How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Inanimate]

If I knew that particular fact needed reminding, I'd be reminding you day and night. Friend, you are almost always particularly hard on yourself when you feel bad, as if it were your fault. It's not your fault. It's a part of human nature. The blame lies with no one.

I guess there’s really no one else I could blame, but I do need to allow myself some room for error if I’m ever going to hope to improve.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I'm feeling really unwell with my emotional health & I don't want to go to work today. Sometimes I wish I were on provincial disability. Working is so hard. But I can't live on that amount. I'd wind up on skid row. So, I'll push myself & look forward to getting home in the evening. I'm embarrassed for feeling this way. It's like a failure. But I can't help it.😥

 

[AvidFan]

Am in the cardiac unit in the local hospital. Little nervous as they have not found the root cause of my condition and planning on the surgery tomorrow. Say a prayer for me that they find a non invasive treatment but I doubt it.

Wishing you a speedy recovery.

 

[AvidFan]

I am shattered, what's new. Up at 8.30am and worked for 2 hours, then commute and meetings, tried to work this evening but my brain is like mush so I will have an early night as there's no work around tonight anyway.

 

[Livelife]

Am in the cardiac unit in the local hospital. Little nervous as they have not found the root cause of my condition and planning on the surgery tomorrow. Say a prayer for me that they find a non invasive treatment but I doubt it.

I hope they find the least invasive way to go about taking care of your diagnosis. And that you heal quickly and completely.

 

[Dante]

A strange kind of extreme tired. Im not sleepy, but my body feels heavy, my eyes ache, and I can feel this uncomfortable lethargy in my bones. In short. I need a holiday, badly.

Kinda like flu + drunk.

 

[cymbele]

Still in cardiac unit after 3 days,waiting. Tests have revealed that it is normal in every way but it beats at 42 beats per minute way slower than it should be. They say if I was 84 no brainer then they would do the pacemaker but at my young age they want to make sure I need one. 42 beats per minute would be okay for a runner but I am not. I average about 60 beats per minute normally.
So tomorrow I may get the pacemaker. I’m not afraid of dying which is a rare occurrence but of the pain. They have scared me with some of the test side effects but I am confident about death. But I would like to live for some reason. Which means I have to do something to get the heart rate up.
it’s not cancer which is worse because of the chemo. I hope I would choose death over chemo but you never know how you will react to the prognosis.
so another day of waiting is over and hopefully tomorrow some answers. Love to all

 

[1Lefty]

Still in cardiac unit after 3 days,waiting. Tests have revealed that it is normal in every way but it beats at 42 beats per minute way slower than it should be. They say if I was 84 no brainer then they would do the pacemaker but at my young age they want to make sure I need one. 42 beats per minute would be okay for a runner but I am not. I average about 60 beats per minute normally.
So tomorrow I may get the pacemaker. I’m not afraid of dying which is a rare occurrence but of the pain. They have scared me with some of the test side effects but I am confident about death. But I would like to live for some reason. Which means I have to do something to get the heart rate up.
it’s not cancer which is worse because of the chemo. I hope I would choose death over chemo but you never know how you will react to the prognosis.
so another day of waiting is over and hopefully tomorrow some answers. Love to all

Thanks for letting us know the update
I hope there will be answers tomorrow



peace

 

[Livelife]

Wishing you the absolute best whether you get the pacemaker placed or not.

 

[SillyOldBear]

@cymbele Hope they get everything straightened out for you.

 

[Angie]

Still in cardiac unit after 3 days,waiting. Tests have revealed that it is normal in every way but it beats at 42 beats per minute way slower than it should be. They say if I was 84 no brainer then they would do the pacemaker but at my young age they want to make sure I need one. 42 beats per minute would be okay for a runner but I am not. I average about 60 beats per minute normally.
So tomorrow I may get the pacemaker. I’m not afraid of dying which is a rare occurrence but of the pain. They have scared me with some of the test side effects but I am confident about death. But I would like to live for some reason. Which means I have to do something to get the heart rate up.
it’s not cancer which is worse because of the chemo. I hope I would choose death over chemo but you never know how you will react to the prognosis.
so another day of waiting is over and hopefully tomorrow some answers. Love to all

thank you for the update

Prayers for a safe procedure and a quick recovery.

 

[Bergerac]

Trying extremely hard to cope. This can't last forever.

 

[Aurelia]

I guess there’s really no one else I could blame, but I do need to allow myself some room for error if I’m ever going to hope to improve.

We need to allow A LOT of room for error, because unfortunately, that's our best.

 

[Windhover]

Trying extremely hard to cope. This can't last forever.

Sending good thoughts, gentle energy to you.

 

[Bergerac]

Sending good thoughts, gentle energy to you.

Thank you. I am trying to channel my spiritualism into this, and my mantras. It's not easy, with evil pushing in on you, and surrounding you.

Thanks for all your support. How are you?

 

[Windhover]

Spirit can be really powerful.

I'm managing. If I can stay only in the moment, most of the time I keep anxiety at bay.

Lonely over here; not knowing anyone except my partner.

 

[Lane]

Trying extremely hard to cope. This can't last forever.

I wish things were easier for you right now Bergerac. Maybe it doesn't feel like it, but you are a strong person.

 

[Lane]

I'm feeling really unwell with my emotional health & I don't want to go to work today. Sometimes I wish I were on provincial disability. Working is so hard. But I can't live on that amount. I'd wind up on skid row. So, I'll push myself & look forward to getting home in the evening. I'm embarrassed for feeling this way. It's like a failure. But I can't help it.😥

I understand how hard it is to go to work when feeling depressed. I used to feel like that. You are definitely not a failure, just going thru some things.

 

[AvidFan]

Tired and fed up, really. I am chasing a company for an invoice for work I have done, and at first it was "this will be processed this week, don't worry about it, sorry for the delay" - then the invoice wasn't processed, now all emails are being ignored and if I call I just get a generic voicemail that doesn't even name their organisation, over and over and over again. I'm supposed to do some more work for them next week. I feel like telling them to fuck off, but then it will guarantee that I don't get it paid. So y gnow I have to decide whether to do work I will get paid for, or waste my time doing more work for a company that seems incompetent at best and fucking criminal at worst. Then again the other work isn't currently guaranteed to get paid with other shit going on at the moment. I feel like I'm trying to swim with my arms and legs tied up. I put in 100% effort and get very little back. When all my problems are financial, it just rubs salt in the wound 😢

 

[Bergerac]

I wish things were easier for you right now Bergerac. Maybe it doesn't feel like it, but you are a strong person.

thank you for the encouragement. Hope you're ok. xx