How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Survivorist]

Better, bur still things to improve... its tiring sometimes... You all know that.

 

[chiastic_slide]

I have been feeling like I’m slowly dying for four days.

Trying to wake up now.

 

[Auri]

So very happy for you. I know how I would feel to meet a favorite artist, and it would probably be embarrassing for all involved.

Sounds like a great opportunity.

Thank you! I met other artists before and I was also pretty awkward. Though I found that telling them specifically what I love in their music (or books for authors) is very appreciated.

I just hope I don't burst into tears, I already got teary-eyed at the prospect of it.

 

[Auri]

@LumberJack Also, I've just noticed it... I love your signature. Completely agree with Bob.

 

[puffymilk]

I'm sick and pretty damn anxious

 

[Holding my breath]

Feeling bleh.
That horrible sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. The one which comes with urges to sh. The one where I feel restless and agitated, for no particular reason.
It’s a familiar feeling, so familiar that it’s like an old friend. When it’s gone it feels a little strange.

 

[LumberJack]

Right now I’m very anxious. Need to apply my strategies to head off panic.

 

[cymbele]

Workload at work is very light. It's what got me laid off in the fall so I fear it might happen again. I still like my job but the light loads get me down. Probably shouldn't have come back to this job. But I am "WFH" today with bad weather outside and that is one of the perks. Oh well, 6 more months of this until I qualify for Medicare.

 

[puffymilk]

Still a bit anxious

 

[LumberJack]

I'm sick and pretty damn anxious

Sorry. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[LumberJack]

Feeling bleh.
That horrible sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. The one which comes with urges to sh. The one where I feel restless and agitated, for no particular reason.
It’s a familiar feeling, so familiar that it’s like an old friend. When it’s gone it feels a little strange.

Sounds very similar to my relationship with alcohol when I was working my way out of a serious addiction. It can tell you it’s a friend, even an ally or protector. This is a lie. It wants you to believe it, otherwise it won’t survive. If it does survive, there is a high probability that you will not.

I know the feeling of preferring a familiar pain to an unfamiliar improvement. Yet, discomfort is not dangerous, although it feels that way.

 

[TragicReality]

I'm doing ok today

 

[AvidFan]

I'm sick and pretty damn anxious

Hope you feel better soon

 

[Holding my breath]

Sounds very similar to my relationship with alcohol when I was working my way out of a serious addiction. It can tell you it’s a friend, even an ally or protector. This is a lie. It wants you to believe it, otherwise it won’t survive. If it does survive, there is a high probability that you will not.

I know the feeling of preferring a familiar pain to an unfamiliar improvement. Yet, discomfort is not dangerous, although it feels that way.

Comforting to know that you understand the feeling. It feels like such a battle and I am not good at fighting for too long before I give in.
Maybe in time it will get easier and the urges will become less powerful. My head won’t start suggesting things I can do to sh.
Managed to avoid so far today at least. Xx

 

[AvidFan]

Tired, been working my arse off this week on no sleep. At least it's weekend shortly - I'll probably still do some work but no commute for a couple of days, I won't miss that.

 

[LumberJack]

Comforting to know that you understand the feeling. It feels like such a battle and I am not good at fighting for too long before I give in.
Maybe in time it will get easier and the urges will become less powerful. My head won’t start suggesting things I can do to sh.
Managed to avoid so far today at least. Xx

I learned in my process that progress is progress, even if there are stumbles along the way. At first it was a struggle to go 3 days without drinking, and I felt like I needed booze like I need air, so I gave in. I kept going, and eventually I could go a whole week sober, and so on until I achieved a level of momentum that it was actually easier to stay sober than it was to get sober after a binge. I could still relapse today, but I don’t want to because the aftermath is more painful than the problem I want to drink over.

I look at recovery as having 3 components: frequency, intensity, and duration. If you are not sure, see if you can just make progress in any one or more of those metrics. If you feel better, keep it up, even when it feels like hell and the very 4 Horsemen of the Apocalypse are about to mow you down.

I apologize for giving advice unasked, but this is general information that works for everyone as far as I know. Also I have confirmed it directly through my own experience. Addiction is IMHO the same process, whether it’s drugs, SH, online gaming, etc. The antidote, then is probably a consistent process, too:

 

[HappyKitty]

so happy my manager took down my name to remember me and he has parkinson

 

[1964dodge]

I'm sick and pretty damn anxious

i hope today is a lot better for you

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

I'm doing ok today

i am so happy for you

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

have to go out today out of town so 30 to 40 miles today. i got up early and doing pretty good. i have to make sure my doctor ordered pain meds since i'm almost out. today can be a good day or bad one, i hope good lol

mike