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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I'm doing ok but my niece spent the night and it's hard to see her all stressed out and anxious. Plus when she's over we drink too much. On the flip side in the morning, my daughter, she, and her little dog went to this cute coffee shop had brunch and took a walk through a bamboo forest. I hope my niece can calm down soon.
he's 23. He's good at trying to evoke guilt in me. I've done my best. I did bring him food, and I said it's the last time. I mean it. I then found out my sister in law had brought him food (of course he didn't tell me). I cant trust him anymore as some things I bought could have likely been sold for weed. I'm done trying so hard. He knows what he needs to do and has access to the care he needs for his mental health, he just refuses it. I will feel better, and it's time to stop letting him make me feel bad when I've let him away with things that most parents wouldn't have.
I hate myself sometimes because I really know I'm not smart or helpful, I had always wanted to be useful to people. And i wonder sometimes if I didn't make some people's lives worse with what I said. I liked working in nursing homes, a long time ago, at least I cared a lot back then. I still do it's just not having a job that gives me a purpose.
I know you would understand about how being on disability doesn't make us feel good, but at least my dad said once, before he died, that after all I had been through, he believed I deserved it. If we cant work we cant work, simple as that. Thanks for your reply, it helps a lot and I hope you have as good a night as you can
I hate myself sometimes because I really know I'm not smart or helpful, I had always wanted to be useful to people. And i wonder sometimes if I didn't make some people's lives worse with what I said. I liked working in nursing homes, a long time ago, at least I cared a lot back then. I still do it's just not having a job that gives me a purpose.
I know you would understand about how being on disability doesn't make us feel good, but at least my dad said once, before he died, that after all I had been through, he believed I deserved it. If we cant work we cant work, simple as that. Thanks for your reply, it helps a lot and I hope you have as good a night as you can
I'm feeling a little sad right now. My parents are divorced and I live with my mom. Yesterday, my father asked me if I wanted to go out for lunch today and I agreed. I was looking forward to it because we haven't seen each other in a month. But just this morning, he messaged me to cancel because his friends are coming over. It's not really a big deal but I feel really slighted. He does stuff like this pretty frequently and it always makes me feel unloved, as if I'm not one of his priorities.
I'm sorry @From_Venus - that's a very tough place to be, and not a fun position to be put in. I want you to know & to understand (& it seems you do) that you have the right to feel this way, and that it wasn't about you not being good enough, or anything else. This was all as a result of your Father's doing. Now, maybe you could find some way of expressing this sentiment to him? So that he knows, just how much this hurts you, or much it makes you feel - when he does things like this to you - you could use very similar verbiage as you did here. Or not. You could also formulate it into language that will translate better to him, for him. All just depending on your type of communication style. And the type of relationship you have together, and the way it sort of is in between the two of you. Sad as it is, this can be sometimes quite hard, guy to guy. When it shouldn't be, but I know that it sometimes (still) is. So regardless, I hope that he can stop doing this to you, and making you feel like you're second fiddle, or as you said, not top priority. I'm sure he'll say otherwise, and give some other kind of excuse. The important thing to emphasize and to stress is how he makes you feel when he behaves in this fashion, and why he does (make you feel like that). Good luck! And sorry you were let down. I'd be frustrated and upset, hurt etc. too. So just know it's okay for you to feel that/this way! : )
Buongiorno
As my vacation in Milan is coming to an end, I have a few thoughts that are making me sad on my way to the airport.
First off, this vacation was a blessing. I came in. a state where I was so sick and down that it was hard for me to breathe. I was having a horrible time. And then when I came to Milan, everything was magically perfect. I was able to forget my life in my city and enjoy this. But the thing is, I cant just pack my bags and go everytime I feel down. I wish I could romanticize and enjoy my life in my small city too, but it seems impossible.
Second, I spent way too much on a student budget. Why am I such a materialistic person? Why cant i just have fun by my own? Am really sad about having to face life and the same people in my city, sigh.
As my vacation in Milan is coming to an end, I have a few thoughts that are making me sad on my way to the airport.
First off, this vacation was a blessing. I came in. a state where I was so sick and down that it was hard for me to breathe. I was having a horrible time. And then when I came to Milan, everything was magically perfect. I was able to forget my life in my city and enjoy this. But the thing is, I cant just pack my bags and go everytime I feel down. I wish I could romanticize and enjoy my life in my small city too, but it seems impossible.
Second, I spent way too much on a student budget. Why am I such a materialistic person? Why cant i just have fun by my own? Am really sad about having to face life and the same people in my city, sigh.
Ahh, I could talk for a long time about exes. I still dream about my ex-husband and it's been many many years and I've had a few duds after that, and I even think about them, don't ask me why 🤷. I think it's only natural puffymilk. 
I am into reading birth charts and stuff like that, and I asked my friend to read his birth chart for me, though it's not a complete chart because I don't have some of the information. And my friend said that there a red few red flags in his chart.
Again, I feel the need to say that online dating apps are ridiculous. And yet I can't seem to stay off them, partly due to boredom and partly because I legitimately want to find a partner, so a part of me has hope. And that hope gets crushed every time I read messages like "daaammmnn you're gorgeous". Would you really approach a woman like that in real life? You'd be risking getting slapped or a drink spilled on you, so I doubt it. How is this any different? What makes you think it's okay just because it's online? "Well, it's worked before..." he says. Because they didn't have respect for themselves in the first place, and neither did you show them any. That's why it worked.
Reminds me of these lyrics by Emilie Autumn: "I think my ego would fall right through the cracks in the floor if I couldn't count on men to slap my ass anymore."
Reminds me of these lyrics by Emilie Autumn: "I think my ego would fall right through the cracks in the floor if I couldn't count on men to slap my ass anymore."
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