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MisterBGone

~\_✅`,')
SF Supporter
Good, this is good. Let them know where there's a line there, at times, and often enough, to where... it isn't going to as you say - come as quite so much of a "shock," to their system. Especially when it is something of more significance. That they feel matters, and is important to them. Give them a taste of the temperature, and used to the setting, or settings. I remember one time when I first started working in teh group homes and I was a t a high behavior house for woemn. But the senior staff told me &b goes.. "If you don't put your foot down, tehy'er just oing to keep running all over you!" ;D
This also happened with the company as well. Who would always ask you to fill in for extra hours & shifts, often last minute, as so many people would either walk off the job, and quit (due to clients/or residents). Or because of how the company was run (employer, themselves). So anyway, I was like hired something like part time 25 hrs per & the would routinely work 60-80. Anyway, at one point, I began to just say "No." (even if it wasn't the case). So that they'd get used to that, being sometimes the response, and could adjust. Which they eventually, begrudginly did. Well,, they never stopped asking you see/ ? But they did begin to start talking it better when... they would have supervisors record the time they'd contacted you. How long or what time you'd responsdeed. And then also, what your reason or excuse was, for not being able to pick it up. They would then use this against you, in or for the future, when ever they could, or saw fit. They're policy was also, sans a dr's note: you were responsible for getting coverage for your shift if you were ill or sick. So what that resulted in, ,was workihng with a lot of sick co-worker s & staff. Which led to a lot more people getting sick in the winter time & flu season. As every body was contacting the few available & such at once. Brillinat stuff. ;D hahaa @AmberMarie ~
 

Windhover

meandering home
SF Supporter
Worthless and terribly broken get pretty close; am having nightmares re-runs of my husband telling me he doesn't want to talk. The heart inside still thinks I'm supposed to be with him. Lucky I did not give him the money fromy house like he was suggesting, or I'd be in dire straights.
I do not want to be told to get over him. I have been trying, and it is too deep in my heart. And I am trying. Running, doing my work, keeping books going, journals, music, and corresponding with friends.
I am tired of brokenness and betrayal.
 

Astrid78

Spoonful of sugar will help the medicine go down
Worthless and terribly broken get pretty close; am having nightmares re-runs of my husband telling me he doesn't want to talk. The heart inside still thinks I'm supposed to be with him. Lucky I did not give him the money fromy house like he was suggesting, or I'd be in dire straights.
I do not want to be told to get over him. I have been trying, and it is too deep in my heart. And I am trying. Running, doing my work, keeping books going, journals, music, and corresponding with friends.
I am tired of brokenness and betrayal.
Your husband situation while different then mine, still hurts the same
Offering hugs and empathy
 

TragicReality

I wish I could turn back time
SF Supporter
I feel crappy. Withdrawal is still happening, the furnace came on and I'm in my room with the door shut and window open with a fan blowing at my face. I wish the landlord didn't complain once when I turned down the thermostat, I was trying to save him on fuel cost. The previous landlord got upset I upped it from 18 to 19 degrees lol, it was only to warm up for a minute then I'd put it back to 18. Hey at least I don't freeze here. We're supposed to have a chance of freezing drizzle but it doesn't look like it now.
 

MisterBGone

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SF Supporter
I feel crappy. Withdrawal is still happening, the furnace came on and I'm in my room with the door shut and window open with a fan blowing at my face. I wish the landlord didn't complain once when I turned down the thermostat, I was trying to save him on fuel cost. The previous landlord got upset I upped it from 18 to 19 degrees lol, it was only to warm up for a minute then I'd put it back to 18. Hey at least I don't freeze here. We're supposed to have a chance of freezing drizzle but it doesn't look like it now.
I'm very terribly sorry for all that you're having to go through, and struggle with. I wonder how they do, or handle it, in rehab? If they have any things or ways in which to make it a little, or any more comfortable for them? Or, otherwise they've just got to ride / &-or, gut it out! Which may or may not--serve as a very good deterrent in the future. You, yourself are not in a perfectly or even, imperfectly analogous situation, of course. Yours is at the hands of fool's, or doctor's error, & care~.* ^_Which I'm just so sorry for you. To have to be feeling this way. The suffering sounds immense, and immeasurable.
 

TragicReality

I wish I could turn back time
SF Supporter
I'm very terribly sorry for all that you're having to go through, and struggle with. I wonder how they do, or handle it, in rehab? If they have any things or ways in which to make it a little, or any more comfortable for them? Or, otherwise they've just got to ride / &-or, gut it out! Which may or may not--serve as a very good deterrent in the future. You, yourself are not in a perfectly or even, imperfectly analogous situation, of course. Yours is at the hands of fool's, or doctor's error, & care~.* ^_Which I'm just so sorry for you. To have to be feeling this way. The suffering sounds immense, and immeasurable.
Thank you for your kind words. My mind is not cooperating with me if that makes any sense.. one thing you said about riding it out and it may or may not serve as a good deterrent in the future.. my doctor should and does know me by now. He knows this will affect my mental health state, it is. I'm more depressed. He'd peg me as someone who'd go find some substitute for it or be addicted to something else....I'm not going to go buy alcohol, it doesn't help me at all. I do have a few extra diazepam I saved, that helps a bit. I ate a couple of cbd gummies, I should stop trying them, I'm comfortably dumb enough on my own without them,it makes me panic a bit and depressed. I'm not suffering horribly, the physical pain is manageable, it's more on my emotions. I hope your day has been as good as it can be @MisterBGone thanks again for listening
 

MisterBGone

~\_✅`,')
SF Supporter
Thank you for your kind words. My mind is not cooperating with me if that makes any sense.. one thing you said about riding it out and it may or may not serve as a good deterrent in the future.. my doctor should and does know me by now. He knows this will affect my mental health state, it is. I'm more depressed. He'd peg me as someone who'd go find some substitute for it or be addicted to something else....I'm not going to go buy alcohol, it doesn't help me at all. I do have a few extra diazepam I saved, that helps a bit. I ate a couple of cbd gummies, I should stop trying them, I'm comfortably dumb enough on my own without them,it makes me panic a bit and depressed. I'm not suffering horribly, the physical pain is manageable, it's more on my emotions. I hope your day has been as good as it can be @MisterBGone thanks again for listening
Yes, I was referring to those who were under withdrawal in rehab & going dry. Or unless you've got other things like methadone & whatnot. But didn't figure that'd apply to you here. Sorry for the confusion. I don't feel you need much deterrent from anything! : )
 

SillyOldBear

Teddy Bears Rule! 🐻
Staff Alumni
Worthless and terribly broken get pretty close; am having nightmares re-runs of my husband telling me he doesn't want to talk. The heart inside still thinks I'm supposed to be with him. Lucky I did not give him the money fromy house like he was suggesting, or I'd be in dire straights.
I do not want to be told to get over him. I have been trying, and it is too deep in my heart. And I am trying. Running, doing my work, keeping books going, journals, music, and corresponding with friends.
I am tired of brokenness and betrayal.
So sorry you are still struggling with husband issue. Guess it will probably always be a problem; but hopefully it will diminish. Cause less pain. I have never married so can't pretend to understand what you are going through. In fact, stories like yours make me glad I never married. Although I probably missed out on things by staying single.
You definitely are NOT worthless. You are, obviously a warm, caring person. Sudden changes in life can make a person feel worthless. Loss of my job has made me feel that way. And struggling with all the changes that come with that. I just wish life could be easier for all of us. It seems a shame that it has to be so difficult. Someday I hope to have the chance to ask God, face to face, why it has to be so.
Take care,
*hug
 

LumberJack

Huggy Bear 🐻 u r warned!
SF Supporter
Worthless, or maybe even worse. I know there are people who disagree. I worry that I’ve just got everyone fooled, including myself. That’s the mark of a pathological liar isn’t it? When a BS artist starts to even fool himself? I’m in so much pain. I feel like a broken record, both in terms of my repetition, and my general uselessness. I am also having nightmares. This shall pass, true. What if I get even worse?
 
Worthless, or maybe even worse. I know there are people who disagree. I worry that I’ve just got everyone fooled, including myself. That’s the mark of a pathological liar isn’t it? When a BS artist starts to even fool himself? I’m in so much pain. I feel like a broken record, both in terms of my repetition, and my general uselessness. I am also having nightmares. This shall pass, true. What if I get even worse?
I hope you get better. I hope all of us here get better very soon. *hug
 

MisterBGone

~\_✅`,')
SF Supporter
Worthless, or maybe even worse. I know there are people who disagree. I worry that I’ve just got everyone fooled, including myself. That’s the mark of a pathological liar isn’t it? When a BS artist starts to even fool himself? I’m in so much pain. I feel like a broken record, both in terms of my repetition, and my general uselessness. I am also having nightmares. This shall pass, true. What if I get even worse?
Or could it be . . . having to do with, your mental illness?
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
Worthless and terribly broken get pretty close; am having nightmares re-runs of my husband telling me he doesn't want to talk. The heart inside still thinks I'm supposed to be with him. Lucky I did not give him the money fromy house like he was suggesting, or I'd be in dire straights.
I do not want to be told to get over him. I have been trying, and it is too deep in my heart. And I am trying. Running, doing my work, keeping books going, journals, music, and corresponding with friends.
I am tired of brokenness and betrayal.
I'm sorry that you are suffering so seabird. I often have dreams of my ex-husband but they are more peaceful, tbh. I'm glad that you have income to live on and your books and journaling to keep your mind active. I know that reading and walking and even watching TV helps me keep distracted. Please know you are very cared for here. *console
 

Lane

SF Pro
SF Supporter
Worthless, or maybe even worse. I know there are people who disagree. I worry that I’ve just got everyone fooled, including myself. That’s the mark of a pathological liar isn’t it? When a BS artist starts to even fool himself? I’m in so much pain. I feel like a broken record, both in terms of my repetition, and my general uselessness. I am also having nightmares. This shall pass, true. What if I get even worse?
I'm sorry that you're in so pain Lumber Jack. It sounds like you're going through a lot right now. I think we just do our best to deal with our pain and it sounds like you're being so hard on yourself. You're in my thoughts.
 

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