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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I've been feeling a little unwell since coming to England two weeks ago, or at least I look like I am. My husband is worried : I'm not very bubbly, less energy and more irritable, which he (logically) interprets as me not being happy in the country or with him.
An explanation might be the cold and darkness of the Autumn, never negligible in my case. Even if I don't feel like it gets to me, there might be some pressure built inside me about our future. That future is NOW : looking for new jobs, a new place, new friends, adapting to the British system, etc.
Also, I've just spent an incredible Summer in my country, traveling, seeing my friends, painting, and not having to take care of a big house, but a little apartment that's a thousand times cleaner and uncluttered to begin with, with a dishwasher and my mom cleaning almost as much as me. We are both crazy about cleanliness, it affects me a lot (potentially OCD in my case, I am not sure). I still remember the first time I arrived in this house three years ago and had a breakdown, despite trying to adapt as best as possible. I've made major changes since then, decluttering and cleaning, but it is FAR from enough, and I still feel like the only one caring about it.
Does any of that make sense?
I am normally good with change, I adore change. But in this case it's a change for the worst, until everything becomes better through our own hard work.
Except for my husband, he's obviously part of the "better" already.
An explanation might be the cold and darkness of the Autumn, never negligible in my case. Even if I don't feel like it gets to me, there might be some pressure built inside me about our future. That future is NOW : looking for new jobs, a new place, new friends, adapting to the British system, etc.
Also, I've just spent an incredible Summer in my country, traveling, seeing my friends, painting, and not having to take care of a big house, but a little apartment that's a thousand times cleaner and uncluttered to begin with, with a dishwasher and my mom cleaning almost as much as me. We are both crazy about cleanliness, it affects me a lot (potentially OCD in my case, I am not sure). I still remember the first time I arrived in this house three years ago and had a breakdown, despite trying to adapt as best as possible. I've made major changes since then, decluttering and cleaning, but it is FAR from enough, and I still feel like the only one caring about it.
Does any of that make sense?
I am normally good with change, I adore change. But in this case it's a change for the worst, until everything becomes better through our own hard work.
Except for my husband, he's obviously part of the "better" already.
I guarantee that whatever it is you feel so ashamed of, someone here has been through it before. Probably many. This place is here so that we can talk about things the outside world doesn't want to hear. You should use it for what it's intended, especially if you can't tell anyone around you. We don't know you well enough to judge you even if we felt like it, which we don't.
@Witty_Sarcasm sending a good thought of flexible, creative strength to you.
If it’d help at all to talk plainly about your struggles I am open to listsning. I mean write, & read.
If it’d help at all to talk plainly about your struggles I am open to listsning. I mean write, & read.
Yes all of it does Auri. Starting married life in a new country is going to have impacts on you. The brain is signalling all over the place, mapping out what’s going on and making trillions of decisions about what to connect with what. Like starting 20,000 new paintings all at once. Journalling helps a lot - ‘least that’s what I found.
Also having a favourite soft warm well lit nook in which to write, read or have a cup of coffee gives a sense of a tiny home base. 🌱
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Also having a favourite soft warm well lit nook in which to write, read or have a cup of coffee gives a sense of a tiny home base. 🌱
hugs
That would be so nice, @Livelife! Thank you for your support! I'm on my way now. It's a short shift today, four hours. It'll go bye in a flash! Hugs!
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