How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Tor]

Thank you Tor. I appreciate you too. Gotta show up and try anyway to get some kinda help. I hope so for you. That's just incredibly sad about the psych making things worse, it's bad enough all they do is write prescriptions now, I hope that's not one of the challenges with her. Is there a way to find a new psych to see? Keep us up with it......I just had to fill out paper forms today to get assistance with a new med I need that the neurologist prescribed 2 weeks ago that came to $700 a month out of pocket. I can't do that and I let her know. How many people can afford these kind of prices? Let's see if I qualify financially for it. I agree, It is hard to believe that all this medical ridiculousness will or can ever end.

Your kindness and empathy have brought me to tears. I can’t thank you enough for listening to me. Her emphasis is on meds. I asked her more questions than I ever have, and every response resulted in “let’s see how these med changes work.” I lost trust in her yesterday. It’s been 8 months and she still can’t diagnose me due to overlapping symptoms between bipolar and ptsd. She knows I have GAD and MDD, but said she was “uncomfortable” supporting my time off. It was tremendously related to anxiety. I can easily switch to another psychiatrist, but I hate to after 8 months with her. I’ve been looking at new ones today, and think I will schedule an appointment.

It is insane how much money they think people are able to just pay out of pocket, particularly $700 a month! That’s absurd! Our medical system unfortunately only sees us as dollar signs, otherwise, they couldn’t sustain this multi-billion industry. I truly hope this somehow improves soon

 

[KM76710]

Sorry everyone if what I wrote above has upset someone. I don't have much memory of writing it. I didn't mean to upset anybody.

I doubt I can get upset so vent away. Although I do like reading the "I am feeling good today" posts this is also a place to know we are here to offer up support, comfort and if possible advice. So post as you feel and need.

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Hey there family!
sending everyone love, hugs & reassurance.
You are doing it. You keep on keeping on.
i believe in you.
🦩🦩🦩🦩

 

[cymbele]

i am tired of being bored. My job has me doing nothing really productive for 6 months now. Yes, there’s been some periods of busyness but lately I’ve been in a holding pattern. Pretty soon I’ll be busy for a couple of weeks and then boredom. Not like I can leave the computer- I have to be accountable and accessible all day long. Then at night when I’m trying to settle down for sleep my mind is racing. Looking forward to Labor Day weekend in a week and a half to not be so bored.

 

[nicktheundoer]

I’m feeling depressed

You wanna talk about it??......

 

[nicktheundoer]

Anxious. Not panic level anxious, but I am so overloaded and underslept, and just read that there is a storm coming to my area. Not sure if I can cope with any damage that happens, financially or emotionally, just now. I just wanted a long weekend without any hassles to try to recover from everything I've been going through. Will have to pray things are OK.

I'm with you,praying.. 😊😊😊

 

[nicktheundoer]

A little guilty, a little relieved, a little bit numb like nothing matters because I'm a noone, okay pretty strange, not really sure how I feel.

You mean the world..

 

[Windhover]

You are loads more than no one! Hugs!

I can't tell you how helpful it is right now to hear this. Thanks @AmberMarie
hugs back

 

[AvidFan]

I survived the night but am not great. Very poor/next to no sleep yet again, did have a few dreams, but even when I got off to sleep I'd snap awake. At one point I heard a tremendous crash and dreamed a tree fell on the house (there aren't any big trees near it) and woke up to realise the crashing noise was in the house. But it was just the kitchen blind billowing in the wind and knocking some things off the windowsill. So I closed the window and went back to bed.

 

[AvidFan]

Harassed. First of my days off and the builder has got in touch before 11am. Said he was going on holiday so I left him be, now he suddenly wants dates off me and my brain is melting. I'd wriggle out of this but the project needs doing, at least it will be one thing done but it's going to be stressful. Hopefully I'll get some sleep before then as I'm going to have to get up at the crack of dawn (wake up then anyway these days), get them set up with power and water etc, then retreat somewhere in the house to work and do remote meetings into the evening. It feels pretty daunting. But if they do a good job there are other things I can maybe get them to look at. Fortunately my window didn't leak last night in the storm, it really needs the rain to be torrential and the wind to blow about 50mph directly at it, but it can happen so would like to get that fixed at some point as well as the crumbling walls.

 

[LumberJack]

I want to die. I keep having this one thought over and over and over again running through my head. It’s really distracting, because I don’t want to pay attention to it. I’m trying to do my morning routine and I keep forgetting what I’m doing because these thoughts are so obnoxious.

 

[AvidFan]

I want to die. I keep having this one thought over and over and over again running through my head. It’s really distracting, because I don’t want to pay attention to it. I’m trying to do my morning routine and I keep forgetting what I’m doing because these thoughts are so obnoxious.

😢

 

[Windhover]

I survived the night but am not great. Very poor/next to no sleep yet again, did have a few dreams, but even when I got off to sleep I'd snap awake. At one point I heard a tremendous crash and dreamed a tree fell on the house (there aren't any big trees near it) and woke up to realise the crashing noise was in the house. But it was just the kitchen blind billowing in the wind and knocking some things off the windowsill. So I closed the window and went back to bed.

I'm sorry for the level of distress that's happening. There's just got to be a way to get sleep re-balanced and I wish I knew what it was.

I keep hoping for things to get better AvidFan. I've lost a few days due to travel, am still reading posts on SF.

 

[Windhover]

Hey there family!
sending everyone love, hugs & reassurance.
You are doing it. You keep on keeping on.
i believe in you.
🦩🦩🦩🦩

Thank you FlamingoWrangler

Sending love and reassurance to you too, and everyone.

((hugs))

 

[Angie]

Feeling a bit anxious.

I have a dental appointment this morning at 9am

Just a cleaning/perio maintenance, but my anxiety about dental stuff......

 

[cymbele]

I survived the night but am not great. Very poor/next to no sleep yet again, did have a few dreams, but even when I got off to sleep I'd snap awake. At one point I heard a tremendous crash and dreamed a tree fell on the house (there aren't any big trees near it) and woke up to realise the crashing noise was in the house. But it was just the kitchen blind billowing in the wind and knocking some things off the windowsill. So I closed the window and went back to bed.

Have you considered sleep apnea as a cause for your sleeping problems. Just asking.

 

[cymbele]

Feeling a bit anxious.

I have a dental appointment this morning at 9am

Just a cleaning/perio maintenance, but my anxiety about dental stuff......

I worry about cleanings because my teeth are so bad that they always find something to fix.

 

[Lane]

I want to die. I keep having this one thought over and over and over again running through my head. It’s really distracting, because I don’t want to pay attention to it. I’m trying to do my morning routine and I keep forgetting what I’m doing because these thoughts are so obnoxious.

I hope you can battle those demons Lumber Jack. Please stay safe.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I worry about cleanings because my teeth are so bad that they always find something to fix.

I understand. I haven't had a professional cleaning since the start of COVID-19. I'm afraid to go because I chipped my upper left back molar & I don't have the money for a crown. I brush twice a day & floss once a day to keep my mouth as healthy as possible. I'm delaying the inevitable for as long as I can.

 

[AvidFan]

Have you considered sleep apnea as a cause for your sleeping problems. Just asking.

Briefly but I don't think it's the case and am unlikely to be able to find out anyway as I have nobody to observe me while sleeping and GPs are apparently limiting appointments even more. I can't even nod off in front of the TV lately so it's not just about waking up all night, my brain is healing from GABAergic rebound and withdrawal. I'm hopeful eventually the sleep will reset as I used to be able sometimes to sleep uninterrupted for 10 hours before all this 🤨