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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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I am feeling surprisingly OK. I did my 7 mile run today, managed to do the laundry and do a few quid's worth of remote work while I had nothing much better to do. I feel more like more normal self for a while. I had a horrible fatigue headache before the run, but the exertion blew it away. Am hoping my new sleep strategy (bore myself to sleep getting up every 20 minutes to take blood pressure readings if I don't fall asleep) is a keeper. Of course another week is coming ready to knock the stuffing out of me and could have catastrophic news - but for now I'm OK.
Sad. Idk, I just feel like long term happiness isn't gonna happen to me again. It hasn't happened since I was 12. I really don't know when or how things are gonna get better and I feel like there are so many steps I could've taken to not feel like shit all the time. Not to mention how little my parents actually cared about me once I turned 13.
I have multiple sclerosis, a brain tumour and breast cancer. I have not seen my bf since I started my chemotherapy 5 weeks ago. He is mysoginistic and yesterday sent me abusive messages accusing me of being a prostitute when I live in Spain 20 yrs ago. I was never a prostitute. I had my own market stall in Spain and I sent him photographic evidence of me working on my stall. Being diagnosed with cancer and now going through his abuse and neglect is killing me. Yesterday when I read his message, I thought I was going to have a stroke. I am pondering on stopping my chemotherapy and refusing surgery , because I don’t know why I’m bothering . My sad existence doesn’t seem worth it
I know I already said thank you, but I want to say how these words helped me. My mind was in a particularly tight painful place, and you managed to shine a little light on things. 
Other people have also said the same. I'm grateful.
Nobody deserves pain from broken relationships - doesn't matter what it's caused by. The grief and self-disparaging blame has to heal, even when it cannot ever go away entirely. 🩷
Other people have also said the same. I'm grateful.Nobody deserves pain from broken relationships - doesn't matter what it's caused by. The grief and self-disparaging blame has to heal, even when it cannot ever go away entirely. 🩷
I used to get somewhat frequent UTIs. Several in a single year. Then many years passed without them, thank God. But this past December, I got another, probably because I'm on the Skyrizi injection, for psoriasis and Crohn's disease. It compromises the immune system and makes infections more likely and more difficult for the body to fight off. Anyway, I took a course of Cipro and it seemingly went away. Though, I still felt like I was perhaps having some very mild symptoms left over, but I chalked it up as I was imagining things (I probably wasn't). Three weeks later, I knew for certain that the infection was back again full force. I got another course of antibiotics. I felt okay again for about a week. Then it was back again. A freaking third time. And I also realized that it came back right after I injected the Skyrizi. A day or two after. If I knew that would happen, i certainly would have waited to do that. But I only realized after the fact. Took a third course of antibiotics. Nothing. Nothing at all. If anything, I think it got worse. So I was back at the urgent care asking for Cipro again specifically, because the past two times, they had decided to give me a different antibiotic that clearly didn't work as well. So now I'm on my fourth course, and praise God, I think it's starting to work. I was in so much pain from this damn UTI these past two days, especially, that I can't even describe it. All I could do was pray and cry. I'd rather deal with about 20 different kinds of pain than I would this again.
I know I already said thank you, but I want to say how these words helped me. My mind was in a particularly tight painful place, and you managed to shine a little light on things. Other people have also said the same. I'm grateful.
Nobody deserves pain from broken relationships - doesn't matter what it's caused by. The grief and self-disparaging blame has to heal, even when it cannot ever go away entirely. 🩷
Other people have also said the same. I'm grateful.Nobody deserves pain from broken relationships - doesn't matter what it's caused by. The grief and self-disparaging blame has to heal, even when it cannot ever go away entirely. 🩷
I just turn off my TV, and the emptiness catches up with me in an instant, clenching my throat with a vice-like grip. It seems my two options in life are to either continue wasting time escaping into video games and television, or search desperately for ways to feel comfortable in my own skin. It’s just intolerable feeling wound up all the time and ready to leap out of my skin any second.
