All i am feeling right now is a huge desire and overwhelming need to run (not physically go running) and escape. Escape what??? i am unsure. Which makes it difficult to know where to escape to.
That’s a trauma response. I frequently say this, and I do so because it’s so very true. The vast majority of our unhealthy behaviors are due to some younger part of ourselves that has not healed.
Aside from that, the verbiage you use is a textbook description of our instinctive response to threats, aka “fight or flight.” We know instinctively how to size up a situation and decide whether to fight or get the hell out of there. Animal studies indicate that the most efficient strategy is to flee every time it’s available, and only fight when trapped.
I can draw this out with a silly observation. Rabbits are arguably the world champions of getting away from threats in a hurry. Coincidentally, there is no shortage of bunnies hopping around. They do occasionally get eaten, but those unfortunate bunnies are the exception to the rule, lol.