How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

Relieved and nervous. I decided to send my oldest daughter and son-in-law a gift card for Christmas to a nice restaurant in our town. I've only met him twice. Once at my daughter's graduation and the other at her wedding. I think she invited me out of obligation but secretly she must despise me.

I'll give my grandson a $100 gift card to Babys r Us. I don't know if the store even exists anymore. I was thinking an outfit as well, but I don't want to overstep. I'll be giving the card n gift through my son. Hopefully, she'll find it in her heart to allow me to meet him for the New Year. I feel like she's old enough at 30 to put things behind her, hopefully.

 

[Windhover]

I’ll just say as someone prone to panic attacks, who’s also had a heart attack, it can be remarkably hard to tell the difference.

When I had my heart attack, I sat and waited for it to pass thinking it was just another panic attack. I only went to the hospital when it kept getting worse rather than easing after a while.

I have had panic attacks in the past, but this one snuck on me more than the others. They do that, maybe it's because I'm without anyone to talk to irl, no therapist at present.

I was worried it was anxiety causing the existing arrythmia to worsen. Sinve I was gifted with inheriting a heart arrythmia, I'm used to the weird feelimgs more or less.
But this time they were combined with feelimg sick, so I got frightened, which amps the panic further.

It seems better now; this is all probably my fault for stupidly trying to save a relationship and having to give up on all my stuff. I over-estimated my strength.

Running settles it back into its rhythm so I just need to keep that good habit going.

 

[SillyOldBear]

In physical pain. I suspect diverticulitis. But will wait a while before heading to the hospital.

Hoping the pain vanishes and a trip to the hospital is not needed.

 

[LumberJack]

I’ll just say as someone prone to panic attacks, who’s also had a heart attack, it can be remarkably hard to tell the difference.

When I had my heart attack, I sat and waited for it to pass thinking it was just another panic attack. I only went to the hospital when it kept getting worse rather than easing after a while.

Oh no, I’m sorry to hear that. I know from my panic attacks that it usually lasts for 15 to 30 minutes , and gets gradually better. So I guess if it’s getting progressively worse, it’s time for medical attention.

 

[AmberMarie]

Frustrated... confused... and annoyed have been added to the random and excessive energy for today.

 

[puffymilk]

Feeling better now....

 

[LumberJack]

I’m feeling a crushing amount of depression. I keep thinking about just giving up on my life, and just staying in bed for days on end. I’m in emotional pain and I know that rationally, people care. Too bad I am unable to feel it. This is my private hell.

 

[Holding my breath]

I’m feeling a crushing amount of depression. I keep thinking about just giving up on my life, and just staying in bed for days on end. I’m in emotional pain and I know that rationally, people care. Too bad I am unable to feel it. This is my private hell.

I’m sorry you are struggling so much. We are here for you. Xx

 

[ClassicsFan]

Ghosted.

 

[Baywasp]

I woke up feeling a bit bummed out this morning and was very tired and struggling to engage in therapy today. But I'm more awake now and doing pretty okay. Just kinda stressed about a paper I have coming up, but it's the last one, due in a few days, and it shouldn't be too bad.

 

[Holding my breath]

The hospital where my mum passed away on Saturday had a Covid outbreak and I have caught Covid. Now I can’t go to the appointments to sort out mums funeral. Having to listen in to the appointment tomorrow by phone instead. Feeling achy all over and a tight chesty cough. Bleh

 

[From_Venus]

I hope your stress level comes down @From_Venus and everything comes together for you.

Thank you

 

[From_Venus]

I’m feeling really nervous about work. My job in the military is to schedule medical appointments and due to some contract not being renewed for some of the medical facility’s equipment, I’m going to have to reschedule so, so many patients. I have to call them one by one and deal with all their frustration and my own anxiety whenever I have to make those calls.

It feels like everything in my life is hurting me right now. I wish I could fake my death and start anew somewhere far, far away, where I can make my own decisions and live the way I want to. I want to be out of the military, I resent the fact that my country has mandatory military service… if not for that, I would be studying abroad right now, with the freedom to make my own decisions and live as who I really am. But the military has just been a roadblock. No one even respects my service because I’m just an admin support assistant. I understand that my job is nothing compared to what combat personnel do, but it still hurts whenever my family members demean me for my low wages and being unfit for combat due to my mental issues. None of them have ever served and as much as they claim that they would have excelled in the military unlike me, I find it extremely hard to believe.

I don’t really want to see any mental health professionals anymore. I know that it’s awful to say because they are trying to help but nothing they say seems to help me. It doesn’t make me feel any better to practice gratitude when there are so many issues that are overwhelming me, as privileged as I am in some respects. It doesn’t help to focus only on what I can control, when so much of the hurt comes from things I have no control over. It doesn’t help to be told that I have so much to live for when I don’t even want those things nor do I feel any love or appreciation from my family or colleagues.

I’m so, so grateful for this forum because it’s the only place in the world where I feel supported. Thank you all so, so much.

 

[Windhover]

The hospital where my mum passed away on Saturday had a Covid outbreak and I have caught Covid. Now I can’t go to the appointments to sort out mums funeral. Having to listen in to the appointment tomorrow by phone instead. Feeling achy all over and a tight chesty cough. Bleh

The right words escape me. I am sorry. Sending a thought that your immune system kicks Covid's butt and you get completely well very soon.

 

[Windhover]

I'm feeling embarassed, shamed, and stupid again. I have said so many dumb things and I wish I could just shut up, forever.

 

[AvidFan]

I'm feeling embarassed, shamed, and stupid again. I have said so many dumb things and I wish I could just shut up, forever.

I wish you could learn to love yourself a little more ❤️❤️❤️

 

[AvidFan]

I'm tired but had a reasonable day. Kicked a few things into touch until January. Got my longest pre-Christmas day tomorrow so it will get easier after that, enjoy the weekend then glide down to the holidays the next week. But for now, just survive tomorrow, will finish at 8.30 or later. probably get a cab home AND a takeout 🥱

 

[KM76710]

The hospital where my mum passed away on Saturday had a Covid outbreak and I have caught Covid. Now I can’t go to the appointments to sort out mums funeral. Having to listen in to the appointment tomorrow by phone instead. Feeling achy all over and a tight chesty cough. Bleh

That is a double mess with the loss of family and now catching sick. I hope you can get treated quickly and completely and feeling much better soon.

 

[Windhover]

Feeling better now.

 

[fromthatshow]

Seriously depressed