confused
My doc added a second mood stabilizer to my meds,
I think it's doing something, but I'm not sure it's helpful
In some ways, my mind is working well, math puzzles, memory, etc
I'm not having the same problems with racing thoughts
But emotionally, I feel flattened out,
The highs and lows aren't there, but things like my creativity are mostly gone too
And physically, I have little energy, so even though I'm mentally efficient, not much is actually getting done
I spend a lot of time wandering through the house
I'm questioning how much is really due to the new medication, and if it's mostly caused by that, whether I'm willing to surrender my creativity, which is how I define myself,
I want to continue it for a few more weeks, to see if my impressions are correct, or whether I may adjust to it
I don't miss the SI, but what is the price?
peace