How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

Really Wishing I was a dog and could be put down
Up at 3am, outside for a look at the beautiful night sky and back to bed. I’d go for a drive if I wasn’t so tired. I’m tired of being so tired. So fecking tired.

I'm glad that you're here with us J. I hope that soon you can feel more rested too.

 

[Lane]

I've been thinking about my daughter and grandchild alot lately and wondering if I should text. I'm always the one to do so, actually my daughter did wish me a happy birthday last month but with no pictures of her baby. It makes me feel like a monster. I try not to dwell on it bcz it brings me back to how I lived my life in the past, in survival mode and I guess my children were casualties. My heart breaks.

 

[cymbele]

I've been thinking about my daughter and grandchild alot lately and wondering if I should text. I'm always the one to do so, actually my daughter did wish me a happy birthday last month but with no pictures of her baby. It makes me feel like a monster. I try not to dwell on it bcz it brings me back to how I lived my life in the past, in survival mode and I guess my children were casualties. My heart breaks.

Hugs. Text anyway. She may not respond but text anyway.

 

[cymbele]

Been really lazy lately. People say I should take the time off to heal but I have Christmas presents to finish and work is important because the circuit boards need to be shipped but I’m just lazy. But it’s been nice to sit with the cat and just relax. Retirement is looking rather appealing right now but can’t occur for another 2 years.

 

[SillyOldBear]

old, tired, in pain (physical and mental)

 

[Lane]

Hugs. Text anyway. She may not respond but text anyway.

Hugs back S. i did text her. I'm a bit nervous, but what's the worst that could happen, right?

 

[Lane]

Been really lazy lately. People say I should take the time off to heal but I have Christmas presents to finish and work is important because the circuit boards need to be shipped but I’m just lazy. But it’s been nice to sit with the cat and just relax. Retirement is looking rather appealing right now but can’t occur for another 2 years.

I bet the 2 years goes by quickly. I do hope you're feeling better too.

 

[Lane]

old, tired, in pain (physical and mental)

Sorry that you're hurting so badly

 

[AvidFan]

I'm Ok but I don't know how. I worked until 2am last night, didn't sleep much, then got up and was working again at 9am and then just went for a run and don't feel dead. Maybe I'm just numb from it all 🤨 I should really take the rest of today off and cook and watch something light.

 

[Livelife]

I'm glad that you're here with us J. I hope that soon you can feel more rested too.

Thank you E

 

[Livelife]

I've been thinking about my daughter and grandchild alot lately and wondering if I should text. I'm always the one to do so, actually my daughter did wish me a happy birthday last month but with no pictures of her baby. It makes me feel like a monster. I try not to dwell on it bcz it brings me back to how I lived my life in the past, in survival mode and I guess my children were casualties. My heart breaks.

💔🙏🏽

 

[Harrow]

I feel like I want to snap. Last night my mother decided she could not sleep, screw everyone else she sat in the sitting room right outside our bedrooms listening to reality tv on full volume until after 4 am, you know what normal people do, use headphones, keep the volume low, or do it in the privacy of their bedroom. Not her. Then she woke up before 8 am and she had been walking around with her cellphone blaring reality TV since then 14 hours ago, it had not stopped at all. I honestly cannot take this. Tomorrow I am thinking I am going out I am going to buy her some earphones (I have tried many times before) and I am going to give her an ultimatum use them, or I am going to take your phone and smash it. Because this is not just today, it is every single day and I do not get a break at all.

 

[Windhover]

I've been thinking about my daughter and grandchild alot lately and wondering if I should text. I'm always the one to do so, actually my daughter did wish me a happy birthday last month but with no pictures of her baby. It makes me feel like a monster. I try not to dwell on it bcz it brings me back to how I lived my life in the past, in survival mode and I guess my children were casualties. My heart breaks.

I hope healing finds you @Lane. We know you as who you are here, a good-hearted and intelligent, kind person.
If you take the journey to re-connect with your daughter and her family, I hope it is one which helps your sense of self. You desserve to never again label yourself monster.

 

[KM76710]

old, tired, in pain (physical and mental)

I hope that you have rest to ease your tiredness come your way and bring a bit of relief for your problems.

 

[Windhover]

old, tired, in pain (physical and mental)

Wish I could help.
hugs if you want SillyOldBear. My energies are still hanging out over there - a bit south of where you are. Sending a wave of good thoughts to you.

- s

 

[Windhover]

It's just so frustrating not being heard when I am speaking. I don't want to get angry at them, but geeezis it's either he does not understand the spoken word, or he is playing f-ing mind games on me. wtf

 

[Lane]

I hope healing finds you @Lane. We know you as who you are here, a good-hearted and intelligent, kind person.
If you take the journey to re-connect with your daughter and her family, I hope it is one which helps your sense of self. You desserve to never again label yourself monster.

Thank you for your comforting words seabird.

 

[AmberMarie]

Overwhelmed, alone, beaten down, lost and mentally exhausted!

 

[SillyOldBear]

Overwhelmed, alone, beaten down, lost and mentally exhausted!

But you are strong. You can get past this and on to better things.

 

[cymbele]

Unusual down in the dumps day. Very tired after work - much more than usual so that's probably dragging me down mentally. Tomorrow I talk with the pdoc -that's always a downer -I always feel depressed after I talk with him but he is only managing my meds which I haven't changed in 10 years so I put up with it. I hate this - one day I'm happy, the next I'm depressed. And I'm on meds to stabilize my moods. Probably the meds aren't working anymore.