessarily--it's just that, you'll see how she felt maybe when you look at someone that much younger than you. It's going to be hard to imagine now, probably, from where you're sitting~

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Every time I open the media it is a terrible blow to my mental health. Under normal circumstances I wouldn't watch it at all or pay very limited attention to that world, and I would immediately turn my head away from it completely if I started to feel bad. The big problem is that these are not the normal circumstances I am in and I am forced to open the media often. I wish I didn't do that. The people who pop up in front of me make me nauseous and trigger all the feelings I left behind before the sick abnormal circumstances. This is such an injustice that I don't know what to do.

Why are you you forced to open it? And do you mean social media or news? I get very hooked into negative thoughts by both. I'm really trying to have "serenity to accept what I can't change." I don't like the direction some things are headed in the world, but there's nothing I can do about it, or very little, and I'm not willing to destroy my mental health.

 

[Dalida]

This b*tch classmate is 13 years older than me and has told a guy that likes me that "my makeup and outfits all similar that of a prost*tute and my teeth are so yellow, men shouldnt try to kiss me"
Pretty sure she is pressed that the guy likes me instead of her but what makes a fucking 37 year old woman SO mean in a class of younger people.

I'm so sorry! It's totally fucked when women (of all ages) don't support each other. Straight women have a problem letting the male gaze divide them. It's a damn shame.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

This b*tch classmate is 13 years older than me and has told a guy that likes me that "my makeup and outfits all similar that of a prost*tute and my teeth are so yellow, men shouldnt try to kiss me"
Pretty sure she is pressed that the guy likes me instead of her but what makes a fucking 37 year old woman SO mean in a class of younger people.

Did you overheard her say this, or did someone tell you? If the latter, I would also cast a negative eye to the person who told you this.

It's a really b*tchy comment to be sure, and very unprofessional given that you are both medical students. If you respond to her, I might say something like "I think if women want to be taken seriously as professionals, they should act with professional BEHAVIOUR and that is certainly more important than how someone dresses. Comparing a colleague's appearance to a prost*tude is low class."

 

[SillyOldBear]

tired of pain

 

[Lane]

I got my black sash in tai chi. Although it was a long day it was really quite easy and fun. Now I can relax.

congratulations

 

[Lane]

tired of pain

 

[PrincessPure]

Did you overheard her say this, or did someone tell you? If the latter, I would also cast a negative eye to the person who told you this.

It's a really b*tchy comment to be sure, and very unprofessional given that you are both medical students. If you respond to her, I might say something like "I think if women want to be taken seriously as professionals, they should act with professional BEHAVIOUR and that is certainly more important than how someone dresses. Comparing a colleague's appearance to a prost*tude is low class."

I heard it from other person, it was holidays for a while but today that I saw her in class it rly broke my heart. I am the most quiet and unproblematic person around here, how can she...

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I heard it from other person, it was holidays for a while but today that I saw her in class it rly broke my heart. I am the most quiet and unproblematic person around here, how can she...

People are often quite hateful. I have started following the ancient philosophy of stoicism (which is quite different from the modern meaning of the word). The Stoics were quite cynical about human nature, and cautioned against letting anyone's opinion of you influence you. It's like my avatar - you see only a tiny amount of someone else's life, and anyone who would pass judgment upon you based on their ridiculously narrow slice of your life that they can view is really not worth your time thinking about her.

That woman's comment about you is honestly so ridiculous and petty - just a jealous, petty individual who should in no way influence your thoughts.

 

[Holding my breath]

Scared. My 90 yo dad was taken in to hospital with a chest infection last night. He is already very frail and sounded very poorly yesterday. It’s my daughter’s graduation today. I just really hope nothing awful happens.

 

[Dalida]

I'm 18 days off my antipsychotic and I feel pretty good. I'm optimistic about the week. I'm off to work now. Peace

 

[Lane]

lonely

not for people in general, but for the one special person that turned my world upside down (in the best way) when we met. But then it was turned upside down, in the worst way when she died. There is a vacancy that no one else can fill, nothing can compensate for.

This time of year was special for us. I miss sharing it with her, and the spark of life and sense of purpose I had. Now I feel lifeless. much of the time, without purpose. Taking one day as it comes, kind of in survival mode. I've been here before, often, and I know tomorrow or the next day will be better, but the now is really unpleasant

On my good days, I can savor the memories, as bittersweet as they are. Today isn't one of those

peace

I'm sorry for your loss and how you're feeling @1Lefty. You sound like a strong person but it can still get difficult, like you said. I hope things get easier very soon. 🎃

 

[Lane]

I'm 18 days off my antipsychotic and I feel pretty good. I'm optimistic about the week. I'm off to work now. Peace

Good for you Dalida. I've often wondered how I would be off my meds. And now I have insurance issues coming up.

But, I do hope you continue to feel good and have an excellent week.

 

[Lane]

Scared. My 90 yo dad was taken in to hospital with a chest infection last night. He is already very frail and sounded very poorly yesterday. It’s my daughter’s graduation today. I just really hope nothing awful happens.

I hope your Dad is ok. And congratulations on your daughter's graduation.

 

[Lane]

Biopsy came back negative - which is good. I will need to have further monitoring since the symptoms are ongoing. However, this gives me the confidence to sign up for the college program I want to take.

I'm very happy for you Lady and excited for your college courses!

 

[Lane]

I'm not doing the best for myself. I started drinking red wine at about 10:30 am. I'm doing pretty well, but the drinking always bites me in the ass.

Well, I think it's called being human.

 

[Lane]

Stayed in bed the whole weekend except to drive to McDonald's to get breakfast and get a sub at the sub shop. Luckily, my children entertained my nieces little dog. I know it's not healthy to do that but if I don't have plans which is a lot of the time now that I'm older that's my default. It's depressing. But part of me accepts it. My fiance called me 2x and I didn't even want to talk to him. But I did answer on the third and told him I just wasn't up to talking.

They admitted my niece but now she's saying that she doesn't want to stay. I told her to let the professionals do their jobs. Some people are never satisfied. She just wants to stay long enough to get some meds and leave. All I can do at this point is be here for her and watch her dog.

 

[Windhover]

@Lane
I hope you feel less depressed soon. You deserve happiness and you bring a valuable brightness here. 🤗

 

[HappyKitty]

The docs are not impressed with my heart condition, they still keepin me in. Im 'posed to be discharged last Friday. Like its been 9 days now. My friends are starting to look for me, oops.

 

[Lane]

@Lane
I hope you feel less depressed soon. You deserve happiness and you bring a valuable brightness here. 🤗

Thank you for saying so seabird. (((Hugs))) back.