Wobbly. Had a surprisingly good day, sometimes I'll catch myself wondering how I can have been completely dysfunctional one day and kind of flying the next, then I start to feel some sort of crash coming. It might be as simple as someone saying "Can I have a word?" or "I need to mention something" and I get an adrenaline spike. Not had much to eat which can also cause adrenaline to spike. Still, haven't crashed yet and haven't taken any propranolol to deal with meetings (I've fathomed it caused blood pressure spikes when it wears off). So I'm OK, for now. Still got to survive the bus home but will see it as my next mindfulness challenge! Heart rate is fairly sedate, not got my BP machine with me but will take it this evening.
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I mean, really? Everything I've been going through, fighting to survive, and I look in the mirror to find a couple of growths on my head? I think they're probably just skin tags and will monitor, but FFS. Only good thing is if I'd noticed them any other day except today, I'd have probably had a panic attack and/or gone under.
Note to Life: You win. Ok? You fucking win? Just leave me alone for more than a day just now!
Note to Life: You win. Ok? You fucking win? Just leave me alone for more than a day just now!
I’m just sad. It’s not so much a feeling as it is a state of being. I’m sad all the time because I’m always compelled to resist and do the opposite of what I desire. I desire help, so I suffer in silence. I desire connection, so I keep to myself. I desire a life worth living, so I obsess over my death. I desire something to do, so I do fuck all.
My body is a prison because I overthink everything humanly possible and put too much stock in doing the simplest, most mundane things. I wonder if there is any going back from this. More to the point, am I ever going to be willing?
My body is a prison because I overthink everything humanly possible and put too much stock in doing the simplest, most mundane things. I wonder if there is any going back from this. More to the point, am I ever going to be willing?
i hope you are feeling better today. when things seem bad you can always come here to talk
mike....
mike....
Frustrated
I've been doing some video editing on my laptop, saving it to an external hard drive, then backing that up to a micro memory card in a second computer, my newly repaired (?) notebook. I've just found that almost all of the files on the memory card are corrupt. I think the notebook may not have the bandwidth to transfer the large video files from the hard drive. The memory card (512 gig), is too large to use in my laptop. I can use the laptop to do the backup, but will have to buy smaller (256 gig) memory cards, and then have 2 basically useless 512 gig ones. Or buy another external hard drive.
And the notebook has an annoying problem of the cursor occasionally freezing in place, and none of the mouse buttons or keyboard keys work, until I let the battery completely run down, then recharge the battery and restart it that way.
peace
I've been doing some video editing on my laptop, saving it to an external hard drive, then backing that up to a micro memory card in a second computer, my newly repaired (?) notebook. I've just found that almost all of the files on the memory card are corrupt. I think the notebook may not have the bandwidth to transfer the large video files from the hard drive. The memory card (512 gig), is too large to use in my laptop. I can use the laptop to do the backup, but will have to buy smaller (256 gig) memory cards, and then have 2 basically useless 512 gig ones. Or buy another external hard drive.
And the notebook has an annoying problem of the cursor occasionally freezing in place, and none of the mouse buttons or keyboard keys work, until I let the battery completely run down, then recharge the battery and restart it that way.
peace
mike....
n my opinioin notebooks suck. i bought one once and i had to return it. it may be a good idea to invest in a regular laptop. either way i hope yu can solve the issues.
mike....
mike....
I'll claim a victory in getting it to function again, though
peace
