How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[1964dodge]

Something happened on Tuesday that ended up in me spiralling and I ended up at the emergency room of a psychiatric hospital. Was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, prescribed Prozac and I'm going to start seeing a psychologist for the first time in March. I really should have done this seven years ago and I'm glad that I took this step, hoping for a healthier 2024 and beyond ✌️

i'm glad that you looked for the help and support that you need. i hope this year will be a much better year for you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

i'm doing pretty good today. my old landlord tried to save money so he replaced the thermostat in the furnace room instead of in the apartment. i have no access to the furnace room so i had to call property management of the new landlord to raise the heat for me. it is cold in here lol

last night we blew a fuse and didn't have a spare so my sons girlfriend got us some. there were two fuses so i took the top one and put it on the bottom so we could have lights until they got there. well we checked and everything in the apartment worked with one fuse. so i didn't put the other one in all the way. it may be that we have been paying for someone else or a common area

mike

 

[Angie]

I had a dream that was probably a repressed memory.

It was very real. And I think it probably happened.

I am frustrated as hell that at the age of 64 I am still having to deal with childhood abuse.

 

[Holding my breath]

sorry to hear that, my wife and i caught one. good thing is ours lasted 4 or 5 days. i hope yours is better than that or if it's the same bug it isn't too hard on you. try to take good care of yourself

mike...

Thanks Mike. Just trying to take it easy, well easier then I normally do anyway!!!
pleased you felt better quickly. Xx

 

[puffymilk]

Pretty good... I can finally have my peace

 

[Holding my breath]

Hopeliess with no wishes to live. I am in my late 50s and I do not have friends, family. a job a decent place to live. There is nothing for me in this earth. I hate my siblings because they have good lives, income , holidays, children and I do not have anything only pain the only thing I can do is self destruct myself, I am scared of myself I am a monster, I deserve the death penalty.

So sorry to hear that life is so hard for you. Calling yourself a monster seems a bit harsh. I’m not sure how you have come to that conclusion. We all have things we are not proud of, but what makes you a monster?

 

[Lane]

I had a dream that was probably a repressed memory.

It was very real. And I think it probably happened.

I am frustrated as hell that at the age of 64 I am still having to deal with childhood abuse.

Sorry that you have to go through this Angie.

 

[Bergerac]

really deflated, and just lacking in energy

 

[1964dodge]

I had a dream that was probably a repressed memory.

It was very real. And I think it probably happened.

I am frustrated as hell that at the age of 64 I am still having to deal with childhood abuse.

 

[1964dodge]

really deflated, and just lacking in energy

 

[1964dodge]

pretty good

mike

 

[Auri]

Little depression bits creeping in

 

[1964dodge]

Little depression bits creeping in

i hope those little depression creep out as fast as they crept in

mike...

 

[Windhover]

Kind of sad. Heard from a friend yesterday, that a mutual acquaintance died.

 

[1964dodge]

Kind of sad. Heard from a friend yesterday, that a mutual acquaintance died.

i'm sorry for your loss

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

i got a call from my pharmacy today. my hydro morphone for breakthrogh pain is on back order and not sure when it will be in. nobody in town has them. so my pain level being a little better just went out the window. i'll just have to keep trying different things. i'll admit it's making me a little depressed and my anxiety is rising. i have made to much progress to let this get to me too much

mike

 

[MisterBGone]

i got a call from my pharmacy today. my hydro morphone for breakthrogh pain is on back order and not sure when it will be in. nobody in town has them. so my pain level being a little better just went out the window. i'll just have to keep trying different things. i'll admit it's making me a little depressed and my anxiety is rising. i have made to much progress to let this get to me too much

mike

Have you had it before, Mike? And what is the E.T.A.? Hopefully, some-thing can help; & "help," SOON! ( :

 

[1964dodge]

Have you had it before, Mike? And what is the E.T.A.? Hopefully, some-thing can help; & "help," SOON! ( :

thank you. there apparently is a shortage so could be a couple of days or weeks, i hope not months lol. i have been on hydro - morphone (dilaudid) for fast acting breakthrough pain and 12 hour morphine for over 20 years. it is going to be very inconvenient and possibly more expensive because i may need more mmj just to cope. obviously it raises my depression and anxiety a little but i'm sure i can handle it.

mike

 

[MisterBGone]

thank you. there apparently is a shortage so could be a couple of days or weeks, i hope not months lol. i have been on hydro - morphone (dilaudid) for fast acting breakthrough pain and 12 hour morphine for over 20 years. it is going to be very inconvenient and possibly more expensive because i may need more mmj just to cope. obviously it raises my depression and anxiety a little but i'm sure i can handle it.

mike

I'm sorry to hear this, dodge. Very! Is there any-thing that your dr. might be able to prescribe you in the meantime; or even if that means substituting, for - should that be your preference & provided that it is - say, a "step-up" in terms of treatment; or its severity with respect to risk and whatnot? Or otherwise, if that is simply hands-down, out of the question, what are the alternatives available that they would be maybe comfortable enough if signing off on for you now, to help provide some temporary-relief, in this 'unknown,' interim? That's what I'd be asking, even if I wasn't hopeful or all that optimistic, of the results (or likelihood of their being able to work with me, and help me to "meet my needs."

 

[1964dodge]

i asked my doctor for a possible substitute but he can't give me anything for now. he suggested looking for pharmacies that have it, i checked but couldn't find any. also it would go on my record of meds and would look bad like i'm a drug seeker. so i have to wait it out for now. this is becuse of cdc and dea. a lot of people from manufacturer to pharmacy don't like handling opioids for fear of getting sued. if this would have happened a year or two ago i'd be spiraling. at least my morphine was filled.

mike....