How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[nicktheundoer]

Just a bit sad. Wondering if I’ll ever be happy.

❤️❤️❤️

 

[nicktheundoer]

Mentally and physically exhausted. I’m at work and can’t do my job because I can’t stop crying from feeling so overwhelmed and not okay. Not suicidal, just can’t keep going like this. I really need some time off, but don’t know how to do so without losing my job. Been diagnosed with bipolar, major depression, generalized anxiety, and PTSD; my job exacerbates all of it. I’m a manger and can barely manage myself right now. I feel so desperate for help of some kind, but don’t know where or how to start. I have medical debt too, so going to the doctor will cost more than I can currently afford. I’m so lost

😢😢🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂sending love your way....

 

[nicktheundoer]

Not slept again and completely panicked. can't go on.

 

[nicktheundoer]

anxious, struggling, sick that I've probably caused the end of a friendship

I have a temper, (which is normally controlled), but I lost it at a friend of mine, in an exaggerated response to a small trigger
I blame it on the decrease in my mood stabilizer, but still, the damage is done
I hate seeing my anger come out, as I tend to express it badly
To compound it, I messaged her, apologized and asked to talk
She called, but either I inadvertently hung up, or the call dropped, or she hung up

I wish I knew what was wrong with me,
I've been diagnosed as having bi-polar, or BPD, or even ASD
I guess it doesn't matter, as the mood stabilizer was treating symptoms including irritability and impulsivity

peace

Don't worry sir..You are a good person..forgive yourself and start again....

 

[full]

Like an eagle, flyin' high, haha

 

[Tor]

😢😢🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂sending love your way....

Thank you so much

 

[Tor]

I'm glad that you posted. I hope you can get some relief soon. Here are some virtual hugs

Thanks, Lane. I truly appreciate that

 

[Angie]

Thanks for the response Mr. B,
The dosage decrease was due to my request (insistence?), and my doc was reluctant, she suggested that increased impulsivity and irritability could result. I don't want to let my doc know yet, I'm hoping that my emotions will adjust to the change and that I'll be able to decrease the dose again.
I did text my friend, also called and left a message a few days ago, I think I'll wait a week or two for everything to settle, then try again

With the medication, I feel my emotions are being flattened, that I'm losing some of the dynamics of life, and there are other side effects as well

peace

Just wanted to pop by and say I understand the problem with meds. Some do have unwanted side effects such as flattening or the "flat affect". What I have to do and have done is judge whether the help is greater than the hurt, if that makes sense at all. Some meds I have had to discontinue with doctor's approval because I couldn't take the side effects but without meds at all I am a mess, so we have to try another.

its a frustrating cycle and my heart goes out to you.

 

[HappyKitty]

Damn.. Am spending my whole weekend with anxiety and stress all just cause I have to reorganize my wardrobe after coming back from vacation is lowkey annoying af 😂💀

 

[HappyKitty]

Still jetlag lmao. Otherwise I'd finish cleaning my room in two days and not one week. I havent even eaten proper meal, hoping to get dinner later or sth. Maybe.. Gonna nap..

 

[AvidFan]

Confused. I know reading and posting on SF really helps me a lot in some ways, but am starting to wonder if I spend too much time on here, checking for replies etc. I don't use any of the regular social media aside from Reddit (probably spend way too much time scrolling through that as well) but am worried my SF use patterns could be similar to people who are always on SM and contributing to my fatigue and anxiety with the constant input. Not going to go away, but might need to have some chunks of time off maybe...

 

[Lane]

Depressed and sad. Waiting for it to go away. Making sure it doesn't get worse.

 

[Lane]

I'm feeling hopeful. I texted my oldest daughter that I hoped she, her husband and her new baby are doing well and that I was proud of the woman that she's become. She did text back, gave me news that he was a happy baby and thanked me for the gift card. Maybe one day she'll find it in her heart to meet me again.

 

[Lane]

Just wanted to pop by and say I understand the problem with meds. Some do have unwanted side effects such as flattening or the "flat affect". What I have to do and have done is judge whether the help is greater than the hurt, if that makes sense at all. Some meds I have had to discontinue with doctor's approval because I couldn't take the side effects but without meds at all I am a mess, so we have to try another.

its a frustrating cycle and my heart goes out to you.

It really does make sense Angie. And sometimes the side effects will eventually go away. I'd also be a mess without my meds I do suspect. I can't even imagine. 🤷

 

[Lane]

Damn.. Am spending my whole weekend with anxiety and stress all just cause I have to reorganize my wardrobe after coming back from vacation is lowkey annoying af 😂💀

Kitty, I hope that your anxiety and stress goes away. It's hard coming back after vaca and dealing with all the stuff that has to be done. 😢😋

 

[Bergerac]

Hope everything turns out ok

 

[1Lefty]

Confused. I know reading and posting on SF really helps me a lot in some ways, but am starting to wonder if I spend too much time on here, checking for replies etc. I don't use any of the regular social media aside from Reddit (probably spend way too much time scrolling through that as well) but am worried my SF use patterns could be similar to people who are always on SM and contributing to my fatigue and anxiety with the constant input. Not going to go away, but might need to have some chunks of time off maybe...

peace

 

[puffymilk]

Anxious and sad

 

[puffymilk]

Confused. I know reading and posting on SF really helps me a lot in some ways, but am starting to wonder if I spend too much time on here, checking for replies etc. I don't use any of the regular social media aside from Reddit (probably spend way too much time scrolling through that as well) but am worried my SF use patterns could be similar to people who are always on SM and contributing to my fatigue and anxiety with the constant input. Not going to go away, but might need to have some chunks of time off maybe...

I feel the same way. I think sometimes all we need is a little break from everything

 

[Angie]

Confused. I know reading and posting on SF really helps me a lot in some ways, but am starting to wonder if I spend too much time on here, checking for replies etc. I don't use any of the regular social media aside from Reddit (probably spend way too much time scrolling through that as well) but am worried my SF use patterns could be similar to people who are always on SM and contributing to my fatigue and anxiety with the constant input. Not going to go away, but might need to have some chunks of time off maybe...

I understand your concerns. I have had times when I spent way too much time here, and it wasn't good for me. I have a pretty good balance now I think.

I hope you find your balance and get some relief from your distress.