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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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Awake. Went to bed really early, before 10pm, and dosed a cocktail of sleep helpers. Managed to go to sleep but didn't sleep through for as many hours as I would have liked and was awake at about 6am. Still, it was better than nothing. I hate when I wake up and reality hits me like a truck, I just want to go back to sleep but that wasn't going to happen.
Thanks for the response Mr. B,
The dosage decrease was due to my request (insistence?), and my doc was reluctant, she suggested that increased impulsivity and irritability could result. I don't want to let my doc know yet, I'm hoping that my emotions will adjust to the change and that I'll be able to decrease the dose again.
I did text my friend, also called and left a message a few days ago, I think I'll wait a week or two for everything to settle, then try again
With the medication, I feel my emotions are being flattened, that I'm losing some of the dynamics of life, and there are other side effects as well
peace
The dosage decrease was due to my request (insistence?), and my doc was reluctant, she suggested that increased impulsivity and irritability could result. I don't want to let my doc know yet, I'm hoping that my emotions will adjust to the change and that I'll be able to decrease the dose again.
I did text my friend, also called and left a message a few days ago, I think I'll wait a week or two for everything to settle, then try again
With the medication, I feel my emotions are being flattened, that I'm losing some of the dynamics of life, and there are other side effects as well
peace
Hopefully, there is a magic dosage, where you can avoid two of those more Hallmark traits, that so many can often come to encounter, with certain kinds of conditions. And also, not feel, like a blunted - or zapped out Zombie (to some certain extent). Perhaps you've already explained this well to her. If this is not the case, however, I would try to present it in much the same fashion as you have here: with those two factors present; the admittance that she was right (on her predictability) & that you don't want to experience what you've got to live with, and feel now. See if she feels it will improve, should no changes be made to the regimen. Or at least explore it, and all things around it, to see if there is any uncharted territory that might provide or yield, some more positive & benefical/satisfactory, overall results. That would be the ideal scenario. . . to see if one exists.
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Thanks Mr. B
I'm down to 2 meds (from as many as 5 or 6), an anti-depressant, and the mood stabilizer. I've researched the anti-depressant (buspirone), and it can have side effects such as increased irritability and emotions that can't be controlled. I think the mood stabilizer helped mitigate those, and decreasing it got things out of balance. My thought is that decreasing the anti-depressant now may bring things back into balance, if that makes sense. I see my doc again this week, so will see what she thinks.
I've been taking MI meds for 14 years, and it's been tricky. I have at times made adjustments (unsanctioned) or quit taking them. altogether. The results of such a time caused me to come back to this site after being away for several years.
Things were actually really good a couple of years ago, and I'm trying to get back to that state. I want to get back to that dosage to see if that helps. Getting there doesn't seem to be easy.
peace
I'm down to 2 meds (from as many as 5 or 6), an anti-depressant, and the mood stabilizer. I've researched the anti-depressant (buspirone), and it can have side effects such as increased irritability and emotions that can't be controlled. I think the mood stabilizer helped mitigate those, and decreasing it got things out of balance. My thought is that decreasing the anti-depressant now may bring things back into balance, if that makes sense. I see my doc again this week, so will see what she thinks.
I've been taking MI meds for 14 years, and it's been tricky. I have at times made adjustments (unsanctioned) or quit taking them. altogether. The results of such a time caused me to come back to this site after being away for several years.
Things were actually really good a couple of years ago, and I'm trying to get back to that state. I want to get back to that dosage to see if that helps. Getting there doesn't seem to be easy.
peace
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A little apprehensive. Just said I go round to my sister's. Might see my niece and her partner if they turn up. Am doing it as something to try to change my state, seeing people other than work people or people in shop checkouts might be helpful for me, but it could also be draining. I doubt I'll be able to talk about my problems, my sister is about the worst listener in the world (it was partly her reaction to me breaking down in front of her that led to me coming to SF - no empathy at all, in fact the complete opposite of empathy, to someone crying and suicidal). But who else do I have?!
Well that was a mistake (visiting family). Everyone was there, including kid running around and I just found it draining. At some point someone asked me how work was, I said pretty awful, they said why, I said because it's too much, I'm exhausted, but I can't afford to take time off and it's getting bad. Blank stares from everyone, awkward silence, then a quick change of subject. And that's how fucking alone I am in a room of my only family who don't give a fucking shit. It's actually made me feel like I give less of a shit if I do CTB - they will get on with their lives, they were all laughing and joking and being loud while I was trying to shrink into a ball. All my sister could go on about was there being 200 channels on the TV and nothing worth watching. Lucky her, she gets her rent paid and money to live on for life due to apparent disabilities, seems to keep her in plentiful supply of cigarettes and vodka. If the house has issues it's the council's responsibility, or my nephew goes round and does her garden and other chores for her.
I just ended up feeling drained and like I can't ask anyone for help because it will just be ignored and then I'll feel worse.
So much for reaching out and trying to be social.
I just ended up feeling drained and like I can't ask anyone for help because it will just be ignored and then I'll feel worse.
So much for reaching out and trying to be social.
FFS, just getting over one thing, when I get a WhatsApp from a builder who I thought had ghosted me. I was having a break from thinking about all that shit, but in it comes. Just a vague message about the fix on the house wall would have to go on a "day rate" but didn't say how much that was. I think it's their way of saying they don't want the job. Wish they'd not replied after all as I'd forgotten about them, now it's just opened up the worry in my mind again.
I can't afford any of this, incidentally, I'm just trying to find out by how much I can't afford it and can't even get that far.
I can't afford any of this, incidentally, I'm just trying to find out by how much I can't afford it and can't even get that far.
Not much that I try is working today. First I tried seeing family, which didn't turn out too well. Then I tried going for a run. It was far too warm, I basically melted and feel worse for it. Maybe I'll feel the benefit later. I find myself obsessing about walls, the only good thing out there was that I saw a couple of walls in almost as bad a state as mine, which cheered me up - I am not the only person in the world with shitty walls they can't afford to get fixed. Maybe they tried getting someone out as well and eventually gave up on it or just couldn't afford it.
