At this moment, I feel like a cpu running at 100% capacity trying to find an answer to a query that I don’t even remember. My thoughts were a flood, but now it’s more like a hurricane and it’s exhausting.
If I pay attention to my thoughts, it is like I am trying to solve world hunger, world peace, poverty, and oppression - all at once, right fucking now!!!!
I feel utterly cracked because I know that all these things are not really my problem, and I’m delusional if I think I am any more than a drop in the proverbial ocean anyway. I sure don’t have the power to run the world, and yet I’m beating myself up as if I should . Maybe God is using my idle cpu cycles like the SETI project.